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The smell of ammonia was my only weapon. Chemical, sharp, and brutally clean , a beautiful, sterile poison that burned away the memory of anything organic. I scrubbed the white marble tiles until the reflections were blinding, until the cold ache in my hands matched the hollow space in my chest. My job, at nineteen, was to turn a house into a mausoleum of wealth. To ensure nothing here felt messy, nothing felt real.
The Grant estate wasn't a home; it was a fortress built of historical money and modern arrogance. Every surface I touched radiated the kind of oppressive power that didn't need to shout to crush you. It just existed, heavy and final. My role was simple: to be the silent engine of this machine, the girl from Africa hired to erase the dust, the stains, and the inconvenient truths. I had learned quickly that the most important thing to clean wasn't the floors, but my own face, ensuring no shadow of feeling , no fear, no recognition , ever reached the surface. Invisible. It was the only thing standing between me and the running girl still hiding inside my skin. I paused, leaning on the worn handle of the bucket , the one cheap, honest thing in the entire foyer. My heart hammered a tiny, frantic rhythm. A sliver of sunlight, fractured by the chandelier, caught the polished floor, and for a terrifying second, the reflection wasn't crystal. It was the low, corrugated tin roof back home. The images were always the same: golden dust motes, the distant, muffled rhythm of the neighborhood drums, and then the shift. The unnatural silence. The kind of silence that swallowed people. My mother, beautiful and fierce, gone. Kian, my brother, nine years old, gone, too. The lie I lived inside was the only thing that kept me breathing. I wasn’t a survivor; I was a failure. I had run. I had left. They died because of me, or while I was busy running away. My guilt was a stone carried beneath my ribs, a cold, heavy anchor. This gilded cage, this job, this town was the only place far enough to try and hide the weight. To simply be Sasha, the maid. “Sasha, stop fussing with that floor. It’s spotless.” Mrs. Grant, the Mayor’s wife. Her voice was pure powdered ice, smooth and chilling. I didn't look up, murmuring the practiced response. "Just ensuring the sealant is curing evenly, ma'am. My apologies." She smelled of jasmine and profound boredom. She was a still water creature, and my necessary existence was an irritation to her perfect world. She wore power effortlessly, without even noticing. “The Mayor will be hosting a breakfast. I want the conservatory ready. Every surface clear. Do not interrupt them. Do not exist in their field of vision.” The unspoken rule was clear: disappear. The danger here was predictable, formal, and structured, unlike the chaos I’d fled. Predictability was survival. I retrieved to the conservatory, my temporary sanctuary. I found my five minutes of peace pressed against the rough bark of the huge potted fig tree. I breathed in the rich, honest smell of soil that hadn't been sanitized. I was saving money. I was far away. I was anonymous. Then, the world shattered. The sound was pure combustion: an expensive engine, driven with flagrant arrogance, tearing up the gravel drive and slamming to a stop right outside the back entrance. The noise was startling, a violent intrusion. I flinched, pulling away from the fig tree and reaching instinctively for my cleaning caddy. I needed to look busy, look small. Ethan Grant stepped out. I had seen the Mayor's grandson before, but always from a safe distance, a figure moving through the house like sunlight. He was tall, perfectly sculpted, moving with devastating, effortless grace. He was the golden boy, the political heir, the one who was supposed to make everything look legitimate. He didn't walk; he strode. He didn't look; he commanded attention. He was carrying a gleaming, matte-black briefcase and talking rapidly into his phone, his jaw set in what looked like intense frustration. He moved fast, cutting across the conservatory floor toward the inner hallway that led to the private study. I was backing away, trying to merge with the shadow of a large wooden credenza, when he pivoted abruptly to avoid a discarded crate of champagne bottles left by the catering staff. It happened in an instant: the briefcase swung wide, and he didn't even slow down enough to notice the object he was about to hit. The collision was brutal. Not just a bump, but a hard, physical impact. The briefcase hit my shoulder, jarring my entire frame, and the shock knocked the glass caddy right out of my hand. Shatter. The sound was impossibly loud in the conservatory’s silence. Glass fragments, bottles of polish, and scrubbing brushes exploded onto the marble floor. I stumbled, my ankle twisting, and found myself falling , not onto the floor, but against him. I hit his chest, hard, the expensive fabric of his suit jacket pressing against my face. My hands instinctively shot out to stabilize myself, clutching at his arms. He stopped speaking mid-sentence, the phone falling slack in his grip, his body suddenly rigid. My breath hitched , a sound too loud, too desperate. The ammonia, the polish, the scent of expensive male cologne , it was all mixed with the metallic, terrifying smell of fear. My fear. He didn't shove me away. He didn't flinch. He just held my arms, his hands warm and strong through the thin cotton of my uniform. "God, I'm sorry," he muttered, his voice low, no longer distracted by the phone call. It was rough, intimate, and too close. "Are you alright?" I pulled back instantly, terrified, scrambling away from his heat and touch. I fell back against the credenza, trying to make my body small, focusing only on the mess , the evidence of my failure scattered all over his perfect floor. "I , I am so sorry, Mr. Grant," I stammered, my voice thin and foreign. "My fault. I wasn't watching. I'll clean it immediately." I didn't dare look at his face. I was already reaching for the shattered glass, an almost frantic need to erase the evidence. "Sasha. Stop." His command was gentle, but firm. I hesitated, my fingers hovering just above a piece of jagged green glass. Then he reached down, his hand sweeping past my ear to pick up his fallen briefcase, and his movement brought him impossibly close again. I felt the heat radiating off him, and I finally forced myself to look up. His eyes were startlingly clear hazel, and they weren't angry or impatient, like his grandmother's. They were concerned, yes, but beneath that, they were intensely curious. They weren't looking at the broken glass. They were looking at me. "You're shaking," he said, not as an accusation, but as a simple, human observation. He didn't move away. He just stood there, letting the silence settle, making me feel visible in a way that terrified me. "Take a breath. It's just glass." But it wasn't just glass. It was the moment I stopped being a ghost. And in his gaze , in that warm, sudden, intimate seeing , I felt the most dangerous surge of my life: the terrifying knowledge that I desperately wanted this beautiful, dangerous man to see me again.I woke up the next morning with the sickening certainty that Mrs. Grant knew everything. The kiss, the complicity, the entire disastrous exchange in the pool Harrison had seen it, and Harrison reported to her. My phone remained silent, but the lack of communication felt like the quiet before a judge's sentence.I was scrubbing the delicate tiles in the greenhouse, one of the few places in the house that smelled of living things instead of old money and ammonia, when the shadow fell over me."Sasha."The sound of Mr. Harrison's voice was always dry, emotionless, and final. I straightened immediately, my heart hammering.He was dressed perfect, a clipboard held loosely in his hand. He didn't look at the flowers or the dirt; his focus was entirely on me."Mrs. Grant is under the impression that the staff is becoming careless," he said, his voice low and precise, devoid of anger, which made it far more terrifying. "She believes there are distractions compromising the order of the house."
I was already dressed in my dark clothes when I left the staff room, my skin still clammy from the nightmare. The memory of the gunshots and the useless phone call felt more real than the polished hallways of the Grant house. I needed to move, to be occupied, to stop being Chimamanda. The pool area was quiet, bathed in the soft, ambient glow of the underwater lights. It was still 4:00 AM. Ethan was there, but he wasn't stressed or focused. He was sitting on the tiled edge of the pool, his feet dangling in the water, wearing a thick gray hooded sweater. He looked utterly, surprisingly bored. "You came," he said, turning his head toward me. He didn't stand up, didn't move to hide his expression. "You asked me to," I replied, my voice rough. I kept my distance, sitting on one of the cushioned loungers, maintaining the space between master and maid, co-conspirator and handler. He sighed, a long, weary sound that broke the silence. "I know. It's ridiculous. I just... I couldn't slee
The heat was thick, humid, and smelled of the dry earth after a sudden storm. I was nineteen again, but my skin felt tight, too small for the guilt that was supposed to fill it. We were in the cramped, airless back room of our house. The single kerosene lamp threw long, flickering shadows on the corrugated tin walls. "You have to be quick, Chimamanda," my mother whispered, her face tense. "The sun is down. The roads are clear now." "Mama, please," I pleaded, my voice thin and high. "Let me stay. Let me call Mr. Adebayo. We can hide." She grabbed my hands, her grip surprisingly strong. "No. No calls. No staying. Only moving." She looked toward the small, wooden cot where my brother lay sleeping. "You are taking Kian." Kian, nine years old, curled up tight with his arm draped over a threadbare stuffed lion. The sight of him, innocent and trusting, was a blade twist in my gut. My mother pulled a small, battered notebook from inside the lining of her skirt — a plain, black book that
The sound of the lock clicking in the door of Mrs. Grant's dressing room didn't signal freedom; it signaled the tightening of a noose. I didn't move for several minutes, my back pressed against the wardrobe, the word Chimamanda still ringing in my ears like a death knell. They knew. They hadn't just looked at a file; they had bought the identity I had buried with such agonizing care. The threat wasn't a warning; it was a certainty: I was a fugitive, and Mrs. Grant held the arrest warrant. My hands were still shaking, but I forced myself to retrieve my phone. I had to complete Ethan's mission, even if the intelligence was now tainted by my capture. His blind, arrogant faith in me was my only temporary shield. With stiff, mechanical movements, I sent the photos of the personal ledger keys to him. [10:45 AM] Sasha: [3 photos attached] His reply was instantaneous, celebratory, and devastating in its oblivion. [10:46 AM] Ethan: Perfect. You did it. That's a huge win. You're incredi
The scent of chlorine and expensive cologne clung to my clothes, a phantom reminder of the pool. For two days after the secret meeting, I felt an almost unbearable emotional whiplash: the lingering, intoxicating heat of Ethan's kiss battling the chilling knowledge that he was using me to destabilize his own family. The tension in the house was a taut wire. The Mayor was subdued, locked away in his office for hours. Mrs. Grant, however, was vibrant with hostile energy. She was everywhere, her presence a cold, piercing light that searched for any flaw, any evidence of my treachery. She had increased my duties to absurd levels — tasks designed to keep me near the family's possessions and under her direct scrutiny. The next command came not at midnight, but mid-morning. [10:15 AM] Ethan: Grandmother keeps the personal ledger keys hidden near her dressing table. Small silver lockbox. Get me a photo of the keys. Today. The request was a punch to the gut. The keys to the personal
I didn't hear from Ethan for three days. Three days of scrubbing surfaces and trying to look invisible while the memory of my crime , the security logs, the fear, his cold "Good" , burned in my mind. The ache from the push was gone, replaced by a constant, nervous tension. I was his accessory now. I waited. The text came not late at night, but in the middle of the Tuesday afternoon, when the household was settled into its rhythm of quiet power. [3:45 PM] Ethan: Indoor pool. Midnight. No clothes. I dropped the dust cloth. The last two words , « No clothes » were a punch to the gut. This wasn't a request for logistics. This was a demand for me, leveraging the fear and the loyalty I had shown him in the Maintenance Room. He was testing the boundaries, seeing just how far my terrified compliance would take me. I sent a single reply [3:47 PM] Sasha: I’ll be there. With clothes. His reply was instantaneous: Wouldn’t dream of you wearing a uniform. See you soon. The indoor pool was a







