Chapter 63

ASA

Man, fuck this shit.

  I pull out a cigarette from Nicholas's pack and light it. Taking in a long drag, I stare at the ceiling and spur out the smoke. This is hard. Falling in love is hard. It has always been hard and I hate myself for forgetting so soon. 

   Nick sits back as he watches me with his shit eating grin. What did I get myself into?

" What did she say?" Nick asks. I don't wanna talk to nobody. 

     Thinking about the look on her face, I wanna punch something. Someone, anyone at all. I fall back on the couch and run my hands down my hair as I inhale the cancer stick. Why did I tell her I was in love with her? I couldn't help it. I guess it was time to finally tell her how much I feel towards her. That I was tired of pretending the sex we've been having is meaningless, when all this time it meant a lot to me. 

   And the minute I opened my mouth to tell her I