로그인Damian Pov
I didn't mean to stare at her but I couldn't help it. Karen Tyler walked into my office on Monday morning wearing a tight black skirt and a white shirt. I knew right away that hiring her was either the best decision I ever made or the worst. "Mr Roberts?" she said and her voice was smooth and nice. "I'm Karen. Your new secretary." I stood up and shook her hand. When our hands touched I felt something weird in my chest. "Call me Damian," I said. "No need to be formal." "Damian," she said and she smiled. She had really white teeth. "Thank you for this job. I promise I won't let you down." "I hope not," I said and I pointed to the chair. "Sit down and I'll explain everything." She sat and crossed her legs and I tried really hard not to look at her legs but I did anyway. I cleared my throat and started explaining how messed up the company was. "So basically everything is falling apart," I said after talking for like twenty minutes. "I'm losing money and clients and I need someone who can help me fix this." "I can do that," Karen said and she sounded really confident. "I worked at Harrison Industries before this and I helped them make thirty percent more money in six months." "Thirty percent?" I said and I felt hopeful for the first time in forever. "How did you do that?" "I'm good at seeing problems and fixing them," she said and she leaned forward. I smelled her perfume and it smelled expensive. "If you trust me I can do the same thing here." "I'll try anything right now," I said honestly. And she did exactly that. One week later Karen came into my office with this whole presentation about what was wrong with my company and how to fix it. She talked about changing how departments worked and getting new clients and cutting costs. "This is amazing," I said while looking at her slides. "How did you do all this so fast?" "I work hard," she said and she laughed. "Plus I like challenges." Over the next few weeks Karen proved that she was really really good at her job. She set up meetings with new clients and somehow got half of them to sign contracts. She organized all my files so I could actually find things. She even stayed late to help me with paperwork. "You don't have to stay," I said one night when it was almost ten. "You already did more than enough today." "I don't mind," Karen said and she looked up from her computer. "Besides you're still here so I might as well help." "My wife is probably wondering where I am," I said even though Bella was used to me working late now. "How is your wife?" Karen asked and something about how she said it sounded weird. "She's good," I said. "Busy with modelling." "She's really pretty," Karen said. "I saw her in Vogue last month." "Yeah she is," I said and I felt guilty for some reason. She leaned over my desk to show me something on the paper and her shirt was low cut and I could see down it. I forced myself to look away. "What am I looking at?" I asked and my voice came out rougher than normal. "These numbers," she said and she pointed. Her arm touched mine. "They're finally going up. We're making progress." "You're different than I thought," Karen said while playing with her wine glass. "What do you mean?" I asked. "I thought you'd be really serious and cold," she said. "But you're actually funny and nice." "Nice?" I laughed. "No one ever calls me nice." "Well you are," she said and she reached across the table and touched my hand. "At least to me." I should have moved my hand away but I didn't. I let her fingers stay on mine and I felt something I hadn't felt in months. I felt wanted. "We should probably go," I said but I didn't move. "Probably," Karen said but she didn't move either. We sat there for another hour drinking and talking and by the time we left I was drunk on more than just wine. I was drunk on how Karen made me feel special and interesting and important. When I got home Bella was asleep and I was glad because I didn't want to explain where I'd been or why I smelled like perfume. The next morning I woke up feeling guilty but then I got to work and saw Karen in a red dress that showed all her curves and the guilt went away. "Good morning," she said happily. "Ready for another great day?" "Yeah," I said even though great wasn't what I was thinking about. Weeks went by and Karen became more than just my secretary. She became someone I wanted to see every day. Someone who made me laugh and feel good about myself and made me forget about all my problems. "You've been working late a lot," Bella said one night at dinner. "The company needs me," I said and it wasn't really a lie. "I need you too," she said quietly. "I know baby," I said and I grabbed her hand. "Once things calm down I'll be home more I promise." But things didn't calm down and I didn't come home more because being at work meant being with Karen and being with Karen meant feeling something other than stress and pressure. I knew it was wrong. I knew I was married and I loved Bella and I shouldn't be thinking about my secretary like this but I couldn't help it. Karen made me feel alive and Bella just made me feel guilty about not being able to give her a baby. "We should celebrate," I said to Karen after we closed another big deal. "The whole team. Drinks on me." "Sounds perfect," Karen said and she leaned really close and whispered "Make sure your wife comes too." I looked at her and something in her eyes made my heart beat faster. I knew what she was saying without actually saying it. "Why?" I asked even though I already knew. Karen smiled and ran her finger down my tie. "Because three is more fun than two," she said. I should have said no. I should have told her that was inappropriate and that I loved my wife and that this needed to stop right now. But I didn't say any of those things. Instead I texted Bella and told her about the party. And I knew exactly what I was setting in motion.Bella PovWe got married on a Saturday in October fourteen months after the proposal. Sixty people in a rented garden with string lights strung between the trees and wooden chairs in two short rows and Nathan having strong opinions about where the cake table was positioned that the venue coordinator ultimately accommodated because it was easier than arguing with a seven year old who had clearly thought about this more than anyone.I wore ivory and nothing like the first dress. Damian wore dark navy which Nathan had personally selected at the suit fitting and defended vigorously when both Damian and the tailor suggested grey. Nathan wore a matching vest and carried the rings in a small velvet pouch and a second pouch of flower petals because we had said he could do both and nobody came up with a compelling reason to revise that decision.Tanya stood beside me. Frank from Damian's support group stood beside him. My mother sat in the front row in blue and did not offer commentary on a
Bella PovI was still crouching when I said yes and Damian made a sound I will never forget and Nathan threw both arms in the air and shouted something that was half word and half pure noise that startled the ducks near the pond into brief alarm.Damian slid the ring onto my finger and stood and I stood and he held me and then Nathan wedged himself between both of us from the side and refused to be displaced."I'm going to be in the wedding right," Nathan said, his voice muffled against Damian's jacket."You are absolutely going to be in the wedding," Damian said."As the ring bearer or the flower person," Nathan said."Whichever one you want," I said."Both," he said without hesitating."Both it is," Damian said.We sat down in the grass eventually because Nathan wanted to tell the ducks what happened and Damian and I sat next to each other and I looked at the ring while he watched me look at it. The stone was simple and clean and the setting was low and it was nothing like
Damian Pov I had been planning it for three weeks and every time I started mapping the details I went back to the one fixed point which was that it had to be simple and honest and somewhere real. The park where Bella and I had our first date ten years ago was a forty minute drive from the city but Nathan loved the open space and the duck pond and Bella had mentioned the park twice in the past year in passing like she still thought about it.I told Nathan the plan the night before. He sat very still while I explained it which was how I knew he understood it was serious."What do I do," he said."You come out from behind the tree when I get down on one knee," I said. "That's it. Just stand there.""Should I say anything," he asked."Only if you want to," I said.He considered this. "I'll decide in the moment," he said."Good plan," I said."Do I look serious enough," he asked. He tightened his arms across his chest to demonstrate his intended posture."Very serious," I said.
Damian Pov Six months of dating and I had opened and closed the ring tab online four times before I finally called Dr. Williams and said the thing I had been avoiding saying out loud."I want to propose to Bella," I said. "I've been thinking about it for months and I keep stopping myself and I need to talk through it.""What keeps stopping you," she asked."Fear," I said. "Specifically the fear that she'll say no. Not because she doesn't love me but because she doesn't trust me enough for marriage yet. And if she says no I have to figure out how to keep co-parenting and co-existing with that answer between us.""That's a real possibility," she said. "Are you prepared for it.""No," I said honestly. "But I'm also not prepared to never ask. The wondering would be worse than the no. I know that already.""Tell me why you want to propose," she said. "Not what you're afraid of. Why you want to do it."I thought about it for a moment. "Because I want to be her husband," I said. "No
Bella Pov My mother had been holding it in for two months and I knew because silence from my mother on a subject she disagreed with was never actual silence. It was pressure building. On a Sunday afternoon while Nathan was in her backyard she set her tea down on the counter with a small deliberate sound and I knew the conversation had arrived."I need to say something about Damian," she said."Mom," I said."Hear me out," she said. "You came home broken. I watched you rebuild from nothing. I watched you sleep on my couch for weeks and I watched you cry every night and I watched you build the agency and the apartment and your whole life back from zero. And now you're choosing to go back to the person who caused all of that.""He's different now," I said."You said that before," she said. "Back when you were still married. He's working on himself you said. He's in therapy you said. And then the trial happened and every detail came out in a courtroom and you had to sit there and h
Damian Pov Nathan had been watching us for weeks with the careful attention of someone conducting a silent investigation. Every time Bella came to pick him up or I dropped him off he noted how long we talked at the door and whether we were smiling and at what and how close we stood. He was seven now and sharp in a way that kept catching me off guard.One evening while I was tucking him in he folded his hands on his chest and looked at the ceiling the way he did when he had decided to say something serious."Daddy," he said. "Are you and Mommy dating."I sat on the edge of his bed. "What makes you ask that.""Because you looked at your phone during my soccer game," he said. "And then you smiled like it was Mommy texting you. And now you smell different when she's around.""I smell different," I repeated."Like you put on more of the good spray," he said. "The one you save."I tried not to smile at that. "Yeah buddy," I said. "We're dating."He sat up fast and the blanket went







