The contemplation

Justin felt his heart fall into his stomach as the door opened. His eyes focused as to see who was there but it was no one he should be worried about.

" Pheeewww" Justin let out a very heavy breathe he was holding as he saw Desmond enter the house with what looked like a packaging his hands.

Desmond had stepped out just for not up to 5 minutes but it felt like infinity for Justin.

There was a package I ordered for at the gate. I went to pick them up. Desmond said walking towards him.

Justin didn’t say a word. He stood frozen in place, the phone dangling at his side, his eyes unfocused like he was somewhere far away.

Justin didn't say anything but just sat down on the nearest chair close to him as his legs were very weak already.

Desmond’s eyes narrowed. "Everything alright?"

What's the matter J? Did the caller finally speak up? What did he or she say? He said as he placed the stuffs in the table.

Justin said there looking at him blankly without any emotion.

" I ... I actually don't know the caller" he said placing a hand to support his chin

" I don't understand what do you mean, what did the person say" Desmond said.

They just warned me to Drake clear from Drake I'm guessing they used a voice changer". He said sweat forming on his face.

" What!!!" He said rushing to hug him. "J are you okay?" He said wiping his face.

" I just don't know how to feel " Justin said leaning his head on Desmond's shoulder.

" I understand that what you're going through but why don't you go and meet Drake and talk to him about all these" Desmond said

Justin lifted his head and gave him the side eye.

" Yes J you can't be facing all these alone . Go and talk to Drake you never know. Get his own side of the story. Whatever it is that is going on you deserve to know about it."

" But why? Do you think he'll say anything meaningful or useful at this point?"

" Just go and meet him J . Avoiding him now won't help solve the issue." Desmond patting his back.

" I don't like seeing you like these you've not eaten or slept properly since then. You have to get better J. Desmond said getting up and moving to the kitchen.

" It's hurts so bad. The fact that I trusted him with all my heart again. I feel so bad." Justin cried.

" I know J I know but he should still love you. It was visible in his eyes."

Justin went to the couch and lay there not knowing what else to do. His life was turning upside down again.

I don't think I will be able to forgive him again. I can't do it anymore.

" You need to talk to him to relieve yourself of the weight and to know if it's even true. What if she just wanted to spoil your relationship?" Desmond spoke to him.

Desmond's statement kept playing in his head. " Do you really think so?"

" I'm just saying. One never knows. Do not let your pride consume you and stop you from your happiness."

"Okay I will" Justin said and exhaled deeply.

He spent the day doing nothing just walking around the house from time to time. Avoiding the envelope with everything in him.

He did want to see those pictures again.

He spent some of his time at the balcony starry at the sky and also struggled to distract himslef with music a s TV shows by his mind took him to Drake always..

He missed him deeply and he couldn't deny it.

Night fell and he was served some hot tea by Desmond who later left him alone in the living him to give him more time to think and make a decision.

Just as Justin sat in the side chair wrapped in a blanket from the called, he was brought of his thoughts by his phone buzzing.

He was scared and did not want to look at it anymore.

After 5 minutes he gathered courage and ti his greatest surprise it wasn't who he expected. It was a message from Drake.

Please can you come out. I need just 5 minutes please"

Justin's heart fell into his stomach. His chest began hurting him and he stared at the phone his fingers not able to move.

Desmond had come to check if he had had the tea at least and met him with a funny expression. "Us anything the matter ?" He asked.

Unable to say anything, Justin turned the screen so he could see for himself.

"He's here? How did he know" Desmond asked.

"Should I?" Justin asked him with his face carrying no emotion.

After some hesitation, Desmond put his hand in his shoulder and said in a low but audible voice "it's your choice but I'll say any decision you take should be for yourself first before any other thing".

" Okay thank you Des "

"Anytime" Desmond said he assisted Justin whose legs felt heavy to stand.

All sorts of scenarios were playing Justin's head. He wondered how it will feel being infront of Drake again.

He peeked out through the window to confirm if he was actually there before stepping out. And yes he was standing right out of their gate.

Drake leaned on his car just out of their gate and he looked so pale. Eye bags were very thick and visible under his eyes and he had grown pale. He looked like the whole world had given up in him.

Justin stood there looking at him and his heart ached at how pale Drake looked. I'm as much as he was in pain seeing Drake this way broke his heart.

"Should I really do this, I don't know if I can" he thought out loud.

" You can, you can do this J just take a deep breath and everything will be fine. If you're not ready now give yourself sometime." Desmond said from behind him.

Just when he was trying to take the final decision of going out or not when he heard a knock on the door causing him to freeze and breathing difficult for him.

Drake was already impatient and wanted to see Justin already and couldn't wait anymore.

Was Justin ready for this? he stood there staring at the door for what felt like the longest one minute of his life and a knock was heard again. Will he open it this time?