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“How long have you been fucking my friend Michael!?” My husband, Harrison, slapped the birthday cake into my face just as I was wishing him a happy birthday and about to tell him that I was pregnant.
I wiped the frosting from my face and asked, “Honey, what are you talking about?”
“Even now, you’re still playing innocent, huh?” he said as he pulled out a stack of photos and flung them straight at my face. Pain flared across my cheek, hot and stinging, as the photos fluttered to the floor around my feet.
I picked up one of the photos. It showed Michael and me in bed, naked, having sex.
Then I flipped through the rest of the photos with shaking hands. There were more, Michael and I having dinner at a restaurant, walking down the street hand in hand, smiling like lovers.
I had never done any of those things. Besides, the last time I saw Michael was last year.
“That’s not real,” I said. “Harrison, those photos are fake. That never happened.”
“Really?” He laughed. “Because it looks pretty clear to me.”
“It’s fabricated! Someone made this. I don’t know how, but I’ve never—I would never—”
“I trusted you,” he said coldly as I stared wide-eyed at him. “I thought you were different from the other women. Virtuous. Loyal to your vows. Turns out you’re just as fickle and wanton as everyone else. I can’t stand what you’ve done with Michael. I want a divorce.”
Everything had happened so fast. I had been holding back my emotions, keeping them buried deep, until I heard the word divorce.
Tears welled up, threatening to spill like a dam breaking, but I forced them back and managed to say through a trembling voice, “Divorce? Over these photos?”
“Is that hard to understand?” His eyebrows went up. “I can’t divorce my cheating wife? And you know what the worst part is?”
The worst part? Haven’t I done enough all these years? I always took care of him in every little way, always going along with his moods. I didn’t even realize that, in his heart, I was never truly enough.
“We’ve been married for three years now. Three whole years, and you still haven’t managed to give me a child.”
My hand twitched toward my stomach before I could stop it. I’d been about to tell him exactly that. That’s why I’d made the cake in the first place, why I’d been waiting by the door with a smile.
The pregnancy test kit was in my purse right this second, sitting on the kitchen counter just a few feet away.
“Do you still love me?” I croaked.
“No.” He didn’t even blink. “After this? No. I don’t.”
I took a shaky breath, trying to find the courage to speak. “What if we had a child?”
He laughed coldly, and the words cut through me like ice. “A child? You want to use a pregnancy to get out of this? You haven’t managed to get pregnant in these three years, and now, right after I tell you I caught you cheating, you suddenly bring up a pregnancy? I can see through your manipulations. You’re a compulsive liar. I don’t believe you’re even pregnant. Even if you were, how would I ever know it’s mine and not Michael’s?”
After his words hit me, all my strength to argue drained away. This was exactly how he saw me, a woman utterly disgraceful in his eyes. He didn’t love me. He didn’t love our child.
Why should I bother telling him anything now?
He left me sobbing there and disappeared into his office without a backward glance. I heard the sounds of drawers being yanked open, papers rustling as he searched for something.
He called his lawyer. The two of them talked about something I couldn’t make out. Then I heard the fax machine beeping.
Beep. Beep.
After that, he picked up a few sheets of paper and walked over to me. I looked down and saw, at the top of the page, a large, unmistakable title:
DIVORCE AGREEMENT.
I looked at him. He was staring at me too, anger still burning in his eyes, but there was something else there as well, something unsettled, almost lost.
He didn’t explain. Didn’t shout.
He just said, cold and final. “Sign it.”
My hands trembled violently as I wiped my tears. I took the pen he offered and signed.
Harrison signed right after me.
His phone suddenly vibrated against the coffee table between us. The screen lit up and I saw the name displayed there before he could snatch it away. I froze.
Lyndsey.
His ex-girlfriend. The woman he’d dated for five years before he’d ever met me. The one his mother had absolutely adored and talked about constantly even after Harrison and I got engaged.
She was the most important person in his life.
I looked up at him slowly. “This was never really about the photos at all, was it?”
He didn’t deny what I’d said. He didn’t even try.
He just picked up his phone and silenced the call.
“You wanted an excuse to leave,” I rasped. “You needed some kind of justification so you could go back to her without looking like the bad guy.”
“Don’t be so dramatic about everything. She is my friend now.”
“Dramatic?” I scoffed. “You just destroyed our marriage over fake pictures and now she’s calling you within seconds of us finishing the signatures.”
He grabbed his jacket. “I’m leaving now.”
He walked to the door and pulled it open. He stepped halfway through the doorway and then suddenly stopped.
His hand tightened around the doorknob. He stood there frozen for what felt like an eternity, his back still turned toward me so I couldn’t see his face.
“What was it?” he asked without turning around. “That good news you said you wanted to tell me earlier. What was it?”
Estelle’s POVHarrison announced at breakfast on Saturday that he was going to put up a shelf.I had been reading the front page of the paper. I looked up.“A shelf.”“A shelf.”“For what.”“Your books.”“My books are on the bookcase.”“Not all of them. The medical ones. The ones you pile on your nightstand because they don’t fit.”“They fit.”“Estelle.”“They fit when I stack them.”“Stacking is not fitting.”“Okay.”“I’m putting up a shelf.”“Okay.”“In the bedroom. Over the desk.”“Okay.”He had the measuring tape already. He had the pencil. He had a piece of paper on which he had, at some point between Friday night and Saturday morning, drawn a small diagram that included an arrow and the words SECOND STUD. He had clearly been thinking about this for at least a week.I folded the newspaper.“You know I’m not going to stop you.”“I know.”“You could have just put it up.”“I wanted to tell you.”“You wanted to be appreciated.”“I wanted to tell you.”“Harrison.”“A little appreciate
Harrison’s POVThere was pounding on the door.“Dad.”“One minute.”“Dad.”“One minute, Lucas.”“I cannot wait one minute.”“Why.”“Because it is eight o’clock and I have not eaten.”“You have eaten.”“I have not eaten cereal.”“Lucas.”“I am going to pour it myself.”“Don’t pour it yourself.”“I’m pouring it.”“Lucas.”Estelle, behind me, laughed into her pillow. “Let him pour it.”“He’s going to flood the kitchen.”“So let him.”I opened the door. Lucas was on the landing in his pajamas with a cereal box in one hand and a carton of milk in the other, his face dead serious. He did not look embarrassed. He was nine and he had not yet worked out why two adults might want to sleep in on a Saturday, or he had worked it out and filed it under adult behaviors he had decided to ignore.“Dad.”“Bowl. Counter. Kitchen.”“Okay.”“I will be down in three minutes.”“Two.”“Three, Lucas.”“Okay.”He went. I closed the door. Estelle was still laughing.“He’s going to flood the kitchen,” I said.“
Estelle’s POVThe lunch box was at the bottom of Lucas’s backpack, and it was Tuesday, and I had told him on Monday evening to put it in the drying rack after dinner.“Lucas.”“I know.”“Did you—”“I’m getting it.”He wasn’t getting it. He was sitting cross-legged on the kitchen floor in his school uniform with a book open in his lap, hair uncombed, a half-eaten apple balanced on his knee. The book was a library hardback with a great white shark on the cover, opened to a page that was almost entirely photographed.“Lucas.”“This one is ten tonnes,” he said, without looking up. “It says ten. They thought it was too big to be real so they measured it twice.”“Lunch box.”“Yeah.”“Now.”“Just—”“Now, Lucas. The bus is in nine minutes.”He closed the book with his thumb marking the page, got up off the floor, opened his backpack on the counter, and started digging. Chloe came down the stairs behind me with one sock on and an opinion already forming.“Mom.”“What?”“Lucas used my scrunchi
Estelle’s POVThe kids were gone.That was the first thing. Daisy had picked them up at four—Lucas in a bike helmet for no reason, Chloe with a backpack full of books about coral reefs and a grievance she had been building for a week and intended to air on the drive. I stood on the porch and waved, and when the car turned the corner I went back inside and closed the door and stood in the hallway for a minute without doing anything else.Harrison was in the kitchen with the roasting pan. He had announced at eleven that morning he was going to make a chicken. I had said, carefully, that I did not doubt him. He had caught the carefully and elected to ignore it.By seven the house smelled of rosemary and of a chicken that had been in the oven about forty minutes too long. Harrison stood at the open oven door holding a meat thermometer in one hand and a tea towel in the other.“Don’t look at it,” he said, without turning.“Too late.”“It’s fine.”“It’s very chicken-shaped.”“I said don’t
Karl’s POVLara was halfway through a rant about her author’s refusal to cut a chapter when I slid the small velvet box across the coffee table between us.She kept talking for another four words. Then she stopped.She looked at the box. She looked at me. She set her chopsticks into the Thai container, reached over, picked the box up, and opened it.“Karl.”“Yeah.”“Karl.”“Lara.”“This is the most underwhelming proposal I have ever witnessed in my life.”“Okay.”“I love it.”“Okay.”“Ask me.”“Will you marry me.”“Yes.” She held the box open in her palm. “Yes, Karl. Ask me again tomorrow. I want to say it again.”“Tomorrow.”“Now.”“I already asked.”“Ask me differently.”“Marry me.”“Yes.”She laughed once, then started crying, then laughed again through the crying, then climbed over the coffee table into my lap without standing up. The pad thai fell onto the rug somewhere between her knee and the cushion. Neither of us looked.My hands were shaking when I got the ring onto her fing
Claire’s POVI went alone.I wore the navy coat, the pearl lipstick, the gray leather gloves. I had worn this outfit to four funerals. I did not consider this a fifth.The visitor lot was nearly empty at eleven in the morning on a Tuesday. I parked in the second row and sat in the driver’s seat for ninety seconds with both hands on the wheel. Then I took the gloves off, put them in my handbag, put them back on, and got out.The intake officer looked me up and down without pretending not to. I did not mind being looked up and down by men who make nine dollars an hour; I consider it one of the oldest taxes. I signed what I was given to sign. I handed over my handbag. I did not take off my coat, because nobody asked me to. I walked where I was pointed.Booth five held two plastic chairs, a scratched table, and a camera. I sat.Thomas came through the door a minute later. He was thinner than the last time I had seen him, which had been across Harrison’s driveway at a distance of sixty fe
Estelle’s POVI reached behind me and squeezed Karl’s back quickly, my fingers pressing into his shirt, and he stiffened for half a second before he got what I was asking.He stepped forward immediately and extended his hand toward Harrison smoothly. “I’m Karl,” he said warmly. “Estelle’s husband. I
Estelle’s POVI was printing out the medication schedule when Harrison spoke again.“Was it hard?” he asked quietly. “Studying medicine all those years?”I glanced back at him. He was still holding Lucas, who’d gone completely limp in his arms, mouth open slightly against Harrison’s shoulder.“Yes,”
Estelle’s POVChloe rubbed her nose with the back of her hand, her small face scrunching up like she’d smelled something bad.“Aunt Daisy’s flowers smell nice,” she said nasally, still rubbing, “but my nose feels funny.”Before anyone could respond, Harrison turned his head sharply and sneezed loudl
Estelle’s POVI looked down at Lucas fast, my hand still holding his. “Is that your daddy?” I asked quickly, already knowing the answer but needing to hear it anyway.“Yes!” Lucas said eagerly, his whole face lighting up. “That’s him!”I dropped his hand and spun around so fast I nearly tripped over







