LOGINI'm seated on one of the benches outside. The day is nice and cool, and that's all that matters. I try my very best to not focus on Archie that is not too far from me, playing basketball. The sweat on his skin against the sun gives it a golden cast. He looks so good.
I look back at my book trying to hide the blush on my face. I blame the sun for making my face red. Archie looks at me, then his game, then back at me. I can see the lingering gaze. Almost like he wants to speak to me. Probably to tell me to stay away from him. “And what are you doing here?." I turn my head to the voice and my heart beats so fast. It's Anderson - no, Ander. I get up ready to leave, but he grabs my shoulders, positioning me in place. I try my very best not to focus on the fact that his hands are on me. Anything but that. Like the birds in the sky, or the trees or Archie's abs. My face reddens even deeper. “I'm reading. I have an assignment I'm doing research on so I ca-" “Well, I didn't ask you.“ Ander let's go of me and goes to sit beside me. We're both staring at Archer who's staring right back at us. I can see the look he's directing to Ander. I don't know what it means, but I know it means something. I don't ask though I'm very curious. “My mother was sent back to the asylum." Ander starts speaking when I'm sure we're going to sit in silence. “Her clinical depression. I guess drinking and pills don't really do it." “I'm sorry." It's too late for me to realize that's a wrong choice of words because he cracks a wicked smile. I've seen it too many times, I know what it means. “So you do know what you did was wrong. That's why you're apologizing? Get up let's go." “Where? I have another class so I can't go far." Ander turns to me and takes a handful of my hair. No, he doesn't grab it, he gently massages it. Archie's always told me my hair is soft. “Remember Andrez. Vicky or whatever the fuck you call yourself, when I ask you for your opinion, you render it. Shut up otherwise." My mouth shuts immediately. His hand is in my hair for a few more seconds before letting it go. Ander has always been a passionate person. Whatever he did radiated that passion. I can see it now as he's looking at me. He's always looked at me like I'm the most precious thing in the world. I nod. “I'm sorry." And like a switch was flipped, the look is gone. He smiles at me and mouths, “Good boy." I smile too, my sole reason being because he started it first. "Okay, let's go.“ I shove my books in my bag and let Ander lead me. We don't get far because someone is calling after him. We turn and I see Archie running towards us. His hair and clothes are going along with the wind as he runs. I see why he's the star student. Hot and charismatic really does it for some people. And I'm proud to be some people. "Where are you taking him?“ He asks, reaching us, not even out of breath. I know I would've passed out if I was asked to cover his distance in the time he did. I'm in the middle of the siblings just like before. Ander looks at his brother annoyed. "Learn a thing of two about minding your business Archer. Weren't you playing with your friends?“ Ander pulls me ready to leave, but Archie holds my other hand. "Where are you even going Andrez?," I want to answer the question but Archie turns his gaze away from me and back to his brother. “Does he even know where his going? What do you think your plan is?“ Ander smirks. "What do you think my plan is? You know, I'm not in the mood for you right now, just stop getting involved. Being nosy doesn't fit you.“ Archie looks at me, then whispers something into his brother's ear. I'm too short to hear them. Either that or Archie is a good whisperer. Ander looks at me too, then lets go of my hand. My book bag falls to the ground, and like an idiot under scrutiny, I pick it. "Go to your class. My brother and I have something we're going to discuss,” Archie says. I can see said brother doesn't want to have the conversation. I nod and walk away, still feeling the Matheos brothers eyes on me. My class doesn't start for another 44 minutes, so there's more lounging around to to do. I contemplate going back to my room, but once I go back, I'm not coming out. I decide to get a drink and sit under one of their indoor umbrellas. It's dumb to have umbrellas indoors, but I'm not the one making profit off the aesthetic. My mind is buried deep into my jeans collection, that I don't hear the person sitting opposite me until they are tapping me. I raise my head, horrendously embarrassed. It's Timothy, not smiling at me. I've noticed he's not really expressive with his face. Either a stiff smile or a poker face. No in-between. “Hey." He slides a box of doughnuts my way. I pick the one it rainbow sprinkles and thank him. “You know the Matheos duo?" He asks. Unlike others who asked me out of jealousy, he sounded terrified. I shrug. "Something like that. It's not like we're close or anything.“ There's relief on his face. I open my mouth to ask why but he's talking again. "It's good. Let it be like that. They're not nice people. I don't even know who's worse. Archer or Anderson.“ I'm quiet. There isn't anything my brain has given me to say. It's quiet too. This information Timothy is giving me isn't news. I know, but, there's no way for me to respond to him. I don't have to because Aubrey, Charis and Zee spot us and holler at us. It's unnecessary because they still come to us. "You will never believe what happened to me today,” Aubrey says, not even answering mine and Timothy's greetings. “I'm pretty sure it's believable. Try us," Zee responds. Aubrey shots him a glare but then rolls her eyes. “Well, I just got informed that the film department will be in collaboration with the journalism students. We're doing some stuff blah blah blah. But guess who's the leader of their team. Anderson Matheos." She's squealing after saying this. Only Zee gives her the reaction that matches her energy. Charis gasps, Timothy is indifferent. My mind is racing because that means I get to see more of Ander. “10 volunteers were needed, but don't worry, I've already signed us up. Timothy, Vicky and me. Yay." I'm smiling now. That's actually good news. The others dive into conversations but I'm very comfortable buried nose deep in my phone. It isn't until my alarm goes that I remember there are humans here with me. “What's the alarm for?," it's Charis that's asking. “We have a class now. Mr. Dreiser's class. I don't want to be late." Aubrey grabs her bag. “Oh my god yes, how could I have forgotten? Let's go together then. Timothy? Get up let's go." She's able to pull 1 able bodied guy, and me all the way to our lecture hall. As we're passing, I turn my head and see Archie and Ander. Archie turns to me first, then Ander. I'm flustered to I turn back. Grateful I did because I almost bumped into a pillar. We run inside the class just before the evil wizard comes inside and locks his doors.Jesse isn't Gideon. Jesse doesn't throw a fit. Jesse stays there, feet planted to the ground. For once in my life, I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Vicky has already stiffened. "What's going on here?"Beside Jesse is Gideon. He looks rather happy that this is happening. Somehow, I know he's involved in Jesse finding out. I've been careful. I'm a reckless person, but I've tried my very best to be careful. They aren't supposed to know. Gideon wasn't to find out and Jesse wasn't either. "You're not going to say anything?" I push Vicky off me. He rushes to the bed to drape something over himself. Instead of a blanket, he dresses. I wordlessly pick my clothes from the floor and dress. Jesse has already started crying. I want to walk away but he pushes me back into the room. I actually let him. "What's wrong with you?! Aren't you going to say something? Explain your fucking self damnit." I look at everybody in the room. Jesse is crying, Gideon is disappointed. Vicky is scared. I
My phone is in my hands as I stare at it. The lecture ended a few minutes ago, but I can't get myself to stand up. I'm to visit Archer today. I don't really want to, but mom says I should. I can't be a disappointment at all things. My initial plan was to visit Marcus. Just drown myself in earthly pleasures till I pass out. I shoot a text to both of them but neither respond. So much for a threesome. I take a deep breath and check the time. Finally summoning enough courage, I get on my bike and go to the police station. He hasn't been convicted yet, so he's still in a holding cell. The officers there search me so thoroughly I almost get a hard on. I sit on a bench waiting for brother dear. He comes out eventually looking like a shadow of his former self. His hair is long and dirty, and so are his beards. I can see his ribs poking out of his clothes due to poor feeding. In all, he looks miserable. "Well you look good."He doesn't appreciate my joke for a single second. "What do you w
I freeze. Like my body stops functioning. It's even more awkward because Ander is completely naked. He seems unbothered to say the least. "What is wrong with you?! What are you doing?!" Gideon screeches. He marches towards us and I instinctively use my hands to cover my face. He doesn't hit me, but Ander. Ander turns and hits him back. "If you want either of us, wait your fucking turn!"They're yelling and I'm afraid they'll attract attention. Once Ander is off me, I wear my clothes hastily and wait. For whatever Gideon will say. "You're a sick bastard. And I asked you. You had the guts to deny it. Are you alright?!" Ander puts on his sweatpants and heads for the door. Gideon pulls him back. "Are you being nonchalant right now?"Ander shoves his hand on his shoulder. "What else do you want me to say Gideon. Tell me what you want me to fucking say!""Wasn't he enough? He's amazing and you're cheating on his roommate. Neither of you have a conscience."Ander chuckles. "The more the m
I know I'm awake, but my eyes refuse to open. I'm sporting what is hinting at a migraine at this point. Aubrey, as expected is calling me. I reach out to grab my phone, but instead I push it off the nightstand. I grunt, struggling to get it. Jesse comes inside, sees my peril and grabs the phone for me. I don't say anything because he's on the phone yelling at someone. Wouldn't want to be them. My eyes do all the talking. He ignores me and leaves. I'm about to dial Aubrey's number, but she calls again. "You have a thing for going late for classes these days. Are you okay?""For once, I'm not. I think I'm sick so I'll probably skip today and tomorrow. You're just going to have to enjoy yourself with Zee.""Oh my gosh no. Not Zebedee. Anybody but Zebedee." I know she's talking. Aubrey and Zee are a pea in a pod at this point. It's just neither of them want to swallow their pride and confess."You'll be fine. I may be contagious and I most definitely don't want you sick.""Focus on your
I can't tear my eyes away from either of them. I don't know what they're saying, but I feel like I shouldn't know. My head is spinning and I feel so nauseous. The level of attachment I have to Vicky is insane. Unhealthy too, but primarily insane. I call after Jesse as he goes upstairs. "Hey babe. I'm going to go out for a few drinks. Be back tomorrow."He complains as usual, but he still lets me leave. I don't go just yet though. I go to the normal place my bike is parked. From there, I can still see Magnus and Vicky. Vicky looks almost uncomfortable. I want to separate them, but I've learnt not to interfere. Finally, the discussion is over and Magnus goes in first. I rush to Vicky before he can get in. He's expecting a positive reaction from me, but to hell with that. I grab his hair, not paying attention to how attractive he looks in this position. "What did he say to you?" I demand. "Nothing really. It's actually nothing important. You're over thinking things." He's lying I kno
It took me days, but I finally apologized to Jesse. I told him I'm very forgetful, and I lied. I hate lying, but I did it. He eventually believed me and we hugged and everything. I'm texting him, as I'm coming back from school. I'm laughing so hard I don't see I've bumped into someone. "Oh sorry." Raising my head up, it's Ander grinning. "I've got something fun for us to do today. Are you in?" "What is it?" Ander has a very natural ability to be reckless and destructive. He hates being called to it though. That's a huge argument nobody is ready for. "Let's go to Archer's house. It's super fun there." "Don't you think we should respect-" "He's imprisoned, not dead. Quit all the sentiments." My plan was to limit my relations with Ander. If it wasn't important, I wasn't supposed to talk to him. But, him this close is making that plan insanely impossible. "We won't be gone long right? I've got to go back to Jesse." "Woah. Is he your boyfriend or mine?" "We're just friends. He's a







