LOGINI'm seated on one of the benches outside. The day is nice and cool, and that's all that matters. I try my very best to not focus on Archie that is not too far from me, playing basketball. The sweat on his skin against the sun gives it a golden cast. He looks so good.
I look back at my book trying to hide the blush on my face. I blame the sun for making my face red. Archie looks at me, then his game, then back at me. I can see the lingering gaze. Almost like he wants to speak to me. Probably to tell me to stay away from him. “And what are you doing here?." I turn my head to the voice and my heart beats so fast. It's Anderson - no, Ander. I get up ready to leave, but he grabs my shoulders, positioning me in place. I try my very best not to focus on the fact that his hands are on me. Anything but that. Like the birds in the sky, or the trees or Archie's abs. My face reddens even deeper. “I'm reading. I have an assignment I'm doing research on so I ca-" “Well, I didn't ask you.“ Ander let's go of me and goes to sit beside me. We're both staring at Archer who's staring right back at us. I can see the look he's directing to Ander. I don't know what it means, but I know it means something. I don't ask though I'm very curious. “My mother was sent back to the asylum." Ander starts speaking when I'm sure we're going to sit in silence. “Her clinical depression. I guess drinking and pills don't really do it." “I'm sorry." It's too late for me to realize that's a wrong choice of words because he cracks a wicked smile. I've seen it too many times, I know what it means. “So you do know what you did was wrong. That's why you're apologizing? Get up let's go." “Where? I have another class so I can't go far." Ander turns to me and takes a handful of my hair. No, he doesn't grab it, he gently massages it. Archie's always told me my hair is soft. “Remember Andrez. Vicky or whatever the fuck you call yourself, when I ask you for your opinion, you render it. Shut up otherwise." My mouth shuts immediately. His hand is in my hair for a few more seconds before letting it go. Ander has always been a passionate person. Whatever he did radiated that passion. I can see it now as he's looking at me. He's always looked at me like I'm the most precious thing in the world. I nod. “I'm sorry." And like a switch was flipped, the look is gone. He smiles at me and mouths, “Good boy." I smile too, my sole reason being because he started it first. "Okay, let's go.“ I shove my books in my bag and let Ander lead me. We don't get far because someone is calling after him. We turn and I see Archie running towards us. His hair and clothes are going along with the wind as he runs. I see why he's the star student. Hot and charismatic really does it for some people. And I'm proud to be some people. "Where are you taking him?“ He asks, reaching us, not even out of breath. I know I would've passed out if I was asked to cover his distance in the time he did. I'm in the middle of the siblings just like before. Ander looks at his brother annoyed. "Learn a thing of two about minding your business Archer. Weren't you playing with your friends?“ Ander pulls me ready to leave, but Archie holds my other hand. "Where are you even going Andrez?," I want to answer the question but Archie turns his gaze away from me and back to his brother. “Does he even know where his going? What do you think your plan is?“ Ander smirks. "What do you think my plan is? You know, I'm not in the mood for you right now, just stop getting involved. Being nosy doesn't fit you.“ Archie looks at me, then whispers something into his brother's ear. I'm too short to hear them. Either that or Archie is a good whisperer. Ander looks at me too, then lets go of my hand. My book bag falls to the ground, and like an idiot under scrutiny, I pick it. "Go to your class. My brother and I have something we're going to discuss,” Archie says. I can see said brother doesn't want to have the conversation. I nod and walk away, still feeling the Matheos brothers eyes on me. My class doesn't start for another 44 minutes, so there's more lounging around to to do. I contemplate going back to my room, but once I go back, I'm not coming out. I decide to get a drink and sit under one of their indoor umbrellas. It's dumb to have umbrellas indoors, but I'm not the one making profit off the aesthetic. My mind is buried deep into my jeans collection, that I don't hear the person sitting opposite me until they are tapping me. I raise my head, horrendously embarrassed. It's Timothy, not smiling at me. I've noticed he's not really expressive with his face. Either a stiff smile or a poker face. No in-between. “Hey." He slides a box of doughnuts my way. I pick the one it rainbow sprinkles and thank him. “You know the Matheos duo?" He asks. Unlike others who asked me out of jealousy, he sounded terrified. I shrug. "Something like that. It's not like we're close or anything.“ There's relief on his face. I open my mouth to ask why but he's talking again. "It's good. Let it be like that. They're not nice people. I don't even know who's worse. Archer or Anderson.“ I'm quiet. There isn't anything my brain has given me to say. It's quiet too. This information Timothy is giving me isn't news. I know, but, there's no way for me to respond to him. I don't have to because Aubrey, Charis and Zee spot us and holler at us. It's unnecessary because they still come to us. "You will never believe what happened to me today,” Aubrey says, not even answering mine and Timothy's greetings. “I'm pretty sure it's believable. Try us," Zee responds. Aubrey shots him a glare but then rolls her eyes. “Well, I just got informed that the film department will be in collaboration with the journalism students. We're doing some stuff blah blah blah. But guess who's the leader of their team. Anderson Matheos." She's squealing after saying this. Only Zee gives her the reaction that matches her energy. Charis gasps, Timothy is indifferent. My mind is racing because that means I get to see more of Ander. “10 volunteers were needed, but don't worry, I've already signed us up. Timothy, Vicky and me. Yay." I'm smiling now. That's actually good news. The others dive into conversations but I'm very comfortable buried nose deep in my phone. It isn't until my alarm goes that I remember there are humans here with me. “What's the alarm for?," it's Charis that's asking. “We have a class now. Mr. Dreiser's class. I don't want to be late." Aubrey grabs her bag. “Oh my god yes, how could I have forgotten? Let's go together then. Timothy? Get up let's go." She's able to pull 1 able bodied guy, and me all the way to our lecture hall. As we're passing, I turn my head and see Archie and Ander. Archie turns to me first, then Ander. I'm flustered to I turn back. Grateful I did because I almost bumped into a pillar. We run inside the class just before the evil wizard comes inside and locks his doors.I'm seated on one of the benches outside. The day is nice and cool, and that's all that matters. I try my very best to not focus on Archie that is not too far from me, playing basketball. The sweat on his skin against the sun gives it a golden cast. He looks so good. I look back at my book trying to hide the blush on my face. I blame the sun for making my face red. Archie looks at me, then his game, then back at me. I can see the lingering gaze. Almost like he wants to speak to me. Probably to tell me to stay away from him. “And what are you doing here?." I turn my head to the voice and my heart beats so fast. It's Anderson - no, Ander. I get up ready to leave, but he grabs my shoulders, positioning me in place. I try my very best not to focus on the fact that his hands are on me. Anything but that. Like the birds in the sky, or the trees or Archie's abs. My face reddens even deeper. “I'm reading. I have an assignment I'm doing research on so I ca-" “Well, I didn't ask you.“ Ande
My alarm blares so loud I'm sure astronauts can hear it. I groan and stretch to grab my phone. I silence it, about to toss it somewhere random, when I remember. I have a class. I check the time on my phone. The class started 15 minutes ago. I stand up and run to the bathroom. I don't want to shower, but I have to because I reek of alcohol. I bath, brush my teeth and don't comb my hair. A cap solves that problem. My outfit is a baseball cap, a shirt, the school blazer and a pair of jeans. I run out of the dorms, then forget to carry my phone. I contemplate leaving it but I don't. There could be some important messages on it. As soon as I run back upstairs and grab it, it starts ringing. It's my mother. “Yes mother?" I say as I get on my bike. The only reason she's even calling me is because her precious child is either ignoring her or busy. She sighs million times, but I still don't end the call. "How are you honey? How's everything? Jesse? How is he?“"I'm fine. Jesse's fine. Ever
I'm awake rather early. The little aesthetic alarm clock I bought even after mom preached it was a scam read 6 am. I don't have any class till 10. Normally, I would've been waking up by 9.45. It's still so early, but there's ruckus in our dorm. It took me days to realize that college students don't sleep. We either party or study, and I've been doing neither. “Didn't expect you to be awake by this time." I'm startled to see Jesse like we don't share the same room. The water droplets on his skin make me know that he just finished showering. I turn to him smiling. “I'm surprised as well. My body just asked I be up so I am." Jesse returns the smile. He and Gideon have been the nicest to me. Because Kyle is 2 years higher than us, he sees us as little children, so there's almost nothing for us to talk about. Magnus is just a jerk, I've come to realize. “Well, do you want to come for coffee with me." He removed his towel and the way I turn my head is so fast, I get whiplash. Jesse not
I'm leaving the building after my lecture and spot my brother's car. My first thought is to continue walking and completely pretend like I haven't seen him. It's of no use because he's seen me. He comes out of his car and sprints a little to catch up with me. “Aren't you a little too far away from your part of this campus?" “Andrez is in this school. I saw him not long ago." I stop walking and stare at my brother. He looks at me and sighs. “You already know? Why am I not surprised?" “I don't know what you're talking about. I haven't done anything. He's the sixth person in our dorm. I didn't know till I woke up next to him." I've already reached the parking spot where my bike is parked. I hop on it and secure my helmet in place. “I've told him to stay away from you. Do same." Archie is actually warning me. The fucker actually possessed such audacity.I scoffed. "If anything, please don't act innocent. It doesn't suit you. Also, he's in the same room with my boyfriend. We can't ign
I end up reaching my faculty. Not because I asked anybody, but because I walked and listened to people. There was this group of girls heading towards my direction so I subtly followed them. It took forever because these girls were determined to go everywhere else first. “Film And Multimedia Studies” is written in capital letters. I stare at it, marvelling at the beauty. It's so surreal. I take a picture to send to dad eventually. “The angle isn't right," someone behind me says. What was it with people talking to me? I turn around to see a blonde blue eyes guy smiling at me. He looks so beautiful if mom saw him, she'd take him home and lock him in the cupboard. “Huh?" I want to say more intelligent things but I was asking too much from my brain. That is the most it can procure.“The angle isn't right. If you're trying to get the whole thing, try taking your phone down a little." I'm embarrassed as I take his instructions. I'm glad I did it because the picture does actually come out
I try to turn to get more comfortable but there's something wrapped round my torso. I don't panic immediately because I'm just dreaming. I open my eyes and scream. So loud my other dorm mates run inside. All my years of pining finally manifested Anderson Matheos in my bed. This occurrence however doesn't seem to disrupt the four boy's staring at the scenario with disappointment. They're not supposed to be disappointed. It's Anderson we're talking about. My middle school and high school crush. “Can you stop embarrassing yourself." Jesse is on the bed trying to pull him away from me. “Wake up you deadbeat." Anderson finally opens his eyes. He groans and pushes his hair backwards. He's hotter than when I last saw him, during our graduation. He's hair is grown and his eyes seem a little bit brighter. “What's with all the ruckus? I'm sleepy." “Or hungover," some dude I didn't see yesterday snorts. “Definitely hungover." The others concur. “Okay big boy, come get some aspirin to help







