"Be strong even when your bones feel like they cannot carry the weight of your soul." [Jacqueline]
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[Jacqueline's Pov]
After Rohan's weird words, Mrs. Reina found me and she took me to the principal's office, requesting a half-day for me given my knee as well as elbow wounds. And for that I was thankful. She even helped me to hail an auto-rickshaw for home. She was too kind.
The moment I returned, I found my parents fighting. Again. I looked through the window as daddy slapped her twice resulting in her falling on the cemented floor. Her clothes were disheveled while her eyes filled with tears.
Without my permission, my feet took me over to them and I found myself standing in front of my father. I looked up to his 5'7 form.
"Please Stop Daddy. Don't hit her." The moment my words ended, one slap landed on my jaw and I staggered back.
Another slap landed
"Self-harm is not a disease. It's a spell that is cast on us in the weakest moments." [Jacqueline]....[Jacqueline's pov]Sometimes I love that time passes. That it won't stop for anyone. Because sometimes getting through a night alive is the most audacious thing. Like last night I felt the need to just kill myself. The need to remove the pain of these sufferings. Is death that horrible? Or is it because people have never been able to get through the real hidden secret of it that they blubber against deaths. Have you ever felt that? The feeling of just get the day over. So you won't have to stay in the same place that is hurting you? Huh. What I am even asking, everyone, does feels that. Not just sometimes. But various times.After I returned home, I found Daddy hitting Mummy again. Her cries in agony pierced my heart. Her tears doing nothing just shattering my he
"A day will come when you will realize that not killing yourself is the best feeling in the world because you will realize there is much more in life than the sadness that surrounded you the time you tried to suicide."[Ifveen]..."Sorry?""I was angry" huh. My eyes sharpened reading the text, why was he angry? Just because I declined to send him a picture. Who does he think he is! How can he hurt me and then go back to like it was nothing? As if.'But he saved you today Jacqueline! Otherwise, you might be dead, instead of seeing yourself here.''You could end this in a second Jacqueline. This weird friendship if you want to.''But would you like that? To end your first friendship this miserably? It wasn't like you didn't say anything to him. You did. You have trust issues, Jacqueline. You have insecurities, so you can't force your explanation on him.What if he just wanted to see you?What if he didn't have any
"Your pain isn't just painful prose. It's a novel. So fight those battles and slay." [Jacqueline]..."Jacqueline's Pov:"There was no sound of birds chirping, just the sound of man-made vehicles moving, colliding people or vehicles, the chattering voice of my bus mates, and chaos.My eyes took in the environment around me and then focussed on the phone again. I was doing this for five minutes, just taking everything in that was happening around me.Remo's last text was,"Stop ignoring me Jacqueline Please. I am going to pray for you."The feeling of emptiness was getting killed by the feeling of flattering. 'Someone can pray for me.''A stranger can pray for me.''Someone does worry about me.'I am not lonely, someone does care about me enough to pray for me
"Don't pour your heart in the people who don't even have any idea how to take care of it!"[Jacqueline]....[Jacqueline's POV]:I pinched myself hard on my wrist."Did he just apologized to me?"'Or am I dreaming?''No. No. He can not apologize to me. It must be a dream.'"What's wrong with you Jaan? Did you forgot to have your medicines today?"He smiles. A weird smile that gave me a creepy feeling. One you get when you hear a sound in darkness and you assume it's a ghost."There's nothing wrong with me. And what medicine are you talking about? I don't take any medicine. Fuck. I barely have medicines in fever." He groans in frustration and runs a hand through his black hair that he seemed to had dyed with brown. Gross.
"Love yourself, Like the clouds love rain, love yourself like the moon loves the sky. Or just find the version of how you love people and then shower that same love upon yourself because you are a person too.".....Jacqueline's POV:As I opened my eyes and looked around the white walls of the room made me feel depressed, I found three other girls sleeping on the beds that were placed corresponding to mine with white sheets covering up to their chin. I wasn't sure how long I must have been sleeping here. There seems to be very little light coming from outside. While the room was illuminated by the bluish fluorescent light. The windows were covered with thick heavy blue curtains.'Why am I here?'It suddenly dawned on me that I had blacked out when Jaan was talking to me, or rather when he was harassing me."That stupid jerk." I clenched my hands and wiggled them from the side but immediately
"We all are travelers in each other's lives with our kindness. Take care of those people with this kindness, for them, it will be the most beautiful thing you could do, and they will hold onto you and you will be able to make your life heaven. The most beautiful destination for anyone.....[Remo's Pov]Her enchanting dark black eyes took in my form, from head to toe for a few seconds, and then met mine. I sucked in a breath of air, her eyes seemed to be glimmering with stars holding in the black ink universe. While her body seems to be lit with artificial lights in the grey school uniform. A second later her pupils dilated as she looked away.'Why?''I could guess.'The tears at the corner of her eyes were proof that something must
"Sometimes you don't see the people who accept you for what you are. But you notice the people who don't. Sometimes you want love from those people who will never accept you for what you are. That's what toxic love is. And it always results in destruction." [Jacqueline]....Jacqueline's POV:I knew I shouldn't have let him intervene with his fingers. I knew it was a dangerous step considering how he had already taken my first kiss. But desperation led me to it.My Sister always warned me,"Boys are bad news. All they want is their hormones satiated. We should stay away from them far away."
"For Him, I altered my behavior, For her, he reduced the punishment. However, Together they were still lethal." [Writer] ....... The Sky was the loveliest shade of yellow, and there were no clouds. As if The sunlight wanted to make me faint. Few kids have now focused their attention on us. While few were still busy eating their food without a care in the world. He was Quite loud in yelling a single syllable 'You' but I felt the intensity of his tone. The trembling in my hands didn't go unnoticed by me. My headache was getting worse while my neck was burned by craning it so much. "I. I. I am. I am." I tried to apologize as I walked a little backward to maintain distance between us without actually turning.