LOGIN[ Cade POV ]
Media day was a performance I'd been running since I was sixteen years old and I treated it the same way I treated game prep: the night before, I broke it into components. Likely angles. Expected questions. Which ones got real answers and which ones got something that sounded like an answer but contained nothing a journalist could use against me or the team. I was good at it in the way that you got good at something by doing it dozens of times under real pressure. I didn't particularly enjoy it. That was not the point.
The point was control. The media room was the one place in my season where the wrong word from the wrong player could do damage that no amount of ice time repaired.
She was better at it than I was. I figured that out in the first fifteen minutes.
Not flashier. Not more polished in the way of someone who'd been media-trained into a persona. Better in the specific way of someone who was completely, uncomplicatedly themselves under pressure, which was rarer and harder to manufacture than any coaching. She answered questions directly, without hedging. She was dry without being dismissive. She gave the press enough to make a story without giving them anything that could be turned.
I was two seats down the table, answering a question about our neutral zone structure, when I tracked the shift in the room that meant a reporter on her end had decided to stop with the setup and try something sharper.
"Scarlett." The reporter's voice, a local sports journalist I recognised, known for going for the reaction shot. "Do you actually believe you're ready for competition at this level? Men's Division I is a fundamentally different game from what you've been playing."
The room changed. Not loudly. Just that particular quality of collective attention that falls when everyone present wants to see what comes next and nobody wants to be caught looking. I kept my eyes on the reporter across from me and tracked her in my peripheral.
She paused.
It was brief, three, maybe four seconds, and I watched her work through it the way I worked through things: fast, internal, systematic. She was sorting responses, evaluating, selecting the one that was most precisely true and least useful to the person asking.
"I've been ready for this level for two years, " she said. Flat. No defensiveness in it, no performance of confidence. Just the clean delivery of a stated fact. "The question is whether the level is ready for me." A half-beat, nothing theatrical about it, she just let the air sit for a moment, unhurried. "It's getting there."
The room gave her a small laugh. Not the sycophantic kind, the involuntary kind, when something lands precisely. The reporter recalibrated and moved on to the next question. She didn't react to having landed it. Didn't exhale, didn't let anything show. Just sat there with her hands flat on the table and waited for whatever came next with the patience of someone who had been answering questions like that since before she could drive.
Afterward I ended up in the corridor behind the media room. I always came here, the narrow hallway between the press room and the equipment storage, because it was one of the only places in this building where you could stand in silence for two minutes without someone needing something from you. I'd been doing it for three years. It felt like mine.
She was already there. Back against the wall, eyes closed, very still. The particular stillness of someone letting a performance leave their body.
She opened her eyes when she heard me. We looked at each other.
I had a number of things I could have said. Professional things. Team things. Things that fit neatly inside the operational relationship I had been trying to maintain. I opened my mouth to say one of them.
"Better answer than I would've given, " I said instead.
She looked at me for a moment the way she sometimes did, like I was a calculation she was running, and the answer kept coming out different than expected. I didn't move. I let her look.
Then she pushed off the wall and walked back toward the main doors. Her footsteps were even and unhurried. The corridor was long and they echoed for a while.
I stood there after they faded. Looking at the wall. Thinking about the exchange with the particular focus I usually reserved for film review, what had been said, what hadn't, which part of it I was going to be thinking about for the rest of the day.
I'd complimented her. Out loud. Without calculating it first. Without running it through the filter of what the team dynamic required, or what a captain's relationship with a contested player should look like, or any of the other considerations I was supposed to be running. I had just said the true thing because it was true.
That was new.
I didn't know yet if it was a problem. I had a feeling it might be.
***
I stood in the corridor after she was gone and stared at the spot on the wall where she'd been leaning. I'd given her an honest answer without calculating whether I should. That was the first time I'd done that since she'd arrived. I couldn't decide if it had been a mistake or the first thing I'd gotten right.
[ Scarlett POV ]I stayed on the ice for a while after he left.Not drilling. Just skating. Slow, easy laps, the kind where your body moves on its own and your brain does what it wants. The rink was completely empty and completely quiet and the ice was already starting to pick up the marks from our footwork, small cuts in the surface that caught the light at certain angles.She was someone who got hurt. Because I didn't do enough to stop it.He'd said it like he'd been carrying it for a long time. Like the weight of it had shaped the way he stood.I skated another lap. Thought about the way he'd turned away before telling me, that half-second of composing himself, the choice to turn back slowly and look at me straight instead of avoiding it. That was not a man who found honesty easy. That was a man making himself do something hard.I drove home. His car was already in the driveway. The house was dark downstairs.I went in quietly. Dropped my bag. Stood at the bottom of the stairs for
[ Cade POV ]I couldn't sleep. I lay in bed for an hour and a half, staring at the ceiling, and eventually accepted that this was not a problem sleep was going to solve tonight.The thing stuck in my head was small. It was a technical thing. Her left edge, there was something wrong with how she loaded it at the top of a crossover, a compensation pattern that worked because of her speed but wouldn't hold up forever. I'd clocked it in practice today and said nothing because we'd been running a team drill and pulling her aside would have made it into something, and I was still navigating how to correct her without it becoming a statement.Today she'd gone down. Third rep, wrong moment, caught the edge and hit the ice hard. She was back up in two seconds, waved off the assistant coach, kept going. Nobody mentioned it. She didn't want them to.But I'd seen it and I couldn't stop running it.At eleven-thirty I got up, grabbed my skates, and drove to the rink.She was already there.Of cours
[ Scarlett POV ]I found out about Lena Marsh by accident. Which somehow made it worse.Thursday afternoon, early home from a light recovery session. I was making coffee in the kitchen, mine was running slow, so I'd used his machine, which I'd been doing for two weeks without asking and which he'd never mentioned, when his laptop pinged on the counter. He'd left it open before going upstairs to change.I wasn't snooping. I want to be very clear about that. I was standing six feet away, minding my own business, waiting for coffee. The notification just appeared on screen and the words were right there in the preview and my brain read them automatically before I could look away.NORTHGATE WOMEN'S ATHLETIC BOARD, CASE FILE: MARSH, L.That was it. Just a subject line from an old email thread. The preview cut off there. I couldn't see anything else.I stared at it for two full seconds. Then I poured my coffee, went upstairs, and sat on my bed.Marsh. Lena Marsh.I'd come across that name o
[ Cade POV ]I waited until the house was fully quiet. Then I unlocked the drawer.It was a small barrel lock, cheap, the kind that came built into old furniture and wouldn't stop anyone who was actually determined to get in. I'd used the key anyway, every time, for two years. I knew it was more ritual than security. I did it anyway.The article was inside. Folded into quarters, the paper gone soft at the creases from being opened and folded back the same way too many times. I'd read it the morning it was published, then again that night when I couldn't sleep, then approximately twenty more times in the two years since. Always late. Always alone. Always the same ritual of the key and the unfolding and the words that never changed no matter how many times I read them.NORTHGATE WOMEN'S ATHLETIC BOARD CLEARS WOLVES OF MISCONDUCT ALLEGATIONS.The headline told you the result before you got to the story. That was how headlines like that worked, to signal the direction so you arrived at th
[ Scarlett POV ]It happened the way the best things always do, too fast to second-guess.Their defender turned the puck over in the neutral zone. Bad clear, bad angle, and suddenly there was open ice between me and the net with nothing in the way except a decision. My body made it before my brain caught up. Two strides into the zone, already reading the defender's weight, I'd noticed it two shifts back, the way he loaded onto his left edge when he thought an attack was coming wide.I went inside. Tight. Through a gap that existed for maybe a second and a half.The shot came off my backhand from a tighter angle than I'd have chosen with time to think. Slightly off-balance. Not the clean drill execution I'd been building all week. The kind of shot that relies on instinct more than technique and goes in more from belief than physics.It went in. Top right corner. Perfect.The horn sounded.For half a second the arena held its breath, that specific silence when even the crowd needs a mom
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