I look at Ryan’s beautiful eyes and I can see all the emotions she’s feeling, her body is giving me all the right signals but I can see a struggle in her mind.
She leans back from me lightly touching her neck. I smile at her to put her at ease. I know I should have given her some space. I went in too hard too quickly. It’s just that when I saw her tonight, my body took over my mind an all I could think is“ I want you ”. Of course I can’t say that to her that would scare the shit out of her, but looking at her right now I know I went too far.
“I’ll think about it” she says after a long pause. Her eyes dart from my eyes to my lips and then she looks away.
“Aside from dancing what else do you want to do?” I ask her trying to move the conversation on. I don’t want her to get too uncomfortable and leave.
“Uhm… I don’t know. I like the idea of surfing but the ocean is nothing to play with” she says returning my gaze. Suddenly she has this look on her face. As if she suddenly decided to take me on.
“I can’t teach you how to surf but I know a guy that is an amazing teacher. He…”
“You don’t surf?” she asks interrupting me
“No” I answer simply
“I imagined you did,” she says smiling.
“Oh?” I say smiling back at her. She answers me by nodding. She moves slightly in her chair looking a bit more comfortable.
“I can’t help but feel I disappointed you a little,” I say playfully.
“A little bit yeah,” she says serious, I make a mock hurt face and she laughs.
“You wound me” I say touching my heart.
“You’ll be fine, you’re a big boy,” she says smiling.
“I don’t know I think I might have to watch myself with you. You might break my heart” I say half joking. Every time she smiles my heart does a flip and my chest hurts just a little.
“Me? Break your heart? I doubt it” She says and looks at her watch, I feel a bit disappointed but I know it’s late and it’s a work night. I should get going too but I really don’t want this to end. I want to take her home with me...
“Time to go?” I ask her after a moment.
“Sort of, I have to work tomorrow so..”
“One for the road?” I ask her hopeful but expecting her to say no.
“Yeah why not?” she says instead
“Okay,” I say signaling for the waitress to bring us another round. I turn around to find her looking at me. I expect her to look away but she doesn’t. For a long while, neither of us says anything. We just look at each other, I take in her mesmerizing midnight-black eyes, her perfectly plump lips, and her chocolate skin. I love how her eyes reflect all her emotions, I see lust, excitement, intrigue, and doubt.
“Here you go” comes the waitress’ voice breaking the intense moment. Ryan looks away at that moment but I don’t, I take her in. Memorizing each and every beautiful thing about this gorgeous woman in front of me.
“So are you back for good or…?”
“I haven’t decided yet…” I say looking at her closely.
“Oh,” she says and goes back to her drink.
“My job is not permanent, I can work from anywhere in the world so I have the choice to move around,” I say feeling the need to explain myself. I don’t want her to think I just want to hit it and disappear.
“That must be thrilling, the freedom,” she says looking wistfully into the distance.
“Is that something that you would like to do?” I ask her intrigued.
“I don’t know, I like the idea of waking up in different cities, experiencing new cultures, food, and people.”
“But?” I say before she can say it.
“I’m not brave, I love my comforts. I’m the type of person to complain about how boring my routine life is but I can’t truthfully tell you that I would give it up. I can’t.” She says looking at me intensely.
“I feel the same way about my life. I say truthfully, “I can’t tell you how many times I’ve thought about giving it all up and buying an acre of land somewhere in Limpopo and you know planting my roots. But I just can’t bring myself to do it. Lord knows my parents want me to do it but…”
“You haven’t found a good enough reason to do it!” she states simply and her words hit all the way home. I just look at her, trying to not make her words true.
For as long as I could remember I was looking for something. With school, I wanted to learn more, and achieve just a little more and I became successful in everything I did because I was never satisfied with enough. In relationships, I always looked for ways to find more satisfaction and in my pursuit of that I learned the best way to satisfy a woman and as a result, I became the best lover they ever met. I put my full attention into making my women happy.
And for a while traveling completed my need for more but now I can feel that excitement fading. I don’t feel the same rush I felt when I was a young man getting off planes in different countries. I would feel a rush whenever I got to a new city. Ready to explore, eat, talk to new people, and learn. Now it feels like routine and that’s why I came back home to reset but sitting here right now I wonder if I will ever feel the same rush I did if I do decide to go back to my old life. The nomad life has been such a big part of my identity that I feel like I don’t know who I am without it
“Should we go? I don’t want to keep you any longer” Gabriel says standing he takes a large gulp of the rest of his drink. I look at him a little confused, his emotions switch up so much he’s starting to give me whiplash. He walks behind my chair and gently pulls it out gently as I stand up, I reach for my purse and stand next to him. I lean back so I can see his face and I am instantly reminded of how tall this man is. I am wearing the tallest stilettos I own and they are tall and he still makes me look tiny. My eyes go from his eyes to his mouth and for a moment I want to kiss him and I can tell he’s waiting for me to but I chicken out. “I should go, if I want to function at work tomorrow,” I say more to myself than to him. Being around him is confusing to say the least but I like his vibe, there’s something about being around him that makes sense to me. Right here standing next to him I suddenly understand what he meant when he said he’s drawn to me. I can feel the light zap of elec
“What do you need?” Gabe says to me “What do you mean?” I ask him standing up from my living room sofa, he’s sitting opposite me in my house. I feel uneasy, him in my house is bad. He’s too relaxed and at ease in my domain, while I feel out of my element. He has his long legs spread out in front of him, his arms open on the arms of the sofa. He has a warm smile on his face, he’s so inviting. I look at his casual dress so opposite to the other night. He’s wearing sweats and he’s barefoot. I have a thing about shoes in my house. “You need something, something I can help you with. You just have to tell me what you need and I will oblige you” he says a knowing look on his face. My body warms up at his words. My pussy spasms and he smiles full. His eyes trail to my now hard nipples, I cover them with my arms and sit back down. “I’m good,” I say and look away. “Why are you fighting this? You want me and I am fucking burning for you. Why are you denying the best thing that will ever happe
I resist the urge to look back to see if he left. I walk straight into the living room where Ramie is staring at my brother and Gabriel. “Ramie you remember my brother Zan” I say to her and my brother who is so occupied with making himself a plate of food he didn’t even notice her. And the fact that she went deathly silent since he knocked on the door is unsettling to say the least. What’s up with her, she’s on edge and I don’t appreciate the fact that she brought that energy into my space . And Zan brought Gabriel’s energy into my space as well. As if having him in my dreams is not enough. “Oh, sorry we didn’t see you there. I get like this when my sister cooks. She does it so rarely that when she does people fall over themselves to get a bite.” Zan says walking toward Ramie to shake her hand. “Believe me I know about Ryan’s cooking skills, we used to pay her to cook for us in school. I’m here for the food too” she says smiling at me, I smile back confused by her behavior; my int
The warm bath water soothes my bones, I lay my head back on the tub and close my eyes. I feel the stress of the day ease away. Between Ramie acting all weird and my brother showing up unannounced with Gabriel; I’m in need of a good recharge. “Some sex would be great” the instant I say that Gabriel pops into my mind. My eyes pop open and I stand up. I get busy with letting the water out of the tub and quickly tidying the bathroom before my body completely dries. Then I move to my bedroom and get to applying my scented body oil. I love the soothing smell of lavender. I slowly apply the oil, enjoying the feeling of it slide over my skin. I allow myself to imagine it’s someone else rubbing the oil on my now over sensitive skin. My pussy twitches at the thought of Gabriel touching me. I slip my hand between my legs and I’m so wet. I start to rub my clit in slow circles and slowly move my two fingers inside when my phones rings. I try to ignore it and continue, I fuck my pussy with my fi
“I don’t think we should do this” Ryan says suddenly. I takes a deep breath and look at her. Her words are like a cold shower, but I’m still hard as a rock so I sit to gather my thoughts. I’m silent, I don’t know what happened because one moment she’s sucking my tongue like it’s her life line and I can almost feel my cock claim her wet pussy then boom she says this. My hands are on her perfect ass; rubbing softly. She has the type of ass people pay money for. I want to spank, bite and do incredible things to her ass. But judging by the direction of her thoughts right now all the former will remain a fantasy “Okay” I say softly, what else can I say? . “You get why we can’t right?” she asks but doesn’t get up from me and I don’t make a move to get her off. But I stop rubbing her ass. “No, I don’t” I state and fold my arms on my chest. She looks at my arms looking a little disappointed. I ignore her feelings and care about mine. She doesn’t care that she just fucking lit me up and no
You good?” my boss says from his desk. His brow is raised, he looks worried. He’s been worried about me for the past 9 days but never said anything. I guess 10 whole days is too much for him. I’ve been working nonstop since the night I slept with Gabe. I have been doing anything but think about that night. I wake up get myself ready, go to work get in my 8 hours and pretend Gabriel didn’t ravish me on my living room sofa. “I’m good” I say looking up at him briefly then go back to work. We’re planning the annual donor’s ball. Max has an education fund he heads for brilliant high school students that need bursaries to study after high school. And every year he hosts a gala dinner to celebrate the fund’s achievements and of course get people to donate more. Every year I get the honour of hosting and every year I give myself the headache to plan the best party Gauteng has ever seen. People do unspeakable things to get the ticket and this year is no any different. Only I’m different, the j
I almost lost it when Zan called to tell me Ryan had been in accident. The moment he said, all I could hear was my heart beating over time. And when I saw her laying on that hospital bed it’s like my life stopped and nothing else mattered. Seeing her cry broke my heart, she’s under my skin and when she feels pain I feel it ten times more. I knew from the day we reconnected she would turn my world upside down. I hoped I could Stay away from her but if the past week is any indication staying away from her is going to be incredibly hard. I pull up to Ryan’s apartment complex, I need to get her a change of clothes for when I pick her up later today. Fortunately, the first responders were able to retrieve her personal items from the scene. Her car is totalled but nothing else was lost. I shudder at how wrong all of this could have gone, the guy that hit her jumped a red light and slammed into her. How she got out of this with a few scratches is beyond me. And of course, Zan is manic, he’s
I wake up with a startle, my heart is beating so fast I place my hand on my chest to calm myself. I was dreaming about the accident, only this time I got hurt so bad. I look around the room trying to figure out where I am. The last thing I remember is Gabriel picking me up from the hospital, the rest is nothing. I lay in the bed for a few minutes waiting for my heart beat to back to normal. I take my surroundings in, the big king size bed. All the white linen and the royal blue headboard. The room is painted in a faded blue or is it green? I don’t know what colour it is but it’s calming. The floor to ceiling windows have white drapes and the is huge. In front of the bed is a fireplace and to the left of the fire place is a sitting area with books on a side table. To the right of the fireplace is a door, I look at it wondering if it’s the bathroom. I need to go and I’m hungry. I haven’t had anything to eat since lunch yesterday. The hospital food was bad. I only ate the fruit and now m