I resist the urge to look back to see if he left. I walk straight into the living room where Ramie is staring at my brother and Gabriel.
“Ramie you remember my brother Zan” I say to her and my brother who is so occupied with making himself a plate of food he didn’t even notice her. And the fact that she went deathly silent since he knocked on the door is unsettling to say the least. What’s up with her, she’s on edge and I don’t appreciate the fact that she brought that energy into my space . And Zan brought Gabriel’s energy into my space as well. As if having him in my dreams is not enough.
“Oh, sorry we didn’t see you there. I get like this when my sister cooks. She does it so rarely that when she does people fall over themselves to get a bite.” Zan says walking toward Ramie to shake her hand.
“Believe me I know about Ryan’s cooking skills, we used to pay her to cook for us in school. I’m here for the food too” she says smiling at me, I smile back confused by her behavior; my intuition is ringing off the charts. What’s Ramie about?
“This is my best friend Gabriel,” Zan says pointing to Gabriel behind me, I breathe deeply feeling relieved. I don’t want him near me but I do want him around. I don’t know.
“Hi” I hear him say and I see Ramie smile at him. Her eyes light up and I suspect it’s because Gabriel is smiling that infectious smile of his. I feel him move around the sofa, again my senses are on 100% I don’t see him but I feel his every movement. I can even smell his scent, I feel foolish because I feel so connected to this guy and he hasn’t even touched me. I don’t even know him like that but… he moves into my line of vision at the far end of the room. He’s looking around as if in a trance taking everything in. He has his hands in his Jean pockets as if stopping himself from touching anything. And of course, he looks sexy in a damn t-shirt and jeans. He isn’t even trying but he’s winning.
I look at him walking into my living room, he looks even taller in my house. I feel so open and raw with him here. There is a reason why I don’t let people into my most intimate spaces. And his being here feels too revealing, as if on cue he walks to the wall next to my bedroom. For a moment I think he’s walking into my room but he stops on a Wall I hang all my pictures. It’s an artsy/P*******t memory wall. All the pictures are hanging on a string with pegs. All my happy and sad times are on display. He leans in to take a closer look. He walks the length of the wall taking his time. He gets to one picture, I’m sitting at a beach my face turned away from the camera. The sunset in the picture is mesmerizing and I’m topless. He turns to look at me.
“Here you go, you said you’re starving eat up,” my brother says walking to him with a plate of food. Zan walks to the only empty seat and gets comfortable. He takes one of the wine glasses and pours himself a drink.
“So what’s up with you?” he says looking from me to Ramie.
Gabriel walks closer to the sofas and seems to battle with something for a moment. He then sits next to me his big frame taking up all the space on the sofa. I feel his thigh touch mine and that zap of electricity I felt on our date hits me. He moves slightly and clears his throat. I look at him and wonder does he feels it?
“Well we’re catching up, we haven’t seen each other in so long,” Ramie says when the silence starts to stretch.
“Oh? Why’s that?” Zan says looking at me
“Mostly because I have been a bad friend, not returning calls that type of thing” I start to explain
“Oh no, it’s not entirely your fault. Life gets busy sometimes. And plus I was living in another city and all. ” Ramie says interrupting me.
“Well no matter you can fix it, reconnect. Get out there have fun, this should be good for you Ryan. You know less work more fun” he says taking the opportunity to bring up old arguments. My brother thinks I work too much and don’t have enough fun. We’ve been having this conversation since I started working at 18, I’m 26. So we’ve been having this argument for almost 10 years.
“Is this why you came to tell me to have fun?” I ask feeling the usual frustrations with my brother come up.
“No, I came to have lunch with you and check on you. I didn’t even know you’d be home. We just showed up. We’ll I dragged Gabriel here but yeah” he says between bites. I decide to eat too. Might as well eat, they’re here anyway. And it’s not like I can chase them out all three of them.
“So did you move back here or are you just visiting?” My brother says after a long silent moment moving his attention to Ramie. I guess it’s better to talk about others than to talk about ourselves.
“I haven’t decided yet, I still have a few things to sort out first before I can decide to move anywhere,” Ramie says giving me the same look she was giving me before Zan knocked on my door. And he notices because he looks from me to Ramie.
“That sounds cryptic,” he says to her.
“oh no, it’s just finding a job and a school for the kids type of situation,” Ramie says smiling at him.
“Oh!” Zan says simply.
We have our lunch talking about nothing really. The whole time my brain is playing all the emotions at once. For one Gabriel is next to me and I can feel his every movement, sigh, and word. And Ramie is opposite me freaking me out. She’s giving off vibes that are just weird and my brother is working overtime to be accommodating to her. He’s a friendly guy but only to those dear to him, not strangers.
Finally, Ramie announces she’s leaving and I take a real breath. I walk her to the door and she hugs me again like she did when she arrived.
“Thank you for seeing me today it really does mean a lot to me,” She says after letting go.
“Well thank you for reaching out every time,” I say really meaning it. It feels good to know someone cares about you. With that, she leaves
“She’s kinda off” Zan says after I close the door.
“Right? I thought it’s just me” I say whispering.
The warm bath water soothes my bones, I lay my head back on the tub and close my eyes. I feel the stress of the day ease away. Between Ramie acting all weird and my brother showing up unannounced with Gabriel; I’m in need of a good recharge. “Some sex would be great” the instant I say that Gabriel pops into my mind. My eyes pop open and I stand up. I get busy with letting the water out of the tub and quickly tidying the bathroom before my body completely dries. Then I move to my bedroom and get to applying my scented body oil. I love the soothing smell of lavender. I slowly apply the oil, enjoying the feeling of it slide over my skin. I allow myself to imagine it’s someone else rubbing the oil on my now over sensitive skin. My pussy twitches at the thought of Gabriel touching me. I slip my hand between my legs and I’m so wet. I start to rub my clit in slow circles and slowly move my two fingers inside when my phones rings. I try to ignore it and continue, I fuck my pussy with my fi
“I don’t think we should do this” Ryan says suddenly. I takes a deep breath and look at her. Her words are like a cold shower, but I’m still hard as a rock so I sit to gather my thoughts. I’m silent, I don’t know what happened because one moment she’s sucking my tongue like it’s her life line and I can almost feel my cock claim her wet pussy then boom she says this. My hands are on her perfect ass; rubbing softly. She has the type of ass people pay money for. I want to spank, bite and do incredible things to her ass. But judging by the direction of her thoughts right now all the former will remain a fantasy “Okay” I say softly, what else can I say? . “You get why we can’t right?” she asks but doesn’t get up from me and I don’t make a move to get her off. But I stop rubbing her ass. “No, I don’t” I state and fold my arms on my chest. She looks at my arms looking a little disappointed. I ignore her feelings and care about mine. She doesn’t care that she just fucking lit me up and no
You good?” my boss says from his desk. His brow is raised, he looks worried. He’s been worried about me for the past 9 days but never said anything. I guess 10 whole days is too much for him. I’ve been working nonstop since the night I slept with Gabe. I have been doing anything but think about that night. I wake up get myself ready, go to work get in my 8 hours and pretend Gabriel didn’t ravish me on my living room sofa. “I’m good” I say looking up at him briefly then go back to work. We’re planning the annual donor’s ball. Max has an education fund he heads for brilliant high school students that need bursaries to study after high school. And every year he hosts a gala dinner to celebrate the fund’s achievements and of course get people to donate more. Every year I get the honour of hosting and every year I give myself the headache to plan the best party Gauteng has ever seen. People do unspeakable things to get the ticket and this year is no any different. Only I’m different, the j
I almost lost it when Zan called to tell me Ryan had been in accident. The moment he said, all I could hear was my heart beating over time. And when I saw her laying on that hospital bed it’s like my life stopped and nothing else mattered. Seeing her cry broke my heart, she’s under my skin and when she feels pain I feel it ten times more. I knew from the day we reconnected she would turn my world upside down. I hoped I could Stay away from her but if the past week is any indication staying away from her is going to be incredibly hard. I pull up to Ryan’s apartment complex, I need to get her a change of clothes for when I pick her up later today. Fortunately, the first responders were able to retrieve her personal items from the scene. Her car is totalled but nothing else was lost. I shudder at how wrong all of this could have gone, the guy that hit her jumped a red light and slammed into her. How she got out of this with a few scratches is beyond me. And of course, Zan is manic, he’s
I wake up with a startle, my heart is beating so fast I place my hand on my chest to calm myself. I was dreaming about the accident, only this time I got hurt so bad. I look around the room trying to figure out where I am. The last thing I remember is Gabriel picking me up from the hospital, the rest is nothing. I lay in the bed for a few minutes waiting for my heart beat to back to normal. I take my surroundings in, the big king size bed. All the white linen and the royal blue headboard. The room is painted in a faded blue or is it green? I don’t know what colour it is but it’s calming. The floor to ceiling windows have white drapes and the is huge. In front of the bed is a fireplace and to the left of the fire place is a sitting area with books on a side table. To the right of the fireplace is a door, I look at it wondering if it’s the bathroom. I need to go and I’m hungry. I haven’t had anything to eat since lunch yesterday. The hospital food was bad. I only ate the fruit and now m
Ryan is sitting across from me in my living room. If you had told me this would happen a week ago I would have probably punched you in the face. The pain of her kicking me out still lingers, two minutes before she said those words I was deep inside her wet, tight pussy. My cock hardens at the thought. She moves uncomfortably in her seat, I realize I’m staring at her. I look away, I don’t want to feel like she’s not welcome or safe here. “How do you feel” I say breaking the silence. “I feel so much better, the pain killers are really helping me with the body pains.” she says smiling slightly. “You look better” I say looking at her thinking of last night. My heart skips at the memory of the look on her face when she saw me. The pain that was all over her face and the fact that she was relieved to see me showed how scared she was. “I had a rough night, again thank you for being there for me. I really do appreciate you for that” she says looking sad again I hate when she feels sad, I
I shift uncomfortably in the passenger seat in Gabriel’s car. I was successful in avoiding him the whole morning. I woke up early and went to my apartment to pack, for a few hours I could think and last night’s conversation was all I could think about. I can’t believe I told him about my dreams, it felt good to let it all out. But now that we’re stuck in this car together, it doesn’t seem like it was a good idea. I look to his side to steal a look, he’s concentrating on the road. He looks so comfortable and in control but then again he always looks like he has it all sorted. His long fingers are wrapped around the steering wheel. I flash to the night we slept together, how he grabbed my ass hard. His blatant want written all over his face. I sigh and pull at the seat belt. “Are you okay?” he says looking and I remember where I am. “Are you uncomfortable?” he asks concerned. “Yeah, I’m good” I answer looking to my side at him. “Maybe we should have flown home” he says and looks his
“So what happened with Gabriel” my sister asks me, she leans over the garden chair next to mine,. A look of glee plastered on her face. It’s 11 o’clock and the evening air is so cool. Dinner was interesting I spent over an hour avoiding eye contact with my mother. I’m sure she heard what I said to Rose but she didn’t bring it up. All through dinner I kept my attention on my niece and nephew, they kept me entertained us with stories about school and adventures they have with their friends. We’re sitting in the backyard, we’re surrounded by flowers and shrubs. It reminds me of Gabriel’s garden. This one is significantly smaller but it gives me the same feels I had when I was there. I realize I want to be there right now, I want to be there with him. Those few minutes we spent in his greenhouse were amazing. It’s only sad that I didn’t feel it in that moment. Am I one of those people that I need a master class on how to be more present? “He fucked my brains out” I say leaning close to