Fallon POV
The days go by quickly and slowly at the same time. I feel as if I am floating. Every day I move slowly, and time moves fast. I cannot stop thinking of them and why they are gone. Nothing in life seems fair right now. Everything is in a daze.
The funeral, my extended family, and then time alone all seem to run together. My bitch aunt and her daughters try to bully me about every part of the funeral. Lucky for me, my father left detailed instructions about their last wishes. She had no say over anything I did for my family.
Tad was the hard part for me. He was only and had15 no last wishes. So I followed my parent's wishes for him too. All three were given a small service and then cremated. My Aunt let it be known to everyone that she should have my mother's ashes. I am not separating my family. I want to keep their ashes together and with me.
"You are a selfish little bitch. I want my sister with me," My Aunt yells at me.
My Aunt repeatedly caused a scene. She wanted everyone to know that I was selfish. How can I be selfish for wanting to keep my family with me and together? Her daughters went out of their way to cry loudly and try to bring attention to themselves. My Aunt and her daughters always hated my father and my brother. Why my mother tried to keep a relationship with them is beyond my comprehension. I do know. My mother valued family.
It got so bad that the funeral director had to remove my Aunt and her daughters. I never said anything to her. I remained calm and stood vigil. I would not embarrass my family. I let my Aunt make a fool of herself. In the end, no one spoke out against anything I did or my decisions for my family.
My Aunt Tricia thought with my mother and father gone, she would inherit everything, but everything went to me. Since I am turning 18 in a few weeks, there is no need for her to be my trustee. I can handle everything myself, per my father's lawyer. That really made her mad. I am sure she would love to get her hands on my family's money, cars, and the house. She would probably lock me in the basement or ship me off somewhere if I was younger.
My father's brother, Uncle Jamie and his wife Tabby, sat in the back of the church. I did not understand why. After the service, he found me, hugged me and told me he was sorry. There was still no explanation why he stayed away from the family. Uncle Jamie and my brother were so close. It doesn't make sense, but we each grieve in our own way. Maybe he needed to be alone. I can certainly understand that.
Bruce never left my side. He held my hand and directed me throughout the service. I don't know what I would've done without him. Even now, I still don't know how I called out to him. It's like he knows what I need before I know. Intuition? Maybe? It's not the first time in my life that I have called out to someone or sent them a message. My entire life can be summed up as odd. I can be summed up as odd too.
After the funeral, I returned home. Bruce is still by my side, not leaving me. Bruce refuses to allow me to be alone, especially today. For one, he is afraid my bitch of an Aunt and her bullying daughters might try to come for me when no one is around. I don't think my Aunt has the balls to come after me without a crowd to feel sorry for her.
"You need to eat something," Bruce says. I shake my head and look around at the stillness of the house.
"It is too quiet," I whisper.
"A lot of people brought food. You should try to eat," Bruce insists. I cannot think of anything that I want to eat. All I want is to hear my rowdy family's loud talking and laughing. I want to hear my brother talking over my father and my mother laughing at something Tad did. I want to hear them! I look into the kitchen but they are not there. They are gone. I will never hear them again.
I grab the remote and turn the satellite radio on; maybe some noise will make me feel more at ease. No! Nothing will make me feel normal. Normal is not even in my vocabulary.
Bruce brings me a cup of hot tea. I know he is only trying to help. He is helping. He doesn't have to try. He always knows what I need before I do. I take the hot tea from him and sip it. Bruce sits with me.
"I have to go through my dad's papers. If I can, I want to get all of this over with and move forward. This hurts too much. Is that selfish?" I ask him.
Bruce leans back on the sofa. I have to go back to school and work soon. I need to settle everything. There is so much to do. Will I remain here? Can I stay here is the more appropriate question? I am not sure if I can be here without my family. My mind races with thoughts of everything I need to do and how I will accomplish it. I want to scream!
"Fallon, calm yourself. Breathe in and out. I will help you go through everything until you are finished. I will not leave you to do this alone. You are not alone," Bruce says.
"I know," I say. I sip my tea until it is gone. Silence, except for the radio, is deafening. I never thought I would hate the silence in this house, but right now, I hate it.
Bruce stands up from the sofa and reaches for my hand. "Come on. Let's get started in your dad's office. We can work on it for a while and then you have to eat," Bruce says.
"Okay," I agree. I set the teacup down on the coffee table but quickly pick it up. Mom would freak out if I left a ring on her table, but she isn't here to fuss about it. I put the teacup back on the table and looked at it for a moment. Bruce grabs it and takes it to the kitchen. He knew what I was thinking.
"No rings on the table kids," Bruce says in a womanly voice. That is what she would say, no rings on the table kids.
Bruce and I go into my dad's office. His office is right off of the living room. I look around at the office that once was loud with dad's music as he worked. He has always worked from home.
As a child, I loved coming into his office to annoy him. He never rushed me out. He always allowed me to sit and play in his office while he worked when I was young. As I got older, I would bring my laptop into his office and do school work, and later on, I would work on my research papers for Dr. Braum. Now, it is dead silent in here.
"Where do you want to start?" Bruce asks me.
I look around. "I need the house papers, car titles, business papers, and stuff like that. I will have to decide what to do with their things. How can I decide that?" I say, questioning my judgments about their belonging. How do you decide what to do with someone's car, clothes, and things when they are gone?
"You don't have to decide everything right now," Bruce says.
I shake my head. "I know, but the house and bank must be taken care of now. I have to let dad's clients know that he has passed and close his business," I say.
I sit down at my dad's desk. Bruce opens the filing cabinet. He takes out some papers and begins placing anything that looks important or that he thinks I might need to look at on the desk. I open the desk drawers and start to sort through things. I don't want to do this, but I must get it done. I have to be strong for my family.
Hours seem to pass as we sort through my dad's papers. Thank goodness my father kept his things in order. Bruce and I managed to get the house papers, bank statements, and business papers together. Then we found pictures from when I was little and Tad when he was born.
Dozens of pictures of my mother pregnant with Tad, but nothing of her pregnant with me. More pictures of Tad as an infant, but all of my pictures start at around a year old. Where are my pictures? I begin to think. I have never seen a picture of me as an infant. Everything starts on my first birthday. I find this odd.
"Maybe I was a hideous baby and they didn't take pictures of me," I say.
Bruce laughs but then stops. "I think I know why and it is not because you were ugly," Bruce says. He hands me a stack of documents buried in the filing cabinet.
I begin to flip through the papers. One by one, each piece of paper broke my heart more and more. "I am adopted," I whisper.
Fallon POVShock doesn't even cover the way I feel. I am in shock, but somehow it all makes sense now. I never felt like I belonged here. Mom, Dad, and Tad have always loved me and treated me like I belonged, but I knew I was different. I guess I am different from them. Did Tad know? I wonder if this is what my mother wanted to talk to me about when she came home from her visit with my aunt."We should find them," Bruce says as I walk out of my dad's office. He is still my dad, no matter what the papers say. He raised me. I am a Presley, and nothing will change that.I stop and look at Bruce. "What do you mean?" I ask him. I know what he means, but I want to know why he thinks we should find them. What if they abandoned me and did not want to know me? I am sure there is a reason I was put up for adoption, and honestly, I don't think I can bear the reason right now.Bruce drops the papers he is holding on the desk and rushes to me. "We should find your parents, your family, and see wha
Fallon POVI walk down the stairs to Bruce. He is singing in my kitchen, and I believe he is cooking. I stop at the entrance to the kitchen and listen. I listen to the noise coming from the kitchen, the sounds of joy. Can I be joyful now? Is it wrong for me to be thinking about joy? I smile for the first time in days, and I feel guilty about it."Hey! I didn't mean to wake you. I am cooking. I guess that is obvious. I was planning to bring you breakfast when it was ready," Bruce stammers. He looks cute and sweet as he cooks breakfast for me."You didn't wake me," I respond. I go into the kitchen and sit at the family-sized table.A table for a family, but there is no family anymore. There might be a lost family. I want to find this other family, but I don't want to disrespect the family that raised me. There is a lot to think about today."I planned to bring breakfast for you, but since you are here, we can eat together," Bruce says. He suddenly realizes he has already said that. He i
Fallon POVI lay in bed, thinking about tomorrow. I am going to New Orleans to visit my uncles. I wonder if they missed me or if I matter at all. Does it really matter? I have a family. No, I had a family. None of the extended family ever wanted me. Now, I know why. They knew I was adopted. My being adopted is probably why Aunt Tricia and the evil spawns hated me so much. Who really cares what they think? NOT ME!Bruce helped me accomplish everything today. I dropped all the paperwork off at the lawyer's office and the bank. The bank gave me a new card for the family bank account. There is so much to do when someone dies. You have to erase their existence. At least, that is what it felt like to me. I felt like I was taking their names off their belongings and adding mine. It hurt me to the core.I wasn't expecting everything to be taken care of so easily, but Dave, my dad's lawyer, made it easy. I have a few weeks before I turn 18, but thanks to Dave everything is going into my name w
Fallon POVAt seven in the morning, Bruce and I are loading the car with two small bags. I should be worried or anxious, but I am neither. I honestly want to get this over with and find a light at the end of all this. Is there a light? I have to think that when this is over that, I will have a better understanding of my life and my family, both of them. I get into Bruce's fire engine red mustang. "This car says a lot about you," I say, joking with him. I know he loves this car, and I love to pick on him about it being a chick magnet."It says I am single, and no one wants me," Bruce snaps back.I touch his shoulder, and he smiles. I remind myself that we work together and he is only a friend. I don't see him any other way. Besides, he is my only friend, and I don't want to be alone in this world. Bruce is all I have left. I can't screw that up."Some day, Bruce. Some day you will find the woman of your dreams. I only hope she likes me and lets us remain friends," I say. In a way, tho
Fallon POVAs we drive into the city, I feel a sense of urgency. I am not sure why I feel so urgent, but I do. I look around, thinking I will see the ancestors leading the way or watching me, but all I see are rows and rows of buildings. "Are we staying in the city or away from the city?" I ask Bruce.Bruce looks behind him and then moves over into the other lane. He takes an exit as I continue to look around and wait for his answer. "We are staying in a hotel in the French Quarter. It is close to the magic shop. My sister is meeting us there. I think you will love her. You and Libby have a lot in common," Bruce answers.The traffic is getting more hectic, and people are walking out into the street. I should be afraid. This is my first time in a big city, but instead, I feel at home and peaceful. Odd that someone who likes the quiet would enjoy the hustle and bustle of a big city. Of course, my mind could change tonight when I am actually walking around the city.Bruce pulls into a s
Fallon POVBruce and I step out of the hotel onto Royal Street. We are in the heart of the French Quarter. The music is coming at us from all directions. There are street performers dancing up the street. I have never seen so many different types of people. I watch them for a moment taking all of it into my soul. People are dressed in costumes, posing in the streets for tourists. I understand why people come here. As we walk down the street toward the little magic shop, I close my eyes for a moment and let my heart listen to the music. I am in heaven. "It's beautiful. I cannot believe what I am hearing and seeing," I say.Bruce stops. "Not as beautiful as you," he says. He touches my chin and gives me a half smile. I smile. I have been in New Orleans for maybe an hour, and I already feel peaceful and at home. The noise doesn't bother me. Bruce stops in front of a storefront that is boarded up and closed. His expression drops from happy to upset. "This is it. But there is nothing h
Fallon POVBruce and I leave the Z brothers and the little magic shop. I do not feel like I know any more now than I did when I left home, but I have a book with my family history. I guess that is something. Maybe there is something in this book to help me sort out my past."You okay?" Bruce asks me.I look up at his blonde hair blowing in the wind. The wind seems to follow us around. It is not windy, and I am not cold, but something in the breeze calls out to me or maybe him."When will you tell me who you really are, Bruce?" I ask him.Bruce pulls my hand to his lips and gently kisses the top of my hand. He looks into my eyes, and I see something different. The wind continues to blow through his hair, and his eyes seem to change."I am nothing to fear. First, a drink and dinner, then we will dive into who I am and your family history," Bruce says.We will go down Royal street to a small side street that seems to turn from pavement to cobblestone. It is not a street, more like a smal
Fallon POVBruce and I go into the back dining room. I look around, but there is no one with us. A table is set for us, and our food is waiting. I see the bloody mary and go straight for it. I need a drink. I begin to drink the bloody mary. I have never been much of a drinker, but right now, I need it."You don't turn 18 until next week. Am I right?" A rough growling voice says.I turn to see a woman. She is thin and short. Her hair is long, and her face is covered. "That is right. I am only 17," I answer.She moves closer. "Well, don't get drunk in my place and cause me to lose my liquor license," she says, laughing. I am not sure the supernatural has a liquor license or if anyone can get here that isn't special in some way. I nod while she laughs."I am Umbra," she says. She moves closer, and I can see her hair is white with small pieces of copper. She was once a redhead, like me."I am Fallon, but I guess you already know that," I say.Bruce steps behind me as Umbra moves closer to