Esha
Laughing was easy but feeling it from within, letting it make your heart genuinely happy was difficult.
My little world shattered seeing Virat in front of me. Never in the deadliest of my nightmares I thought we'd meet again and never like this.
A sharp pain seeped through my blood, ripping my heart completely as the colourful and the best memories I ever had sailed before my eyes.
Airport. Beaches. Photography. Dance clubs. Whisky, wine, vodka. Night conversations. Silly arguments. Never ending long drives.
Suddenly, I could feel them all as if it was just yesterday when they made me feel amazingly alive.
AiraFor a change I had opted for a dress. It was a black, floral printed midi dress. It made me feel uniquely comfortable or probably it was just the transformation from suits and kurtis that made me feel different. Looking out of the window I concluded Udaipur was more beautiful than what I thought it to be. The palace we were staying at was nothing but purely gorgeous, the lakes were serene and pacifying and the hills and the plateau only added to the glory. It was a nice and affordable place for vacation I thought, turning towards my right.I expected Asher but it was Virat. Immediately the truth dawned upon me and
AiraI was lost in the vestiges of the breakfast. I had never been taken to a morning date. The idea itself looked so boring and revolting but today was absolutely pleasant. It broke my assumed prejudices. He wasn't bad either. Virat was a good man to be with, sheer fun. He was caring, but in his own way. He wouldn't lift the world for you to show that, but rather treat you with realistic chivalry without openly revealing it.He wasn't the one who'd ever let the fun, the carefreeness to die. He treasured it. He loved enjoying. But at the same time, he knew how to be honest. Subtly honest.He had the charm to engage anybody through his expressive features, they were in a perfect rhythm with his thoughts.My eyes rend
AiraThe day was really hectic. Everything had happened, from Asher to Virat without any prior warning. I was completely drained to even feel myself but I had no time to spare, to rest. There was much more to come. A casual, ordinary family dinner was arranged for today, before the heavy wedding rituals which were starting from tomorrow. But it wasn't a mere evening for me, I was supposed to be the most pleasant and happy woman present out there. I sat on the bed with a sigh, staring at the footwears lying in front of me. I was wearing a pista green anarkali and I was confused about how to carry it.
AsherLost. Failed. Broken.That was all what I was. That's what I felt.Lost. Failed. Broken.It ripped my heart, sharply, slowly, teasingly; the way he held her delicate hand, which had been mine to hold. Mine to take care off.I had not realised it more really, more accurately, more clearly what life was doing with me until when I saw him today, making her smile and when my heart broke completely.Love and happiness weren't in my list; not in my wish list nor in my need list. All I ever wanted was a safe and secure future for me and my mother.A future with no unsatisfied hunger, a future with a legal house, a future of freedom and peace. But then she came, and she conquered me like nobody could ever do.She infused life in me in the most awaking, mo
11. Aira"Asher." My heart throbbed at an exceeding pace. It wouldn't have startled me, had it jumped out of my chest.I lost the remaining traces of sanity I had, seeing Asher infront of me.Broken, helpless, lifeless, hopeless; like someone I hadn't seen for the years that we were together. His hand reflexively punched the bag one more time before it came to a halt at it.I shattered more, when my eyes met his; blood red, filled with tears till the brim and carved with immense hurt and never ceasing melancholy.
12. EshaUnfair was what life was. Completely unfair and cruel. I loved Virat but he was marrying Aira and Asher loved Aira who was marrying Virat.I laughed with myself on the tragic comedy, taking another shot. I didn't care if I was in for a family function or whatever. I needed to subdue the volcano inside me.I looked around the lawn with my blurry eyes and I found myself alone. But solitary no more maimed me, it had become my habit.
13. FlashbackI smiled at her and she smiled at me and my heart fluttered.I had never witnessed someone affecting me like the way she did. Her mere presence made me extremely joyful, but extremely nervous at the same time about how unfixed and flawed my life was.She leaned onto the pillar bursting out into a laughter, seeing the comical dance everyone in front of us was engaged in.It was fresher's fest and the celebrations were on an extraordinary sky.Everybody was indulged in something or the other; be it be dancing, music, gaming, drinking or savouring food.It was me who stood at the corner, away and reserved, just watching.Back in India, life was so full of struggles that I had lost my sense of fun. I couldn't dance, enjoy
14. AiraI sat in the centre, with everyone around and amidst everyone I was losing my everything. I was scared if they could hear my heart throb because I could certainly feel it lose its way. I wondered how it was even working after all the wreck. I smiled once again, biting back my lone tears. "Haven't seen a bride look more gorgeous." Chachi kissed my forehead, and I brushed my hairs away, smiling shyly.Though I didn't fathom her compliment at all. Happy brides looked beautiful