Masuk~Ioana~
'I want them to pay!' That's all that echoed in my mind over and over again. All my life I've suffered, oppressed for something I've never had control of. Without thinking, a change took place—claws grew out, replacing my chipped nails. A guttural growl tore from my lips, low and powerful. Kicking off the ground, I charged, launching towards them. I could see it—my sister's eyes widened in astonishment and horror. Ramon's smirk fell off his face, becoming solemn. An ungodly trill went down my spine. That look—I loved it. I wanted more. Maybe I had run mad—but at this point, I didn't care. I channeled everything into that attack. But when I was a hair’s breadth away from them, my claws nicking Ramon's face, drawing a line of blood, our eyes clashed—crazy hazel on brown. Hands gripped onto me, latching onto my limbs, dragging me down from mid-air, sending me crashing on the ground with a thud, raising dust up. Pain shot up my limbs. Hands and feet rained down on me with kicks and punches. Muscle memory kicked in. Hugging my head with my arms, protecting it, I curled into a fetal position. Beams of rays sneaking in from the gap between their bodies, I glanced at the moon. It sat in the sky, so indifferent to what was happening. Knowing no one would help me. I gritted my teeth, stifling all the grunts of pain. Grains of sand digging into my skin, scraping it. They would leave when I gave no response. That's what always happened. And I was right, except— "Alright, guys, it's enough. If you kill her, I don't know how I'll explain it to my father." A familiar voice—Ramon—ordered, laughter following. Footsteps thudded, a shadow stretching over me. Ramon clicked his tongue in repulsion and loathing. "Disgusting," he murmured. "If you had done as I had asked—running away obediently—things would never have gotten to this point." From a tiny gap between my arms, I peeked. A few feet away, I caught Gabrielle’s sickening joy that flashed through her bright blue eyes before it disappeared as swiftly as it came. "She's down, guys!" Pressing his hand against his knees, he heaved himself up. Wrapping an arm around the waist of Gabrielle, who squeaked in shock, giggling amidst the boos of the crowd, "Let's leave… There's nothing to see here anyway," Ramon called out. Taking the lead, he walked around, past me. I stifled a grunt. A scarlet red shoe flashed, followed by a kick to my back, knocking the wind out of me. "Did I hit you?" Gabrielle’s mock concern grated on me. My teeth sunk, biting down on my lower lip. My back throbbed and pulsed in pain. Their harsh cackles grew distant. The once bustling square was now desolate. The full moon appreciation was over. The sand dug into my skin. Picking myself up from the ground, I winced, clutching at my side. They really went all out on me. Wheezing, I staggered to my feet. Each step was like a nail lodged into my joints, pain radiating with each step. I gritted my teeth, almost grinding them to dust. The air itself sliced my lungs with each breath. Darkness crept into the corners of my vision. I dropped my head, shielding myself from the stares of passersby, trudging forward. If I collapsed here, would anyone notice? A dangerous thought lingered at the back of my mind. I shook it off. By pure will only, I walked step by step to the house. But when I stepped on the cobblestoned path lined with vibrant flowers, I noticed something wrong. The door was wide open. The porch light on, casting golden warm light on the figures present—my parents and an elderly man with white-trimmed beards. Flattering smiles stretched their lips wide, laughing, chattering. My shoulders slumped in relief. Maybe they haven't noticed it yet? Habitually making a move towards the back of the house—a small door, a special doorway only I, the family's disgrace, used. But the moment I entered their view, the laughter died down completely. The conversation halted. All eyes snapped towards me. I flinched. My head lowering, "Father… Mother," I choked out a greeting, a sharp pain causing me to wince. Noticing the strained smile that looked more fake with each passing second. "You're… back?" Mother awkwardly asked, though it sounded more like a question. Her words oddly stiff. Her words were followed by a silence. The tension rose as my eyes dropped downwards to something familiar on the floor that chilled me to the core—a washed, tattered bag lay cast aside on the ground. Mother followed my gaze. "We've packed your things," she explained. It was obviously something so simple, but for some reason I couldn't understand. 'Why?…' My thought broke off. But they didn’t give me the have chance to. My father's sharp, authoritative voice barked, "Pick up your bag—you should leave." Leave? How? To where? Why am I leaving? My mind crashed. Thoughts flitted through my mind. Beg them, one voice pleaded. Usually, everything would be resolved once I pleaded, but my knees were heavy as lead. "Ioana Blackmoon"—for the third time today, I heard my full name. My reddened eyes zeroed in on him. Each time my name was called, something bad happened. I didn’t want to hear what he’d say. I wanted to close my ears and sing out loud—let’s pretend it never happened, or better yet, I'm still in the punishment room and I'll wake up to its gloomy dark confines. But— The elderly man cleared his throat and continued, "For your disobedience, for your weakness and maliciousness, with the power invested in me, Elder Markin, by the order of the Alpha…" A sense of dread overwhelmed me. Something bad was about to happen. I knew it as sure as my name. What are they going to so this time? Send me off to clean the pack kitchen for a three months or the public toilets that stunk from a mile away, walls and most times, the ground littered with brown excrement from excited wolves marking territories I had to scrub and scrap off. My mind wandered off. But what came down was worse… so much worse. Something that I've never imagined. "You are hereby exiled. Banished from the pack. You are no longer part of us. You will no longer be remembered or spoken of." Lightening struck me stiff, 'you must be kidding right? Did I hear banished?' it didn't register, 'How can I be banished? This is where I've known my whole life? I grew up here, if I leave…' Then with a jolt, it dawned on me. 'I was getting banished' "What?" I yelled, staggering backward. The earth tilted dangerously to the side. My vision went dark completely. Forgotten. Abandoned. Banished. Forever—it seemed to echo through my head, a shrill mocking laughter. The words on repeat like a broken record, and it sank deeper each time. "There must have been a misunderstanding, Elder Markin," with a quivering voice I pleaded. "I've been obedient to the Alpha's words…" I walked forward. My knees buckled, collapsing on the floor. But he shrank backward, his expression contorting to one of disgust. "Vermin," he spat. My heart sank. No, no, no, please don't. If you cast me out, where would I go? "Father! Please help me!" On my knees, I crawled forward. My hands reaching to the ends of his trousers. He kicked my hand away, his eyes cold as ice. No feeling in his eyes. From gritted teeth he spat, "Don't disgrace us more than you already have!" But I didn’t give up. "Mother…" She was my last hope. The only person who truly cared for me. Shielding me from Father's wrath, sneaking in food on nights I was made to starve as punishment. The forest was a man-eating beast. Not everyone that entered came out alive or whole. But that same loving mother averted her gaze to the ground. It was more interesting than my plight. That’s when I knew— I was a banished Omega without a wolf.~Ioana"It's because I know you." I looked square into her eyes and told her in the most natural voice I could muster. Perhaps my voice was so steady that hers shook—not her voice, but her eyes. Something in them quaked; they became vacant for a split moment, then shock was plastered all over her face."My Queen," she whispered.My heart leaped. "Lady Althea, do you remember now?" I latched onto her arms. "See, it's not that powerful to completely seal off their memories."While I was lost in the celebration, my arm was violently flung away. The sensation, the sharp tug on my shoulder joints, was anything but pleasant. I groaned, "What the—" My head snapped up to meet her strangely dark stare. My words came to a halt.Lady Althea's brows were furrowed so deeply they joined together. Her hand gripped her head."Lady Althea!" I covered up the distance she had put between us. Was she in pain? Why? She was perfectly fine a moment ago… what should I do? I fidgeted on the spot. Should I ask
~Ioana~"No one recognized me," a whisper left my lips as my heart clenched painfully while I walked past the palace guards from the gate out into the streets.The guards only gave me a strange once-over look. That’s it. These were the same guards that would salute in such a loud voice Gia herself would tremble.But now—nothing.I dragged my feet.There was a time I would jump up and down, doing a little jiggly dance because of it, but not this time. I felt hollow, like someone had taken a spoon and carved out a part of my chest.Even my hair turned black.It’s like everything that happened was an illusion. It faded away so fast.People brushed past me like I was air. In worse cases, curses were thrown at me. “Mad woman,” they whispered under their breath—loud enough that it drilled into my ears. Perhaps that was the goal from the beginning.Was this what it felt like to be truly unseen? No one remembers you. Everything you’ve done. Everything you’ve labored for—swept under the rug.S
~Ioana~A blurry image that was far away from me came together in my head.It was something I had turned over numerous times until I forced myself to lock it up in the deepest, darkest part of my mind.There was no need to turn over something that would bring a flood of depression to my heart.But for the first time in a while, I allowed myself to dream, to wonder once again.But it shattered.When Gabrielle said: "I heard that your mate was awful to you. Why don't you just leave him behind? Run away. Be your own person! Don’t hide behind any man."She fired words after words. She never allowed me to talk. The moment I was about to say something, she overwhelmed me with another."I won’t leave him, don’t waste your saliva," I snapped.She froze, shock flashing across her face, as if surprised I could “speak.” Her composure cracked.In an awful attempt to remedy it, she curled her lips into what she thought was a smile but was, in fact, a smirk.Was it possible for a person to smirk so
~Ioana~When I was young, my wishes never came true no matter how well or hard I'd pray to the moon goddess.But suddenly, who can tell me why my wishes became incredibly effective?I wanted to go back and slap myself when I screamed at Alessandro, "I wish you'd forget I exist, not just you, but the whole world would."He had hushed me, but I was undeterred.And now my wish, in the worst way possible, was answered.My feet slapped against the marble floor as I ran. My breath came up in ragged pants. 'Goddess, I'll exercise if I come out of this.'Behind me, the guards — hot on my trail — shouted, "Stop right there!"'As if,' I scoffed, rounding the corner."Catch that spy!"Somehow, I had evolved from the imposter to the spy.This morning should be court time. Yes, I'll head there, I thought. I ran towards the hall.The hall was open with no guards in sight. Sweet! Finally, so
~Ioana~Something lifted me into the air, moving me away. Was it him? A surge of delight went through me.But no, I knew it wasn't him just from his scent. I struggled to open my eyelids, but they were heavy. It was dark.'Where are you taking me?' I wanted to ask, but it came out of my lips as nothing but whimpers.A blast of chill hit me, away from the warmth I had. Goosebumps crawled through my exposed skin. Something was wrong. My mind screamed, but I couldn't do anything.Soon.The chill was gone. Were we back? That's what I thought at first, but when the melodious hum reached my ears. A light singing, in a language I didn't recognize. For some reason it sent chills down my spine, but this time it wasn't from the cold.The person carrying me halted. I was placed on the floor; the smell of damp dirt and something I couldn't name was in the air.Then the singing reached a crescendo and halted suddenly. The space plunged into silence. Sand crunched under someone's feet.A familiar s
~Ioana~I burnt my tongue.I sipped the tea mechanically, not realizing it was scalding until a second later.Forced to swallow it, I gave a bitter smile to the woman who sat opposite me, struggling to maintain my dignity before her—and failing the moment she asked,"Are you alright, dear?" Her brows furrowed, the concern in her eyes practically overflowed.It slammed into the desolate walls of my heart. My nose stung as I wrinkled it. Suddenly the pain seemed ten times more."I'm okay…" I averted my gaze.She sighed. "I know I've been a bad mother and I can't expect you to call me ‘mom.’ Perhaps that's just my wishful thinking."I snuck a look at her, the woman who sat opposite me— my mother. That word sounded strange even in my head. But when I saw the flicker of loneliness in her gaze, my hesitation vanished and I blurted out:"Mom."Her head snapped to me, the heaviness that seemed to weigh down her shoulders vanished.My cheeks flushed red.Her eyes crinkled at the corners. "I'm







