~Ioana~
"Did you ever think that I—Ramon—would settle for you? For less? You're nothing but a wolfless Omega—unworthy of me. That's why I," releasing Gabrielle's waist, he took a step forward, his voice resounding through the space, "Ramon Redmoon—" 'No no no,' I repeated, an ominous thought settling, "—soon to be Alpha to the Redmoon Pack—" 'Don't tell me he wants to…' My knees buckled, hitting the ground with a thud. Pain flared. I placed my hands over my ears. 'I don't want to hear it. Please! Please don't!' But it trickled into my ears no matter how tightly I cupped them. "—reject you, Ioana Blackmoon of the Redmoon Pack." He scoffed. "Now get out of here before you bring more shame to this ceremony. Your existence already taints it," he hissed, voice sharp as a knife to my chest. 'How could he?' The crowd gasped at his words. His words were as much of a shock to everyone as they were to me. "I can't believe I witnessed a legendary rejection…" "The last rejection was when? 30 years ago?" "No, it was 45 years ago—dimwit, you should read more books!" "Can't blame me, it's almost a myth at this point." "I know he might not like her, but isn't that too… extreme?" "It's not extreme! I'd do the same if I was the one given such a mate." "Yeah, can't believe she ever thought she'd be our Luna. She must have been dreaming. Well, it's time to wake up now." "But after all… she was given by the Moon Goddess, Selenara…" Their words came and went, never settling in my mind. My eyes wide open—I was rejected. The word seemed to echo in my mind. My breath came out in short gasps. For what? Why? Is it because I'm not good enough? Did I disgrace him? Or perhaps offend him? My crumbling mind shuffled through, trying to find a reason to grasp onto—and failed. I groaned, clutching at my chest, a knife-stabbing pain slicing excruciatingly slow, as if someone used a blunt knife to cut open my heart. The mate rejection… it's here. I couldn't deny it any longer. I was rejected. I wanted to cry and at the same time scream in pain, curling in on myself like the many times I've done after being slapped by Mother for stealing scraps despite being starved, for playing with Gabrielle’s doll. Chatters grew. Word spread—faster than the blinding pain coursing through my veins. I bit my lips, my teeth digging into my bloodless lip, blood trickling downward. The dagger-like stares. The words that came hammering and digging into my injuries— "The Goddess must be covering her face in shame." "Who does she think she is?" "I've always hated her anyway." "Look at her. Fragile, powerless, and unworthy. She’s not fit to stand beside the Alpha’s son." Taking the chance to trample upon me like they have always done. My hands dug into my palms, but the pain did little to relieve what I was feeling. They spoke against me, after everything I've done. I have lived all my life as a slave to the pack, a servant trying to please them. But in the end—is this what I get? Is this my reward? I don't agree! Fingers clenched, I felt unwilling to agree, to accept, to go back to the dark days—living in and out in a monotonous cycle. He gave me hope. He made me feel loved, a warmth I lacked. Why did he cruelly snatch it back?! I thought he loved me—just yesternight he said he'll cherish me! I clenched my jaw, gritting my teeth, holding back my tears. I didn’t want him to see me crying—devastated because of him. I couldn't cry! So I straightened my back, despite the mountain-like gaze bearing down on me. I wanted to walk away, with my head high. To show him that even if he rejects me—I can still live without him. At least, that was the plan. But when I heard a high-pitched feminine voice intervene— "Ramon, you were too brutal. I don't think we should have done it like this. I mean, look at her…" she pointed towards me with painted scarlet nails, "she's trembling really terribly, and she's pale. If the trees rustle one more time she might faint, and I'm worried. You know she's my younger sister and I would never knowingly do something that will hurt her." Her arm snaked around his waist, the other trailing down his chest. "After all…" placing a hand on her chest, she blinked rapidly, her golden tresses faintly shimmering under the moon's silvery light, her eyes overflowing with sympathy—an image of compassion. "She deserves the right to know the truth… of our love,” her words laced with mockery and pretentiousness, turning to my mate. She beamed at him, fingers entwining—and he smiled back, his eyes melting into liquid chocolate. I've never seen him like that. I swore I heard something snap—it was my rationality. Her words were the catalyst—the betrayal, the humiliation, the shame, the anguish—it all surged like a raging tide, a tsunami slamming against the flimsy restraint left. My heart ached. It bled, as I let out a depreciating, depressing chuckle. "So everything was fake, wasn't it? It was never real?" I asked no one in particular. "So why? Why? Why?!" Just then— Everything faded away. The insults. The pity. The scorn. They all disappeared, into the inky darkness that clouded my sight. Its tentacles latched onto me, dragging me into its depths. I flailed my limbs wildly, desperate. I had to escape—but it tightened, whispering to give up and give in. But. Just then, like a switch flipped. My vision sharpened, becoming clear. My eyes locked on the duo. The world was bathed in blood red. With a boom, it was like something shattered. A rage that couldn't be explained in words clouded my mind—eating it up until nothing was left. Then, a voice—unfamiliar but intimate—rumbling with power that erupted goosebumps all over my body, spat: "Scum."~Ioana~ "A late night ball will be held, Your Majesty. We await your presence." That was what I woke up to hear. Like a bolt of lightning from a clear sky, my mood fell into a trench. The messenger, probably seeing my expression—or probably didn’t care—gave a bow and walked right out of my room. "Wait—" I called out, but those short legs were faster than a bird taking flight in panic. She turned the corner and disappeared from view, leaving my thoughts to ring out in my head, ‘I can't dance.’ Weren’t balls for dancing? My head ached. I plopped down on the bed, my teeth sank into my lips, nervousness washing over me wave after wave. The mortifying image flashed through my head: a wide hall and I at the center, a person’s arm on my waist, he would twirl, the hem of my dress spreading round in a gorgeous circle, splashes of reds and white. Then, one foot over the other, m
~Ioana~"Ramon tried to kill me?" I thought, blood drained off my face.My head turned to him mechanically, I couldn't believe what I just heard, a ringing in my ears.I didn't want to believe it.We were just talking right now, I remembered how I chuckled, how his eyes lit up with a warmth that made my stomach twist. Everything wasn't perfect, but it was good, so… how could he, who did all these, try to… kill me?Just the thought alone made my fingers tremble, I fisted them under the blanket to control it, but I couldn’t.When? Where? The words rotated round my mind.At the same time, Ramon countered,"You seek to smear my reputation, prince," his face contorted into a frown."Yes Ioana, maybe it's a rumour, maybe it's a lie," I whispered, speaking to myself. I wasn’t sure if it was to calm my pounding heart or drive away the chill that broke out all over my skin.But Alessandro’s next words shattered my pitiful attempt to shield my mind, the corners of his lips curled in what seemed
~Ioana~"It must be hard being a queen…" he spoke with a sigh."Well…" my words hung awkwardly in the air. What could I say to such a statement? He brought the spoon to my lips and I sipped, little-by-little contemplating."It's not." Finally, I shook my head, denying.He gave me a long look. It seemed to contain a thousand words but he opted for, "I think it is. You were unconscious when they brought you in…" He placed the spoon down. "You didn't see the way they reacted even hours later while you were in a coma, like the heavens were about to crash."I chuckled, then coughed a couple of times. "Isn't that a good thing?" I smiled."It’s supposed to be—that is, if they were concerned about you it would have been touching."My heart dropped. I gave him a look. "What do you mean?" I replied drily, moving my eyes away."I mean what I said, Queen. No one asked for your well-being." He paused, cocked his head to the side. "Actually, they did but—" he shook his head, "it's different." He gr
~Ioana~…Her Highness… later… she's…Sounds flittered through my ears.The moment I opened my eyes, white flowy drapes dangled before my eyes. They swayed with the wind.I have to see… the voice came again then came to a halt,I see. It said.I shifted my eyes away from the drapes. Where was I? I scrunched my brows in confusion. How did I get here? A sense of déjà vu slammed into me.The last thing I recall was meeting up with Ramon in the streets and then I ran away in panic, eager to get away from the prying eyes.To… the forest—oh that's right. Ramon called it the lower rings.And after that, my lips tugged upwards, a smile blossoming. I remember the freedom I've never experienced before, my heartstrings were strung.And then. We had a run and afterward, a chill spread, dousing my excitement—the suffocation, how I struggled, but the water weighed down on me, my sight blurred, I was dying. My hands flew to my throat, I gasped, greedily breathing in.My throat closed as if someone cl
~Ioana~A force rested on my chest, it pressed down, quick then released, it happened for the second… third time.On my chest—but something was odd, it covered more than my chest, even my—'Huu.' My eyes snapped open, I woke up with a jolt, my stomach twisted immediately. I turned to my side, letting out water from my lungs, it stung.Coughing.My chest rose and fell with each breath.Before I could understand what happened, arms scooped me up from the ground, into warm embrace. That's when I realized how chilly my skin was against the surface of his skin.I took in deep, greedy breaths. "There, there," someone patted my back. My lashes fluttered, vision blurred into focus, but it wasn't crystal clear. Even the moon looked like a big fuzzy luminous ball. Turning my head to the side—My breath came out as a slight wheeze, but I could make out a figure some distance away from me, and another. I traced the arms holding me upward.Thump.My heart skipped. I couldn't make out his facial fe
~Ioana~Sometimes I wondered why I was never a bird. During gloomy days like that, nursing my bruised body, I would crawl, little by little, pulling myself to the tiny hole I called window.Peering through it, I would watch as the birds spread their feathers, with a single flap, pushed off from the Gia, and into the sky.Fear? Spread your wings and fly far away.If I had wings? I would never be hurt, I would reason, dreaming of the impossible.And right now.As the wind whipped past my ears, my heart plunged to my stomach, pounding.Thud thud.Blurry images slept past me. It was dark, like a tunnel. I could barely make out things, and worst? I was slipping—falling to what perhaps could be my death. Once more, that childhood dream resurfaced.If only I had wings.But reality slapped me in the face.No wings sprang from my back.And I continued my descent.I had to do something about it.I stretched out my paws, reaching for the thick tendril hanging. The pad of my paw touched it, but t