I laugh over how foolish and psychotic I am, I don't think I've ever felt this way in my entire life, this entire scenario, i feel like I've gone through this endless cycle again and again, and each time it happens I just end up being more hateful, but then, I always have a reason to hold on. I've finally started to open up to this life, but then, it still makes me sick.
This is madness. I don't plan on proving my innocence anytime soon and neither do I plan on hurting those around me. Daisy, and Hailey those people mean a lot to me, but I can't weigh them any longer.
Today, Charles is being buried and tomorrow am being trailed, so I decided to come say a little goodbye to him for one last time. Turth be told am really prepared for the worst in there, whatever happens is for the best. I walk up to the diamond cassette with Charles in it, the emptiness I feel right now is unexplainable. Watching him laI don't know what's wrong with me, I spent my last day watering the flowers and visiting the lake, and everyday, I feel this house is actually bigger than it looks, who would have thought that the back had a very large flower garden and a lake too, there was also a cottage not far from the lake, I think I hid in there several times when I was little. Although am not sure but the first time I hid there, the mansion was thrown into panic, by the time they found me I was already asleep.I reach for my forehead and feel it, it seems like am not feeling too well today, seems I might have a fever soon. Gosh, am not sure what am doing here. Well I guess there's not much I can do anyway, it must be because of the fever. 'Diana.' Hmm. He's finally here. His presence has a particular effect on me, it helped my mood a lot, I guess I don't need these anymore, after all. I take off my hearing aids and put them away, am not in a good mood anyway, I can hear a lot of bad
Cold. It's so cold.There's a powerful force on me right now, I don't think I can move. Is this a dream, or is this reality.The moment I start asking myself different sort of questions, I feel the force on me increase, and in fear I open my eyes, only to awaken to a scene which could be the last thing I see.I find a man right on top of me, eyes filled with anguish and despair, the moment our eyes met he looked like he was going to kill me, I really don't know what I have done to make someone despise me this much, but I can tell that he wishes for me to suffer more than death.Still on the bed, I struggled as I couldn't move, I only stared at the man who wanted to kill me. His hand drew nearer, reaching my face and then, I could feel a real hand trying to strangle me. It felt so real that I could almost touch it but I couldn't touch it, not less make out if it was reality or a dream. The force applied to it, was so powerful that I c
A fake smile, for a fake crowd, what a twist. Even the living room is arranged nicely, well I guess they're awaiting my funeral, too bad I won't let that happen. I wonder what these people are plotting now, with that look of scorn in their faces, if it's my downfall, then they should start plotting more, because today, they're gonna get a show which they've never seen.The living room was arranged to look like a court room, seats had been prepared and seven high desk and a chairs for the judges, I almost couldn't recognize it at first. The moment I reached the newly turned court room, the room got crowded as the people gathered to pass judgment in MY HOUSE, faces I've never seen before, they're staring at me like an out cast, as if they've been awaiting this day, but come to think of it, they've always brought me up whenever there was a meeting. I guess it's because a lot of people were against Charles and I, but now that this happened, it feels like their
The air was heavy, my eyes widen with shock as our enemies matched in. How did they find us, and who let them in, why are they here, I have so many questions for them that none can understand. The now Powerful Four walked in with no sense of fear, the Alphas shook as they stared at the dominant packs, now that we had cut off ties with them, we're vulnerable to attacks from other packs, and they were the number one on the predator list, while we were on the prey list, like a delicious meal would want to hunt us down. This day just had to get worse. "It's nice to finally meet the great Diana in person." The head of the Blood moon pack, as he approaches, my body unconsciously starts to back away.I don't know what it is, but my entire body trembles just being in his presence, I don't know why but I really want to leave this placs right now and flee, his eyes has no light in them, it's like an staring into an empty soul. "When
*****"Anna, Annnnnna. Anna, wake up." A voice that is very difficult to forget. It's been at least a day since I was stuck in my dream world, to get a few of my memories, and I don't want to leave. Oh, mother. She knows how I feel about waking up before arriving at our destination but she still wakes me up whenever we have a drive to look outside, sure this is a memory but watching it again makes me fell part of it. Am still sleepy, just give minutes is all I ask for but am sure I will never get it, being in this nine year old body again makes me feel alive, even if it won't last long. "Anna, we'll be home soon okay, but, before then, I think you should at least feed you eyes a bit." She kept poking me continuously, there was simply no end this time. Ah. Finally she got what she wanted, well it's not like I could pretend I was asleep for long, my mother had her way of waking me up, and that method worked like magic. I stretched out my legs and yawned as water pou
I awoke to a familiar ceiling, a familiar scent and clothings, it didn't take me long to realise that I was back home. The feeling of waking uo felt strange, for some reason, my left hand felt like it would break in a few minutes. It was then that I realized the warmness of my palm. "Jasper." I called out. As if awake, he immediately lets go of my hand and reaches for my face. Once he feels my entire face, he leans on my shoulder. "Oh thank goodness, I was worried." He cries. It's one thing to be worried, but I don't even remember why am here in the first place. "What happened?" "Don't you remember." He askes. Somehow, his expression just now looked like he was relieved I didn't remember anything. Am more confused of his change in expressions than myself, the only answer was that he was hiding something from me. "Not si
At this very moment, I wish I could just eat my words. For the first time I said Lune look as hurt as never, did my words cause that much of an impact on him. While my tears dropped, Lune also had teary eyes, he looked like someone who had lost every reason to live. He wipes away my tears with a smile which throbs my heart filled with pain. He lifts my hand to his face and rests his face on my hand. "Am not the one who's making me you forget your past, on the contrary, I want you to remember everything." He tells me. I can't sense a single lie from his lips, I can tell he's not happy too. Thinking back, he's always been like this, like he wanted me to remember something, that day, when I told him I figured who he was and called his name, he grabbed my shoulder and asked if I remembered who he was, he doesnt want me to forget, it's quite the opposite. The relationship between us seems like it was closer than I expected.I pull away from his face, I
There was a wall, a hugh wall between Lune and I, I didn't have the courage to speak to him as freely as before, knowing Lune would object to certain issues, it was time I get real with myself that at some certain point, Lune could turn against me if he felt he was doing it to protect me.I didn't tell Lune about my dreams, and the fact that I could still remember how it went meant my memories were slowly returning to me, however am worried. Although I lived with the brothers for so many years, my memories were still fading I never once remembered a dream no matter how close I felt I was to remembering, does this mean there was a part of me that wanted to forget about everything. Lune mentioned my parents were aware but I had to had known at some point, didn't I ever object? What if am partly responsible for everything that has happened to me until today. I want to remember, but am scared, there's a part of me yelling and begging me not to push myself to r