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KYOLINE
Her brain was spinning and racing like a runaway rollercoaster. The note taped on their apartment door that morning roared in her mind. And the big, bold block print, against the white paper, was etched in her mind.
The rear office air conditioner was as cold as an arctic blast whipping past her. Or maybe it was fear cooling her veins...
Fear of what that sheet of paper did or didn't mean.
And fear of what she was going to get herself into at the moment.
"Are you positive you want to smuggle guns for us, Kyoline?"
Fear. Panic. Desperation. They all came crashing through her in rolling waves of the sea, threatening to engulf her under their crushing weight. No. No, she didn't want to do this. But he didn't have to know that. "Sure. Of course." The words spilled out of her lips as she crossed her fingers behind her back.
Tenz Jersey, her boyfriend, scanned her. "Is something wrong?"
Doubt crept onto his features, and her stomach curled up. She pasted a wide smile on her face and a forced brightness in her tone. Because if she smiled, if she pretended, then maybe it could be. "Everything's absolutely fine. I just need some more money to spend."
She chatted while they talked and kept snapping the clasp of her bracelet open and shut. Her pulse thudded in her ears like a drummer beating out the time. She didn't know how in the world she was going to be able to pay rent this month. Her mom would not be able to cover it. She was the one who had gotten them into this mess. And the only thing she could be certain of right then was that she had to pay a roof over her three younger brother and sister's heads. She was eighteen, and she never thought she would have this type of responsibility, but there was no way in the world she was going to let her siblings down-ever.
She hated to even go so far as to ask Tenz. Weak like that. Begging for a handout from others. That's what others would think if they learned of this. But she pushed that bit of information out of her mind. It didn't matter what they thought. Not now. Just smile, Kyoline. Just have faith that everything was going to be all right.
Her palms were moist and she continued to fiddle with the cold metal clasp. Open, closed, open, closed, trying to calm her frazzled nerves with the soft buzzing of the snaps.
"Meaning, we don't really have that much going on. Some courier work, but that's kind of low-level stuff."
"I'll do it," she said in a hasty rush before he could take the offer back. She rubbed her throat, trying to shake the desperation creeping into her voice. "I mean, I don't mind if it's something like that. What do I have to do?"
He sat back in the chair in his office at the back of the restaurant. "We'll give you the information. You deliver the guns and collect the cash on the location. When you bring it back here with the money, we'll give you a cut of it."
It didn't sound like the hardest thing in the world. And yet how many stories of couriers and runners getting caught by the police went around the casino on a far too regular basis? The real possibility of being caught choked her like a serial killer had his hands around her throat. Still, she kept a poker face. "Sure. I can do that."
She wished.
Tenz hummed before he took a sip of his whiskey. "Okay. It's yours. I'll let the boys know."
"Thanks, Tenz." She tried not to let her body sag with relief because this was only half the battle. She wasn't stupid enough to think that this was going to be as easy as he made it sound.
"No problem, Kyoline." He was only half paying attention now, his gaze fixed on a message that had lit up his phone. He didn't look happy. "I'll be back in a minute, okay, doll?"
She watched Tenz talking in hushed tones with a couple of his guys who were standing just outside the office door. They were talking business, and she knew she'd overstayed her welcome now.
She grinned at Tenz once again as she elbowed her way past him, and in a small jerk of his head, he indicated that she was leaving and that he'd call her later about the job. * * *
She checked her phone three times for the address, the brightly illuminated screen showing her face.
It was gloomy and dark today, so it was kind of odd that she had sunglasses on. But not having them on was just one of those things that didn't seem quite right to her.
It was a normal gun drop. A standard exchange. Younger teens than she was did this sort of thing all the time.
She could do it.
And yet her heart thudded in her chest, palms slick with sweat as she wiped them against the fly of her jeans. Fumble this, and that was it. Sayonara to the creaking roof over their heads, and the warm food for the children would be a memory. Poof. Down the drain.
Eviction. The word a giant neon sign blazing in her mind.
She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She was able to do this. She had to do this. There was no option. The money she was gaining from this was enough to prevent them from being homeless for the next month. And to lose their home was something that she did not want to put her siblings through. They were worth better than this, and she was going to personally ensure that they got what they were owed.
They never stood a chance with a liar for a father. One thing was sure; she'd never trust a lying man. She'd experienced at firsthand the pain and irreparable harm that lies brought. They could never be a solid base for something good-because lies were simply flimsy pillars that'd always cause the loose forces in your life to crash down like a house of cards in ruin.
Her fist clenched around the strap of her backpack, and she breathed deeply before proceeding.
Twenty minutes ago in Tenz's office, she'd been handed the backpack, heavy with the weight of a gun within. With an address, a time, and a don't get fucking caught note.
She moistened her lips. She was two blocks away from the address. And then she saw a police car.
Oh God.
Throat-drying, she tried to adopt a carefree air. She did not hurry in spite of all the cautions bellowing in her head.
Her heart thudded against the side of her throat. Her fist gripping the bag tightened, fingers damp with sweat.
The cruiser moved up behind her. Its tires screeched on the pavement. And it came to a stop beside her.
A shadow moved inside.
Then-whooooo! The siren let out a wail.
Each muscle in her body locked up.
Please, no...
The cops rushed out of their car.
She screwed her eyes shut.
"You're under arrest!"
And she felt the whoosh of cold air as they rushed toward her.
Cringing, she waited for their hands to grab her.
And waited some more...
Before cracking one eyelid open a millimeter.
And darting a feverish glance around herself, she saw a kid in a dark hoodie a few steps away who was being cuffed.
Her mouth dropped open. She let it snap shut and lowered her gaze to the sidewalk in case they caught sight of her gaping and wondered why.
She was only an innocent bystander. Okay, possibly not that innocent. But she wasn't who they were coming for today.
She pulled her hood down swiftly to match the other bodies swarming the area. People all headed to goodness only knows where. But to the cops, she was just another black-haired girl among a sea of ravens, brunettes, and blonds.
As she hurried on, she couldn't stop her eyes snapping back to the officers, her hold on the bag tightening as she kept it clamped against her hip. What was the punishment for carrying firearms without a permit? The stolen, illegal type of firearms. She didn't know the answer was, and she was damned certain not going to find out.
Being taken in for the day was the very last thing she could manage. Her siblings were counting on her, and spending the night in holding or worse was just not on the agenda. Taking a shaking breath, she relaxed her muscles. Focus, Kyoline.
She arrived at the destination. Coming to a halt, she remained there with her mouth agape as two more officers stood by the door she was to deliver.
Shit.
He's happy, Ky. He really is. And that empty space in his chest, the one that's been aching and hurting him for over two decades, is slowly starting to get filled. It's being filled with warm, golden, shining sunshine. And it's because of you, Kyoline. And he wouldn't have it any other way.Five Years LaterIsaac is the same guy he ever was when she first met him, but somehow very different, too. For starters, he lies a heck of a lot less. And he allows himself to show his feelings more—heck, he even cried the first time Lili called him Dadda. And he's kept coming to the support group with him, and he can see that it really does help him. He still enjoys killing too much, but, hey, nobody's perfect.He hasn't been shoplifting since the onesie incident. The group says that it is an issue that he will probably have to deal with for the rest of his life, but the point is to continue working at it and not to let himself get out of hand again.As for himself, he's enjoying being a mom and
“Isaac.”“Yeah, Ky?”"Just walking. Doesn't require a pep talk yet. Just breathe and take the bag. He'll have Pella bring the kids when they reach the hospital.""Right. Yeah. That's what he was going to say.""Uh-huh." He stretches where he's standing, and he looks up at him. "Thank you.""For?""For trying to keep it together. Because freaking out will only freak him out worse."He exhales and rubs his face with a hand. "Indicated, but reserving for later the right to really freak out."Another contraction sweeps over him, and he breathes in the pain, mouth-breathing with a harsh hiss. The knowledge that this is real, this is actually happening, comes home.Their child is on the way, and there's no going back.Isaac's hand presses against his lower back as he guides him toward the door. "Ready, Ky?""He thinks it's too late to ask that question."And his laugh is a comfortable depth that soothes some of the tension that's building inside of him as they slowly walk towards the car.H
All his.She whimpers with starvation as his fingers stroke across her skin, memorizing each inch of it under his touch. Going slow. Tormenting her. Kisses up the jaw and neck as he lines himself up and thrusts in one hard drive.She rides him, thrust to thrust, her ass slapping against his back as she drives against him. The position enables him to go harder, deeper with each thrust of his hips.He holds the perfect arc of her waist, fingers spreading a little over the small rise of her belly. The noises she's making alert him he's not going to make it much longer at this rate. "You're his, Kyoline. He told you that before, and now he's gonna demonstrate.""Isaac." She's moaning, her head dropping back onto his shoulder."Release the bed, baby.".Gratification pervades his chest when she immediately oblige and does what she is told.The need to have as little distance between them as they can tolerate pulses through him like a drum, and pulling her back against him, he pulls his tong
All the cells, all the atoms, all the nerves in his body are alert and humming.And because of him.Isaac-He forces Kyoline into the wall of the elevator the moment the doors shut. Her smile is cemented to her face today, and he's going to make it stay there for as long as possible. Watching her walk toward him down that ridiculous glittery aisle made his chest tighten and body stiffen.She's perfect. Perfect and his.Her giggling pours through the room as he leans in more toward her. "Seriously? You can't wait two whole minutes?"No, not where his wife was involved," he snarls. His mouth drops to her jaw, her neck, outlining his nose down the pillar. He inhales deeply of her scent and lets himself over some sort of metaphoric cliff to just get lost in her. This woman, his wife-admit it, that's a fucking rollercoaster every time the thought occurs to him-is everything he didn't need and everything he needed.He doesn't know what he did to deserve someone as amazing as Kyoline in his
And he starts to laugh—which is honestly not the reaction he's expecting, especially from someone such as he. "You're something else, you know that, Kyoline Diego? People might think you're a gold digger, but he thinks the only glittery thing about you is your heart of gold."He raises an eyebrow. "He barely has a heart of gold. He's got a history of scamming other people, recall?""Okay, you've got issues, but you've got a heart of gold when it really counts—like caring for your brothers and sisters when they're in trouble and assisting other people as well whenever the opportunity is available. And that's why he loves you so much…"It's warmer here than he expected at this time of year, and it works for the blush off-the-shoulder dress he has on. Some call it pale gold, but the tag sure promoted it as Bronzed Blush.It's not even half as in-your-face conventional as the last wedding dress, but he's never been more thankful. The other dress hadn't been him. It was some conception of
She makes a wave of dismissal in front of her and emits one of her nasal giggles. "Oh, that was a joke.""A joke?" It was supposed to be his wedding day, Cat M'noo. And as usual, you had to go and try and humiliate him."Her brows fly up before she peers down her nose at him. "He doesn't think he likes your attitude, Kyoline."You don't like his attitude? Oh, let him tell you, he hasn't liked your attitude for years. You bullied him at school and then continued with your nastiness afterward too, taking every opportunity to have a dig or an insult in. What is seriously wrong with you, Cat M'noo?""He, uh, just thought.they might start fresh," she replies in a quivering voice.Because now you've just gone and decided he's good enough to be seen with? Because you want an invite to his parties? Because you want to be accepted at his store?" He never did anything to you, Cat M'noo, and yet you were going after him. He has no idea if it was jealousy or insecurity on your part, or something







