I chanced a look at Emre who was silent and staring at the ocean. He suddenly turned and looked straight at me as if he could feel my gaze. Our eyes clashed as a song began to play and I couldn’t look away. I was like a deer in headlights, like the inadvertent prey caught in the hunter’s eyes. He tilted his head and raised a brow, as if asking me something. He slowly walked towards me and wrapped his hand around mine on my now nearly empty glass.
“I’ll get you a new one” He said, still not breaking the stare.
I looked down, flexing my hand against his.
“No,” I could hardly speak, I felt breathless from his proximity, “There’s still some left.”
He gave me a smile suddenly, lifted his hand holding the glass on top of mine and still looking at me, drank the remaining contents of the glass.
“That really is a very unique flavor,” he said as he walked away towards the bar with my empty glass leaving me staring after him. Again.
I felt like my hand had been burned where he’d held it.
Melisa looked from him to me, she was obviously confused.
I didn’t know how to explain anything to her.
Luckily, at that moment, Zayn came up to us and asked us to come and dance.
Melisa, born to dance couldn’t refuse and I was thankfully saved.
“Come on Sarah, show us your moves.” Zayn teased me.
I shook my head; I wasn’t comfortable enough to dance. I only danced when I could enjoy it. It was freeing, it was joyful. I realized I hadn’t danced in a while.
Eric came up to me, swaying with the music and placed his hands on my waist, he twirled me around once so that I landed against his chest “Cmon babe, lets burn the dance floor”
I laughed at him and pushed him back, “No, I can’t dance. You know that.”
I just couldn’t dance with him, the only man I’d ever danced with stood across from me and he’d broken my heart.
At the back of my mind, I was wondering why I didn’t feel anything when Eric held me, when he touched me, even when he kissed me when only a touch, even a look from Emre was enough to light me up like a 4th of July firework.
It was absurd. I felt so guilty; I couldn’t even look him in the eye.
When Pelin pulled him away, I was almost grateful to her.
I felt miserable and it was all because of the man standing there as if nothing was wrong. I stared daggers at him, thinking I needed a break.
“I’m going to go use the restroom,” I said to no one in particular, making my escape.
I assumed one of the guest staterooms might have one and I walked inside the first one I saw, in a hurry to get away from everything.
I was right, it had an ensuite restroom but it looked like I’d walked into the wrong one. I didn’t know how but I knew whose room I had walked into. Emre’s, it was his room.
Maybe it was the hint of the cologne in the room, maybe it was the shirt on the bed but I knew right away. I didn’t know what to do…
I could use the restroom here without anyone knowing, although I didn’t really have any particular need. It had just been a ruse. Why then should I go to another room, I thought as curiosity arose inside me.
The room was obviously in regular use, I though as I looked around. Did he live on his boat?
What did that mean?
Before I could find out, the room burst open.
“Sarah?” Emre walked in and slowly closed the door behind him.
“I was looking for the restroom,” I hurriedly explained.
“So, you found it?”
“Yes, I’m sorry for intruding. I didn’t know this was your room”
“No harm done, do you like it?”
His question sounded strange.
“Like it? Oh the restroom, yea it’s great” I finished lamely, wondering if he knew that I hadn’t even entered it.
“No, I meant on the whole, the yacht” he tilted his head to one side and smiled as If knowing exactly what was going inside my head.
“Emre..” I realized this was the first time I’d said his name since we’d met again.
“I…Its great…I should go,” I stammered looking anywhere but at him.
It was being in the same room with him. I moved towards the door but Emre didn’t move.
He shook his head and stood in my way.
“Emre?” I whispered.
Abruptly he moved and took my hand. He tugged me towards himself but at the last moment, flipped me so somehow I was against the door now and his hands boxed me in on both sides.
He reached out a hand and clicked the lock.
I couldn’t believe the extent of my disappointment, sadness and disbelief. It was as if a dam had burst and I was suddenly remembering everything and crying my heart out to the ocean.Great ugly sobs tore out of me while the wind whipped my face around my face, like the wind and the sea were angry with me. Everything hurt, my heart, my soul, everything was in tatters. Who would have thought that a fun trip would end up so tragic as I slowly slid down and leaned on the upstairs deck.Heartbroken again, how did I let one person break my heart again and again? It was pathetic, I thought as I closed my eyes and thought of everything that had happened to me since Emre had come into my life.And now both brothers were in my life again, wrecking it.I felt someone come and sit next to me and I looked sideways at Emre. He looked tired and almost as empty as me.I couldn’t believe the extent to which those people had gone to
I came back to the present realizing both Emre and Ashton were staring at me.“Okay, explain,” I told him, “How are you to blame in Emre firing me?”“I didn’t fire you,” Emre retorted, “You resigned!”“You didn’t trust me!” I replied, “You didn’t believe that I was not involved in the funds that ad disappeared from the company account.”“I believed you!”“You didn’t, you had one doubt and that’s why you told me to take a few weeks’ vacation. Do you think you do that to someone? You don’t even do that to just an employee and I was more than that.. or that’s just it.. I wasn’t..I wasn’t anything to you” I ran out of words.“I wanted to investigate what had happened without you in all of it” He ran his hands through his hair.“So, you took me out of it, out of my off
“Hey Melisa?” I was sitting on the bed with Melisa in our room and we were both rubbing the hand cream that had been on the dressing table. It smelled so good, Emre never disappointed, “Thanks for opting to share a room with me. You saved me from Eric.” “It was my pleasure, he creeped me out today,” She said touching her lips. “Me too,” I replied, “I hope he’s gotten the message that I’m not interested in him.” Melisa’s phone rang and she picked it up on the first ring. I deduced from her side of the conversation and the blush creeping up the side of her face that it was Mert. I smiled and went into the ensuite bathroom to give her some privacy. I made a bun on top my head while I waited for her to finish and tried not to listen in on her conversation. When I came out, she was waiting for me. “I want to ask you a favor,” she said and bit her lip. “Anything,” I encouraged her. “Um it was Mert,” She pointed to her phone,
It seemed like everyone was holding their breaths to see what Eric would do. The tension crackled in the air. A part of me was curious too. Eric had been essentially been called out on his shit.However embarrassing it seemed for Pelin, it really was a pretty clever thing she’d done, called out Eric like that.Eric really seemed to be in a bind. He kept throwing me looks as if he expected encouragement from me which was insane. Did he really think he still had any control on me?Did he still want both me and Pelin in his hands all at once? Wow, what an asshole?Pelin had apparently realized the same thing because she looked like she was about to cry.Zayn spoke up, “Hurry the fuck up man! Make up your mind,” his tone was harsh, unlike what he usually sounded like.Looks like Eric was stepping on a lot of toes with his behavior.Pelin put her hand on Eric’s shoulder and he suddenly stood up.He looked at
This game sure seemed like more trouble than it was worth, I thought as Ashton asked me if I wanted to go next.“Sure,” I said. I had a few ideas I wanted to try out myself.“So who are you choosing Sarah?” Eric asked me and although the question was simple, his words made me wonder if he was asking me something else.“Mert,” I tilted my head at him and gave him a smile reminding him he still needed to pay for that position he’d put me in earlier.He nodded, accepting responsibility.I wasn’t going to be subtle, I wasn’t going to hold back, he’d assumed too much about me and less at the same time.“Alright, truth or dare?” I asked him.I had a plan… he’d been planning to out my feelings but now I wanted to turn the tables on him.Let us see what Mert was made of.“Truth,” he replied, a little cautiously…“
“Thanks for nothing Ash,” I mocked him as I returned back to the bonfire. Ashton was unconcerned and just stuck out his tongue at me. Did he think I didn’t notice him setting me up with his brother all the time? He just took advantage of the fact that I never said anything to him. “So where did you learn to climb trees?” Pelin asked me. I looked up from where I was looking at my hands as Emre came and sat down next to me with a sigh. “Oh, my dad taught me when I was little,” I replied “Pity he didn’t teach you how to swim too,” Zerrin put in with a sneer, “Emre lost all that time teaching you when he could’ve enjoyed himself instead. Oh the knives were out…and they hurt. I gave a tight smile, “You’re right, it is a pity. Unfortunately my dad died before he could.” There was silence then, Zerrin’s face was pale. “I..I’m sorry, I didn’t know.” She stammered, clearly she’d been taking her lead from