Chapter 6

Marcus’s POV

I really messed up this time. I just don't know what came over me at that moment. I was caught off guard when I saw Jenny at the cemetery with Anna by my side. Was I afraid? I remember my heart pounding wildly in my chest as I tried to think of something, anything that would excuse why I was with Anna but instead I lashed out at Jenny. I didn't mean to but now I have upset her her. It's all my fault. I just never thought I would run into Jenny while I was out with Anna.

With my history with Anna, it would be difficult to explain things to Jenny. Despite everything, Jenny is my wife and Anna is my ex. Things are complicated. I don't know how I am going to fix this. If grandmother hears about this, she won't let me off easily. It might be already too late. Who else would Jenny cry to if not grandmother? If thst was the case, wouldn't she have called me a million times, calling me back home.

I pulled my phone out off the pocket to see if I have any missed calls. Nothing. Not even a message. That is strange. It means Jenny hasn't told her yet. This is my chance to try to remedy the situation before grandmother gets a whiff of it.

" What's wrong, Marcus?" Anna said, pulling me out of my thoughts.

She startled me. I almost forgot that she was right beside me.

" Huh? Ah, it's nothing," I smiled a little, trying to play it off.

" Really? Becuase you seemed like something was botheting you, a second ago."

She touched my hand her face full off concern. I sighed. Who was I kidding?

" You are right," I said laying back on my seat.

" Let me guess. You are worried about Jenny, right?"

I nod my head.

" It's all my fault. I shouldn't have brought you along to the cemetery. Now because of me, Jenny will be upset with you."

I shock my head and placed my hand on her cheek.

" Don't blame yourself. I wanted to come with you. None of us would have thought we would bump into Jenny. It was just bad timing, that is all. You don't need to worry about it. I will handle things with Jenny. Once I explain things to her, she'll understand."

Anna smiled and leaned closer to me. I stiffened, contemplating pulling away. I wanted to hold Anna in my arms but it just felt wrong to do so.

I cleared my throat putting some distance between us.

" I think it's time for us to go. I'll drive you back and then I'll go back home. The sooner I make things clear to Jenny the better."

The ride back to Anna's was quiet. I couldn't stop thinking about Jenny. I know our relationship is complicated. Our marriage is arranged and one of convinience. I am aware that Jenny is in love with me and doesn't mind that I don't feel the same about her. Shd has always been satisfied about being by my side and doesn't really demand a lot.

Grandmother was the one who wanted us to be together and since Anna left, I thought it wouldn't be a bad idea to marry Jenny since we are both accustomed with each other. I thought things would remain the same, not accounting for Anna's return. I loved her when we were together and I was heartbroken when she suddenly broke up with me. What I didn't realise that I still dad feeling for her. Anna has an effect on me, a hold I cannot break free from. I can hardly deny her anything she wants. Right now, I am caught between a rock and a hard place.

Before I knew it, we arrived back at the hotel. I escorted Anna back to her hotel room. Reluctant to leave becuase I don't know what awaits me at home. I had to go back and try to fix things with Jenny but at the same time, I would much rather face her later.

" I can't help but feel that I cause trouble for you. Perhaps I shouldn't have contacted you in the first place. You are a married man after all."

I looked at Anna, unable to understand what she was saying to me.

I walked to her and helped her shoulders.

" Don't say that. You are never trouble for me. I was the one who caused this problem. And I'll fix it. You don't have to worry. My marital problems have nothing to do with you?"

" Marital problems?" she asked, her face contorting in confusion.

" What are you talking about?"

I sighed, wondering how to tell her the truth of my life. I turned away from her, afraid she would see through me and my emotions.

" I would rather not talk about it... " I say hesitating. She looked disappointed that I was closing off. On her so o quickly changed my mind.

" But I guess I can tell someone."

We walked l over to the the couch and sat down. I didn't want to talk about the past because there was a lot to unpack. I wouldn't where to even even begin. All that happened back then is everything that complicates my life right now. If only things didn't go wrong, all our lives would be better. Now I am stuck in a situation that leaves no one happy. I don't know what to do or who to turn to about what I am feeling. I'm am filled with guilt because I have hurt my Jenny and I cannot leave Anna alone in her time of difficulty.

All I know is that my feelings for Anna never faded even though she left and broke my heart. I only married Jenny becuase it was what my grandmother wanted. Jenny loves me, that I know. She always has and I thought that would be enough to sustain our marriage. Clearly I was wrong. I shouldn't have agreed to marry her when I still had lingering feelings for Anna. Now that she is back, I am not sure what will happen. How will everything unfold between the three of us?