if I could choose whom to love, I'd never choose you. I never knew how much of a permanent scar you'd be on my heart.
Nova"We're gonna miss you so much baby," My dad said with his arm around my shoulder in a side hug. While I stood awkwardly as he pretended to care. But we both know his main focus is on the phone in his hand.I sighed defeatedly and walked past both parents who were completely unaware of me because they were talking about their next so call business deal. I made my way to my room and picked up the last of my belongings that I would be needing.I walk down with my things in hand, not giving a single glance back to my room.It was merely accommodation for my temporary stay in this house. It was never a home.I get to where my parents are standing "Mom, Dad. I'm all set to leave""Yeah, safe trip honey" my mum dismissed with a wave of her hand without even glancing at me.I know it's routine, but that still hurt.I walk out of the door and suck in my breath before exhaling loudly as I make my way to my car, which is currently filled to the brim with all my luggage.As I sit in my car with my hands on the wheel, that's when it dawned on me. I'm leaving. This town, my parents everything. I'm going to college.I smile to myself and put the key in the ignition and I drive.As much as five hours may seem, I wished desperately that it could be an ocean separating me and the shithole I just left.I had nothing there. There was absolutely nothing left there for me. Just a house with parents who never cared to see me as much as they loved working.If I remember clearly the last time my parents and I sat together to have dinner like a family was when we all found out about Chance leaving for college.And since then, all they care about is their job.I need this. I need this distance from them, I need it desperately. Because I know that for me to move on, I've got to realize that they don't care about me and I don't think they ever will.And I'm tired of thinking that one day they'll finally notice me and acknowledge their child, It's never gonna happen.With my eyes focused on the road, my attention is shifted from my rapid thoughts of the family when my phone rings notifying me of my message.I ignore it. And conclude that it's either a social media notification that I can check once I'm settled in.I glance at the small clock on my dashboard and I realize I've only been driving for an hour. It felt like three!I let out a loud sigh suddenly regretting my decision to drive for s hours.What was I thinking?I check my gas and make a mental note to stop and refill and get a lot of snacks. If I'm going to punish myself for five hours, might as well make it a fun-filled one.As I drive into the gas station and park my car, I notice a man and an extremely young woman. They seemed to be caught up in a heated argument. I look around before I check my gas once again. Just in case I decide to get the hell out of there.I get down from the car and I see the cashier from the store sitting at an angle where he can see everything going on between the two people.Okay Nova, just fill your car and leave. I chant silently to myself. I'm about to get in my car when I see the man grab her wrist tightly as she tries to yank her hand away. I watch the altercation silently from my position before deciding that I need to get involved."Fuck it!" I mutter as I close my door and start walking closer to them. "Excuse me?" I smile at the lady before turning to the man "But I don't think she appreciates the way you're holding her hand. No one appreciates being grabbed like that" I smile trying to ease the tension"Who the fuck are you to tell me what to do, eh?" He sneers and lets go of her hand in the process"I'm not looking for any trouble. I just know that if she wants you to hold her hand she wouldn't struggle" I turn to the lady "Are you okay, miss?""I am fine thank you" she steps behind me, away from his viewThe man scoffs and runs his hand across his face "Fucking bitch! Coming over here to tell me what to do? He walks closer to me "Or maybe you'd like me to hold your hand, huh?" His tone goes low as he whispers the last part to me"Step back, please"He gives me an eery grin "What is it? Huh? I can stand wherever I want, can't I?I step back a little and turn to the lady "Do you need a ride?"Her eyes widen "Y-yes please"I ignore the weird man, who is drunk or high, I don't know "Let's go" I turn to her.I feel a hand grab my arm "Don't walk away when I'm talking you bi-"I grab his hand forward by surprise, with every strength I could muster. Causing him to lunge forward in an unbalanced state before pounding on his back with my fist and introducing my knee to his stomach when he gets up in pain."I told you before. No one appreciates being grabbed roughly"I motion to my car and we both get in before driving off I realize I never got my snacks.I'm Nova by the way. Are you hurt?""No. Thank you very much for what you did back there. I appreciate it."It's nothing. Everyone just gotta stand up for each other, especially stupid men who think they own the world and everything in it."Yeah. I'm Meredith, but you can call me Mer" she smiled at me and I did the same"Nice meeting you Mer""Where did you learn to do that? I mean the thing you did to him back there."Oh." I shake my head once I realise what she meant "To be very honest I don't know. I guess being a punching bag to my older brother and survival skills just kicked in, I guess" I shrugged as I finished explaining"It was very impressive" she smiled proudly at me"Thank you" I smile and focus on the road as I listen to Mer tell me how I can get snacks at her stop.Everyone around them knew, that he'd set himself on fire to keep her warm.Nova."So uh... yeah I'm still driving, just got on the road again after last night." I rambled as I try to figure out what to say into the phone in my hand "Oh oh yeah! I met a girl last night. Not that type of meeting a girl but ughh, I helped her scare off this creep and gave her a ride" I smile to myself as if Chance was here in the car next to me listening. And I was not leaving him another voicemail.I park by the side of the road and turn my radio down a little as I continue spilling out my last night's fiasco into the phone."Turns out, she didn't even know the dude, you know. Just some creepy, disgusting man that thinks he's superior or whatever." My left hand on the wheels tightened as I remembered the slimy bastard. "I hate men, they're so fucking infuriating. Except you, Chance. I love you" I giggle after that last part "A-and I know it's not all of them, but it's really hard to think that now to be
Everyone thinks I ruined her. I did.NovaI've always hated mornings.But there's something about the night, that's welcoming to me. The way darkness engulfs me in its warmth, doing its best to shield me from prying eyes. This is how best I can describe the night.I could also go on and on about it. But I'm stuck in this line waiting to get my coffee. With this dumbass male specie in front of me, that keeps, not so subtly if I may add. Trying to check out my boobs.He should be thankful I have too much weighing on my mind right now.Human beings infuriate me. Scratch that.Straight men infuriate me.I woke up this morning, happy about my new life in college and a house that's free what more could I possibly want?That's a lie.I woke up this morning and my mind immediately went to the letter that was left for that guy. Yesterday was my first day in college, I met that guy yesterday. All these thoughts bombarded my head and all I could think of to calm myself down is coffee.But here I
Our love was toxic but it was still our love.Leonardo"You remember the plan right?" I asked the doctor attending to me"Yes sir" he nods and answers in haste"Good" I turn to face him before placing my hand on his shoulder and drawing his face closer to mine "Because I'm pretty sure that, as a doctor, you need your hands for work." I give him a pat on the back and he scurries out"What was that?" Nova chuckles as she walks to me and hands me one of the cups in her hand."I.. have no idea. Just mumbled some shit about a patient and left" I shrugged while feigning innocence. I took a sip of my coffeeShe let out a loud sigh "You won't believe where I had to go to get these" she placed the coffee down on the table beside me before presenting a small bag I'm guessing contained muffins"Where?" I kept my eyes on her as she spoke"The other side of the hospital!" She exclaimed defeatedlyI chuckled "I was expecting to hear you drove away from here or something else""I might as well have
If we're being honest, I think she did more damage than I did.LeonardoAs I sit in the corner, watching the rise and fall of her chest while she breathes. All I can think of is how badly I want to be in that bed with her.Holding her, caressing her. But I can't, not yet at least. But soon enough my love, soon.She receives a message on her phone, and I immediately take the one in my hand that's linked to hers, to check it.The message is from a girl named Tiffany asking if she's still coming to the party.I'm guessing this must be her tour guide. She hasn't met any other person since she got here, maybe during class.Not like she talks to anyone there also.Good thing I persuaded the woman at the admissions office to attend to her any time she arrives. And also give her the new Inn that was specifically made for her.I move from where I'm sat, close to her to another section of the house. This spot is darker.I'm sure those girls will call anytime soon.And then the phone rings "Just
Please touch me...Nova I open my eyes slowly and immediately squint when I'm met with the harsh reflection of morning sunlight from my window.Too lazy to stand up and still slightly drunk, with a raging hangover to be able to decipher my current location.I'm laying on my side in a bed, I'm very sure it's not mine.I drop my hand from my body trying to feel around for anything like my phone or anyone perhaps but nothing. I close my eyes and stretch drawing the sheets up to my face unknowingly and that's when I see it.Blood."Oh, my God!" I gasp to myself as my memories from last night begin to come back bit by bit.I don't get up from the bed, too scared that whoever I slept with is still around somewhere or he has gone and I have to face the scary moment when I realize what has happened.I wanted to have sex. At least drunk me did I remember Tiffany bringing up the idea and at that moment it sounded like an amazing one.My first thought was just to get rid of it. Get o
He was everything dangerous yet, I craved his touch immenselyNova"So yeah" I s hrug "That's what I've decided," I say as I make my way to Leo's kitchen to get a drink.Leo and I have been hanging out for weeks now. Well, I don't think hanging out is the right word. I've been coming to see him since the accident and we've become friends... I think.He's sort of closed off, in a way. He talks to me sometimes but not as much as I've imagined how friends talk to each other.Maybe we're not friends."So you're saying you're just going to ignore the fact that you have a stalker. One that sent you a picture of you covered with bloody sheets. And a dead man, with missing body parts next to you?" Leo says looking at me with a hard gazeI sigh "Okay. Of course, I'm scared, but what can I do? I went to the cops and they said it's probably a friend playing a prank on me" I shrug "I give up" I pick the Mountain Dew and then head back to the living room."The security system of this country is wi
NovaI've never really imagined how my first time would happen. Never really thought it was necessary to visualize that entire scenario. When my expectations and reality will be completely different.This is men we're talking about.My eyes go to the man sitting beside me on the couch. He was already finished with the glass of wine and had just poured himself another.I'm expecting my emotions to be all over the place. But I feel nothing, absolutely nothing.I'm telling myself I just want to get this over and done with.I feel the space beside me where he's sitting shift as he moves closer to me "So, I was thinking since we're already settled on the couch there's no need to go to your room you know? Might as well, just get settled in," he runs his fingers across my arm "right here"I clear my throat and move away "Would you like more wine?" I stallHe stares at me with raised brows and chuckles "Yeah that sounds nice. But sounds nicer for later on, when we're thirsty again" he says th
They could speak of her over my grave and watch how she brings me back to life.Nova"Yes! That's what I'm telling you!" I yelled, my voice revealing the irritation I was feeling presently, more than I wanted to."Ma'am I'd appreciate it if you calm down and speak gently," The officer said"Calm down? I come in here to tell you guys that I'm being stalked by a murderer and all you could ask is 'How do you know he's a murderer?" I tried my best to impersonate the officer who asked me that dumb question "And now you're telling me to calm down!" Do you think I'm that jobless to throw around allegations if I wasn't sure? I'm scared for my life here and all I need is help" I sigh defeatedly. I was beginning to feel like the last forty-five minutes I had spent in this station was a waste.The officer stared at me before sighing "Okay. What does he look like?" She asked and took out her pen and notepadI furrow my eyebrows "I-I don't know he wore a mask" From where I was standing I could see