LOGINDawn’s Point of View
“Let go of me, Killian.”
He does not let go.
I try to yank my arm free, but he pulls me closer instead, and I am forced to tilt my head back just to look at him.
“Please, Kill. I didn’t...” I start, but he presses a single finger to my lips, and my heart does something it has no business doing.
“I’m sorry, okay? I just need to...” my voice cracks. He leans in until I can feel the warmth of his breath against my ear.
“I told you I would take him away from you.” He pauses, letting it sink in. “Look at you. No one left.”
I close my eyes. My chest pulls tight like something is collapsing inside it. Did he do this?
I make the mistake of lifting my head to look at him properly, and my lips accidentally brush against his.
I go completely still, even as a chill goes down my spine.
He is going to kill me.
He closes his eyes. Draws in a slow breath. When he opens them again, his pupils have gone wide and dark.
“Do that again,” he says.
I open my mouth to say something, anything, my eyes moving helplessly across his face. He cannot mean that. He does not mean that.
I am about to pull away when he swipes his tongue slowly across my lips.
“Fuck.” His voice drops to almost nothing. “You taste good.”
His eyes are half-closed, and I am just standing here, pulse hammering so hard I am genuinely convinced something is wrong with me. I need a doctor.
“How about a deal?” he says, opening his eyes fully, watching me.
“Let me go.”
I need space. I need air.
I want nothing to do with any arrangement Killian Larsen has ever thought up. The last time I agreed to something with him, it created this war between us that never ended.
“No.”
“You didn’t even hear it. You might actually like it,” he says with a smirk, his eyes roaming over my face.
“No, thank you.”
I move to leave, realizing he let go of my hand, but instead, he pins me against the car.
“You love him, don’t you?” he asks.
I stare at him, blinking back my tears.
He leans forward, and I press back. “How about this, Dawn? I help you get him back, and you do something for me in return.”
I swallow.
This is Killian Larsen. A person built entirely of dark edges and worse intentions. Making a deal with him is not like handing your soul over and watching him ruin it.
“No, thank you. Let me go.” I shove him.
He looks amused, but he doesn’t budge. I feel like a rat being cornered by a cat.
“How about this instead?” He tilts his head. “I fulfill my brother’s promise. And all I ask is that you help me with something.”
Everything stops; he didn’t just say that.
“Damian’s promise?” My voice comes out unsteady. “How do you even know about that?”
“Come on. Everyone knows about your little arrangement.” He lets that sit for a moment. “So how about I take you up on that offer, and in return, you help me out?”
“Help you out,” I repeat slowly, studying him. It is deeply unlike Killian to ask anyone for anything. Something underneath all of this is not right. But also, how did everyone know about my arrangement with Damian? I told him years ago, and it was just the two of us.
“No.” I straighten. “I want nothing to do with you or your brother. I have had more than enough of the Larsen family.” One broke my heart. The other one broke my arm.
“Dawn...”
“Kill?” Sabrina’s voice floats over from somewhere behind him.
He curses quietly, glancing over his shoulder.
“Your bunny is calling,” I say, and I use the half-second of distraction to slip into my car and pull the door shut before he can stop me.
I need to get drunk and forget that this night ever happened. They say alcohol numbs the pain, and right now I am willing to test that theory.
I head to the only bar that does not look too closely at my fake ID.
The bartender gives me a warm smile when I walk in. I climb onto a barstool, and she comes over, wiping down the counter.
“What can I get for you, sweetie?”
I do not even know what to get. I think of Damian reaching for whiskey every time something went wrong, and I tell her that.
She sets the glass in front of me. I try to take it the way I have watched Damian do it, all at once, no hesitation.
It burns like I swallowed fire. I choke and set it back down immediately.
This was a terrible idea. I can take cocktails that taste like juice and smoke, but nothing this strong.
“If you’re going to drink...” Killian says, dropping into the seat beside me.
I whip around. How is he here already? He nods to the bartender, who brings him a Bud Light like they have done this a hundred times.
“Make sure it’s not a bar full of men,” he continues, without even looking at me.
I ignore him. I slide a twenty-dollar bill under my glass and stand. I need to leave before he makes this worse.
Dealing with a broken heart is already more than I can handle. Killian on top of it is unbearable. He does not know how to let people breathe.
“Dawn.” His hand closes around my wrist, and something about the way he says my name roots me to the spot.
I hate that it does, and my stupid heart the way it races.
“He doesn’t deserve you.”
“Let go of me, Kill.”
“Did you ever stop to think,” he says, his voice quieter now, “that he knew?”
I go still.
“Why do you think he called you to that party just hours before your birthday?” he asks. “He has known for years that you love him. Known, and still chose her. So, I have to ask.” He tilts his head. “Aren’t you done being pathetic?”
“Let me go.” My voice comes out through my teeth.
He moves closer instead, and his hand lifts slowly towards my face.
“Tell me what you actually want, Dawn. Not the part where you tell me to leave you alone. The real thing.” His voice is low, barely above a whisper, and my pulse spikes in a way I refuse to admit.
I know what he is doing. I know Killian, and this is what he does. He finds the soft place, and he presses.
“Let me go,” I say again.
“I can give you what you want.”
“What is wrong with you?” The words come out sharp and tired all at once. “Leave me alone. Was what your brother did enough for one night? We are not friends. We have never been friends. You got exactly what you wanted, so please, just leave me alone.”
He is quiet for a moment, taking in my face, and then his eyes linger on my lips.
“That is the problem, Dawn.” His grip on my waist tightens, just slightly. “I have no intention of letting you go.” He holds my gaze. “He took you from me. And now I am taking you back.”
I blink.
“What is that supposed to mean?”
He does not answer. His thumb traces a slow line along my waist instead.
“I want to taste your lips again,” he says quietly, letting go of my hand, “But I can wait.”
I stare at him, eyes searching his face for the joke or the cruelty hidden underneath. Killian Larsen hates me. He has made that abundantly clear. He should not be here, saying things like this, looking at me like that.
I swallow hard. He cannot be serious.
“We are done here,” I grab my bag and am ready to leave.
“Dawn…” he shouts, and I pause, turning to him.
“Run for now. Because the next time I find you, I’m taking what’s mine,” he says as his eyes rake over my body.
“Fuck you,” I say and turn to leave. I hear him say soon but I ignore him. I’m done with the Larsen brothers.
Dawn’s Point of View“I know some guys who would be interested in you, if you’re that desperate,” Bree offers pleasantly.“Bree—”“What, babe? I am genuinely tired of hearing her name. She was your friend, fine, people move on. You don’t owe her anything. You literally told me she was annoying.” Her voice rises.Damian says nothing. He does not deny it. He does not even try.She keeps talking about how exhausting I am, so I just turn around and walk away.He does not come after me this time either. I have lost my best friend.I keep moving, the ground feeling unsteady beneath me. Everything I did over these years, every choice, and every compromise I made with him somewhere in it. He was the constant. He was my safe place. And he was telling her I was annoying while I was out here building my entire world around him.“Dawny, wait!” he calls.I keep walking, tears burning behind my eyes, and I don’t think I know how to breathe anymore.“About what she said—”“Am I annoying?” I stop, tu
Dawn’s Point of ViewI have cried. I have stared at the ceiling. I have told myself repeatedly that I need to go to class, and eventually I listen, forcing myself up and into the bathroom to put on enough makeup to bury the evidence under my eyes.Damian tried yesterday. He stayed outside my door for an hour before he finally gave up. I could not open it. I cannot look at him right now without seeing everything he chose, and everything that choice says about how little I meant.He dated the girl who made my life hell. The girl who is the reason I cannot look at myself without flinching.I do not use the mirror. Whatever makeup ends up on my face is applied entirely from memory and instinct.I am dreading today. They will both be there, and I have no choice but to walk into the same room and act like I am fine.But I still do it. I get to school from my dorm, and once I push the car into park, my eyes dart around, making sure I don’t see him.I make my way out and am already heading to
Dawn’s Point of View“Let go of me, Killian.”He does not let go.I try to yank my arm free, but he pulls me closer instead, and I am forced to tilt my head back just to look at him.“Please, Kill. I didn’t...” I start, but he presses a single finger to my lips, and my heart does something it has no business doing.“I’m sorry, okay? I just need to...” my voice cracks. He leans in until I can feel the warmth of his breath against my ear.“I told you I would take him away from you.” He pauses, letting it sink in. “Look at you. No one left.”I close my eyes. My chest pulls tight like something is collapsing inside it. Did he do this?I make the mistake of lifting my head to look at him properly, and my lips accidentally brush against his.I go completely still, even as a chill goes down my spine.He is going to kill me.He closes his eyes. Draws in a slow breath. When he opens them again, his pupils have gone wide and dark.“Do that again,” he says.I open my mouth to say something, anyt
Dawn’s Point of View“Damian?”His name comes out small, and I hate myself for it. Hate myself for loving him like this.“Shit. Dawn.” He pulls away from Bree, and I do not miss the smile that spreads across her face. Like she just won something. Her green eyes spark with it, her perfectly shaped lips curling slowly and satisfied.“I can explain,” he says, moving towards me.I step back by instinct.“Baby, just put her out of her misery and tell her the truth,” Bree says from behind him.I blink hard. I can see the regret in his eyes, but regret is not enough. Not even close. He betrayed me.“I’m sorry, Dawn,” he whispers. He drops his head, and when he raises it again, there is a flicker of pain in his expression.He cannot even hold my gaze.“Bree and I...”“We are together,” Bree says, wrapping her arm around him.I wait. I stand there and wait for him to pull away, to tell her to stop, to say she is lying. He looks at her arm. Then he looks back at me.He says nothing.“You pro
Dawn's Point of ViewI have made plenty of bad decisions in my life. Getting wasted the night before an exam. Skipping class to get high because my best friend Damian asked me to. Poor choices, all of them, but ones with which I could live.Coming to this party, though, is the second-worst decision I have ever made. The first is the very reason I’m standing here in the first place.“I want you to take my virginity,” I tell my best friend.He chokes on his drink. His eyes go wide, blinking at me as if he misheard me.“Dawn.”“Not now, obviously. Just promise me you won’t let me turn twenty still a virgin,” I say, biting my lower lip. He stares at me like I just sprouted two horns.His eyes move slowly across my face. His lips part. He says nothing.“Dawn,” he whispers.I know Damian, though. He is my person. He won’t make fun of me or use this against me. I have heard that the first time hurts, and that is exactly why I want it to be with him. Someone who knows me. Someone who actually







