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DISAPPOINTED BY HISMELF
While An Zihao was comforting himself that what he was doing wasn't immoral Lu Sheng was desperately trying to lie to himself.
Was he sad? Of course he was!
He had been sad ever since he saw that damned woman hit her.
He had been sad ever since he saw her lying lifelessly on the hospital bed, getting needles puncturing her body.
But, this couldn't compare to the disappointment that he gave himself. He was truly thwarted by his own actions, by the way his mind was messing up. When he decided to take on this path he did everything, took every oath he could to erase her away from his heart. When he made up his mind to hunt her down for revenge he had been strong but he broke down when he saw her suffer with his own eyes.
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