“Kakeru.” Hikaru-nii called softly and lightly shook me awake. “Oi. Wake up. It’s morning.”
“Mm.” I turned over on my side. “It’s Sunday. Please let me sleep…”
“It’s already late. Wake up.” He said, voice still low. That was weird in itself but I couldn’t really be bothered by it in my state of sleep. “Kakeru.”
“I heard you.” I groaned and stretched my arm out a bit in trying to shoo him off. That was when I touched skin. I touched someone… small. I raised myself by my elbows, on my stomach and remembered the three-year-old sleeping next to me in her favourite yellow night dress only when I saw her peaceful features. She was still fast asleep.
So that’s why Hikaru-nii was speaking so softly.
“How many nights has this been now?” Hikaru-nii shook his head in defeat.
“I don’t know… Four?” I slowly sat up and rubbed the sand out of my eyes. Aki-chan had woken me up at around 01:30 am saying that she wanted to sleep with me. This night was the fourth in the past week, ever since she found out that I was planning on moving out. It seemed to me that whenever she woke up a night, she would sneak out of her room and into my bed. She used to go straight to Hikaru-nii and Kaori-nee’s room till a week ago. “It’s fine, isn’t it? I’m only going to be here a couple more weeks.” I said in a low voice and looked back at her. “She probably wants as much time as she can get with me.”
“Why are you doing this to my daughter, you heartless brother of mine?” Hikaru-nii crossed his arms over his chest. “You could really just stay. We’re not driving you out.”
“I know that.” I said and took his hand when he offered to pull me up onto my feet. “Think about it though. Aki-chan’s already three. Almost four, actually. What if you wanted to add another one to the family? It would get awfully crowded in this little apartment.”
“You…” He gave me a poker face.
Damn. There was a time when such a statement would have made him blush. He had become domesticated…
I laughed off my failed attempt at teasing him and made for the washroom. “Sorry. Sorry. But I thought it was high time that I did move out. I’ve stayed long enough. You have looked after me long enough. You have your own two women to look after now anyway. It’s time I set out on my own and did some exploration.”
“Do you have a woman?” He asked seriously to which I practically snorted.
“I don’t have time to play around like that.”
“You are already twenty-three though. Wouldn’t you at least have a girlfriend?”
“One, no. Two, stay out of my non-existent love life. Three, I’m only twenty-three. Look at Hiro-san. He’s twenty-six almost and still single and free and happy.” I stopped at the door.
“So… what? You’re going to follow in his footsteps and remain a bachelor? No can do. Aki needs cousins.”
“The hell, man?” I gave him a weird look. “And can I go now? I really need to pee.”
“Ugh.” He rolled his eyes, glanced at Aki-chan and then looked at me again. “Kaori and I have to attend her former classmate’s wedding today. I’m leaving Aki in you care.”
“You’re not taking her?”
“I figured you both could use this Sunday together.” He smiled knowingly.
I couldn’t help but purse my lips at that to show that I was moved. “Okay.” I nodded. A whole Sunday with my niece. I couldn’t have asked for more. “When are you leaving?”
“In five to ten minutes. It’s a bit far off so we will be gone till late evening. Come and close the door soon.”
“Be there in five. Just let me brush too.” I said, sent him off and shut the bathroom door.
Aki-chan really had been sticking to me off-late. This Sunday was probably exactly what we needed. I will give her so much of my time that she will get fed up of me.
With that thought in mind, I went about my morning chores, saw them off, got breakfast ready for the both of us and then went to wake Aki-chan up. She tended to wake up at night often but she was very difficult to wake up in the morning.
I sat on my bed beside her and tapped her arm. “Aki-chan, wake up. It’s morning. I’ve made your favourite sausages for breakfast.”
Nothing.
“Aki-chan.” I shifted her closer to me and lightly shook her by her arm. “Wake up.”
She stirred but nothing more.
“It’s just you and I today, Aki-chan. What do you want to do?” She pulled her hand back when I took it in mine, turned the other way, chewed on nothing and fell silent again.
“Geez… Even though I am finally free… Aki-chan is only sleeping. Do you want to throw this precious Sunday away?” I turned her over towards me. “Come on. Wake up. Don’t you want to eat breakfast?”
“Mm… Kake-jii…” She grumbled and tried to get away from me but I did not let her. I picked her up straight away and stood up on realising that she had managed to open her eyes. “No… I want to sleep!”
“Wake up already. It’s boring without Aki-chan. Get ready fast, eat breakfast and then, we can play.”
I would neve have acted this childish had another soul been around. I could picture Kaori-nee and Hiro-san pulling this off but neither Hikaru-nii nor I would usually go this far with the way we acted. Ah… The things that I do for this little devil!
It was quite a task at first but eventually, I got her freshened up and seated in her high chair at the dining table. When she saw that I had actually cooked sausages for her, she swallowed all further protests and instantly brightened up. “Kake-jii is awesome!”
That’s right. I’m awesome. “Now, then. Let’s eat! Thank you for this meal!”
“Thank you for this meal!” She echoed grace and began tucking away the food before her. “Where are Otou-san and Kaa-chan?”
“They had somewhere to go. It’s just the two of us today.”
“What about Hiro-jii?” She chewed deliberately, probably remembering how her teacher at daycare had taught her to chew thirty-two times.
“Hiro-san? Probably at home.” I replied, then thought about it. “Should we call him too?”
“Yes! Aki want to play a lot today! Call Hiro-jii!”
“Then, let’s call him after breakfast.” I said and resumed eating.
Aki-chan kept hovering around me as I cleaned and wound everything up in the kitchen after breakfast. Her excitement was rather evident in the way that she seemed to have a never-ending list of things to talk about. A bit into washing up, because of her insistence, I dialled Hiro-san’s number and put it on speaker, keeping the phone on the counter while I continued washing. Aki-chan waited by the counter eagerly for him to pick up.
“Good morning, Kake-chan.” He said, his voice a rumble, when he picked up.
“Good morning.” I replied. Aki-chan followed. “Good morning! Aki is here too!”
“Eh? Aki-chan? What is it, in the morning?” I could hear the smile in his voice.
“It’s nearly 11:00 am.” I said. “Speaking of… did you just wake up?”
“That… would be correct.” He admitted. “Thanks to you.”
“Even a three-year-old is up and about already.” I chuckled.
“I’m an adult.”
What was with that?
“Can we sleep late if we are an adult?” Aki-chan asked sincerely. “For however long we want?”
“Yes.” Hiro-san replied.
What are you teaching the child, you big oaf?
“I too want to become an adult fast!” She bounced where she stood.
“Really? But I want to become a child again.” Hiro-san said.
Wait. We had not called to have this conversation. “Hiro-san.”
“Hm?”
“Are you free today?”
“Free… Ah, somewhat.”
“Then, come over.”
“Come!” Aki-chan echoed. “Let’s play! Otou-san and Kaa-chan aren’t here. Let’s play, the three of us!”
“Not there? Where did they go?”
“A wedding. Kaori-nee’s former classmate’s.” I replied. “Tell me. Coming or not?”
“Coming. Give me an hour.” He huffed. That was probably him sitting up in bed.
“Yay! Hiro-jii is coming!” Aki-chan jumped and ran out of the kitchen in celebration. “I’ll get my toys ready!”
“Aki-chan?” Hiro-san enquired after her.
“She’s gone. She ran out in excitement.”
“Ah. She makes me feel loved.” Hiro-san laughed. “What are you doing?”
“I’m washing up after breakfast.”
“You’re done eating already? Well, I guess I’m the only one who wakes up late among us. Ah. Then, I’ll come over and have lunch with you.”
“Aren’t you hungry?”
“A little. That’s okay though. I’ll eat later. Then… wait for me~”
“Don’t be late.”
“Mm. Then.” He hung up.
“Kuronomiya-kun, you’re leaving already?” Yamato-kun asked when I got up from my desk after packing up. “Yes. I have somewhere to go.” I replied and said goodbye to Shirokawa-san as well who was sitting next to my desk. “Thank you for your good work.” “Likewise.” They called back. I dropped by Hamada-san’s cabin and informed him of my progress on the new project that I had been assigned to. He was rather pleased with my progress too. Conscience clear, I headed out into the 06:00 pm streets of Tokyo. I checked my phone out of habit. There were no calls or texts from my brother. There was, however, a text message from my boyfriend. ‘Come fast.’ ‘Half an hour.’ I replied and po
“Where’s Hiro?” Hikaru-nii’s voice came from behind me as I was attending to the egg that I was frying. I turned to the doorway to find my brother leaning against the doorframe, his hands folded over his chest. He had been sleeping when I had gone to check on him earlier. So, I had started preparations for breakfast while trying to think of the various possible scenarios I would have to make my through once he woke up. “Not here… now.” I responded rather cautiously. “He hadn’t stayed?” He frowned. “I thought I had told him that he could.” “You… remember all that?” I had hoped that we could ease into this conversation but this being brought up right off the bat made me a little anxious. “I was a lot more sober by the time you had gotten home. I don’t remember sending
“You’re still not done?” I asked as I sat on the floor next to Hiro-san at the coffee table after my bath. “Maybe… one hour more?” “That’s okay.” I leaned against his arm. “I’ll wait.” “If you’re sleepy, please go to sleep.” “I can’t sleep properly without you, Hiro-san.” A lie… Maybe. “What is with that?” He laughed and patted my head. “Then, you can wait.” I nodded. I was planning on waiting anyway. I had left my phone on the coffee table next to his laptop. When I began looking around, I saw that the notification light was blinking. I reached out to take it. “Had someone called?” “No. I think you had a message though.” Hiro-san replied. “I did not check.” It definitel was a message and it had surprised me enough to make me sit straight up on reading it. “It’s from Hikaru-nii.” “Hikaru?” Hiro-san stopped what he was doing and looked at my phone as I opened the message. There were just two words on the
I was the first one to wake up the next morning. However, I could not even bring myself to move from the position that I was in. For one, Hiro-san was still holding on to me closely. Secondly, my back hurt a bit. Moreover, I did not exactly want to move. The clock on the bedside table revealed that it was a little past 10:00 am. I had managed to somehow apply for leave on my phone last night before falling asleep. Considering that I had been wide awake before it, it was incredible how much that sex had taken out of me- actually, taken out of Hiro-san and I. Once was far from enough for the both of us and by the time we settled into each other’s arms after that, we barely had enough energy left to move. I looked up at his sleeping face. It was no wonder that he was so popular. Anyone would want to see a face like that as soon as they woke up. Ah… Now I wanted to kiss him. It was past 10:00 am anyway. He had slept enough. I moved his arm
He held my gaze and slowly smiled. “You seem sure enough about this.” Sliding one hand down my right arm, he grasped my hand. “Let’s go back to bed though.” Saying that much and indulging in a soft kiss, he led me back to the bedroom. He came to a stop next to the bed, turned to face me and took both my hands in his. I gave him a questioning look. “You don’t have to treat me like one of your women.” “What? This?” He raised our hands to ask. “It’s not that I am trying to be really gentle or anything. It’s… Despite all my experience and how eager I am now,” he placed my hands on his chest and smiled sheepishly. “I feel like such a boy.” His heart was pounding against my palms. I let go of his hands and wrapped my arms around his neck. “When was the last time that you dated someone for real?” “Towards the beginning of college. Why are you asking me that now?” I shrugged. “Because I wanted to know.” Then I kissed him. “Because this is… amu
I opened my eyes fast because it was still too dark for me to see anything. I was breathing heavily and my eyes felt moist. There was a throbbing heaviness in my chest and my entire body felt numb. I had had a dream and it was painful enough to jolt me awake, almost crying, but I couldn’t even remember what it was about. It was rare for me to dream in the first place and, hence, a dream that was capable of leaving me in a wreck like that was even rarer. It made me close my eyes and try to recollect it again but all I could remember were the emotions and that I was not alone. Maybe… it was a good thing that I couldn’t remember it. I turned on my side and picked my phone up from the bedside table. The time was 01:57 am. I had barely just fallen asleep at 12:30 am too… I turned back and looked at Hiro-san. I was still lying on his arm but he had turned onto his back, his other arm lying over his stomach. He hadn't been awoken by my movement
On unlocking the door, Hiro-san let me in first. He followed me in after locking the door and proceeded straight to the kitchen. "I'll get you something warm to drink. Go change or freshen up if you want to.” I could at least change into something warmer. “Mm. I’ll… be out on the balcony after that.” “Kakeru, it’s cold out on the balcony too.” He said apprehensively. “I’ll take a blanket with me.” I said and went into the bedroom. He had offered no further protest, so I changed into warmer home-wear, wrapped a blanket around me and headed out onto the balcony. It was a little cold but I felt a lot better after changing and wrapping myself up like that. With my back to the wall, I sat on the floor and brought my knees up to my chest, covering myself up with the blanket and looking out at the night. My eyelids felt heavy. It was probably because of all that crying from earlier. “Why are you sitting on the floor?” Hiro-san asked on findin
What seemed like an entire lifetime to me was probably just an hour or so on the clock. That was all the time it took for Hiro-san to get there. I had already seen that shocked look on his face two times before. It was easier for me to offer up a smile the third time. Nevertheless, he was by my side in an instant- his eyebrows scrunched up in a way that told me that I was the only one finding this pattern of meeting strangely amusing. “Kakeru, what are you doing out here?” He crouched before me and took my face in his palms. The worry I saw on his face just then- I wished that I was seeing it on my brother’s. “Meeting out in the hallway like this is really becoming our thing, isn’t it?” I chuckled. “It shouldn’t be though. What happened?” He looked me up and down. “Where are your shoes?” He found them soon after asking, then looked at me seriously. “Hikaru?” I looked towards the door. “I don’t think he’ll want to see you now.” “Huh?” “
Did I have to actually say it out anymore? It seemed to me as though he had already figured it out. I could not bring myself to admit it. Confronted like that, I could not bring myself to deny it either.I had thought that it would be easier to tell my brother about us. I had not told him till then because he was still mourning Kaori-nee and I was trying to be considerate. I had thought that he would understand.“Kakeru, answer me.”What for? And, then what?“Kakeru!”“We’re dating.” I finally said it.“What?” He lowered his voice, his eyes pinning me to every word that I spoke.“I-I said that we’re dating.” I spoke deliberately and clearly. “Hiro-san is my lover.”He stared at me, then nodded. “Lover.”I swallowed nervously. “Yes.”“Since when?”“Almost two months now.”