13. Sleepover

,,Make yourself at home.", I said and gestured to my room.

,,Thank you for the invitation." Austin stepped in and looked around my room as if it were the first time he saw it.

,,It's not the first time you stayed over, what's impressing you so much?"

Austin set his school bag next to my desk and took a seat on my bed, but still looking around my room.

Is it just me, or is he feeling strangely comfortable already after the second time here?

,,It's not a normal sleepover, this is the first with my boyfriend, so of course it's different from last

time!", he announced during getting comfortable under a blanket.

,,No one that would see this would believe that you're the same person from the last sleepover."

,,Last time you were my crush and staying over had a stalking touch to it. At that time I never would have thought that we would feel the same way." Austin told me, truely happy and pleased with himself.

Meanwhile I settled myself next to him, with enough space between us so that our shoulders won't touch.

Great, that you're having a good time, but now I'm starting to feel nervous! So please, at least pretend to be a little uncomfortable for my sake.

,,Yeah, we have a crazy lovestory, allright?!", I replied, playing with my hands.

Austin watched me, than looked away and stared at the ceiling.

,,And now it's crazy to think that you would be gone soon. I hope we can still Skype and text regularry, but ... I'll miss you."

After he said that, I could sense the tears coming up, thats why I also stared at the ceiling.

An arm embraced me and pulled me closer into a warm hug.

,,Sorry, I didn't wanted to make you cry! It's ok, don't worry, we stay in contact and I will visit you as often as I can."

,,Thats not it!", I cried and hiccuped.

It's not that! ... Just, why is he so caring and always worried about me. Why? I don't deserve any of your kindness!

,,Why ... why do you have to be like this?", I repeated sniffing.

Why did I have to meet you now? Now, when I'm about to leave again? Why did I have to meet you ever? Why did I have to fall in love in love with you and leave you here behind?

Austin stroked my hair soothingly with one hand and cared my back with his other hand and pulled me closer this way.

,,Honey, I'm so sorry! I didn't meant to make you cry! Tell me what I said, and I promise I won't do it again!"

Somehow it's cute that he's so obviously overwhelmed by me crying and not knowing what to do now.

,,You maybe don't know this, but one of the reasons I fell in love with you ... was because you were the first person in a while, maybe ever, that was genuinely worried about me and cared about me. And don't tell me it's not a big deal. I should be the first person to know that thats not true!"

Allthough Austin didn't responded to my speech, his tighening grip around me and his calming heartbeat, and a bit of gut feeling, showed me that he listened and understood.

,,You know why I fell in love with you? Because you were pretty and cute of course, but also more impotantly, because you looked so lost and in need of caring and protection. That something inside me told me, that I have to and could care for you. And when you explained to me why you acted like you did, I just thought, that I genuinely understood you. Like I finally understood what it means to know a person. So all this time my heart left me no other choice than to fall in love with you." Austin rested his chin on my head and looked over my head during his little love confession.

,,Thats so cheesy. We are already together, you don't have to charm and flirt with me anymore."

,,What do you mean? Especially because your my boyfriend I'm going to charm and flirt the crap out of you. ... Also I think the orphanage didn't teach you how to value yourself and how normal and good relationships look like. So maybe it's not all that bad that you got a family and are going to reunit with your biological family."

Playfully I intertwined our legs with each other.

This situation felt so casual and relaxing, like a big weight was lifted off my shoulders.

Maybe he's right and being in a relationship wasn't all that bad. I could get used to this.

With each passing moment I was tempted to forget about every and all worries.

,,Thanks ..."

When I looked up into his face, he was sound asleep.

Are you serious?

This was kind of an odd situation, at the first night together with my boyfriend, open my heart to him and he falls asleep after admiting my recognition for him.

But seeing his sleeping face, feeling his steady heartbeat and his little snores, which were quite good to hear, or else I would be worried he would just sleep in forever, by how peacefull he slept.

And to tell you something, it absolutly wasn't a bad feeling at all to sleep in his arms.

Well, it was a bit awkward and unfamiliar, but the feeling of safety was something that nobody could ever rip apart from me again.

A few hours ago I was totally against the idea. It's crazy to think that he was able to flip my head upside down in such a short amount of time. Either I'm really into him or I'm just dumb.

If I would regret it, only time will tell.

But he has earned my trust and I took the jump, to fly or fall.

Getting sleepy now I took one last look around my room, where I started to pack my stuff for the move.

If theres one setback to our relationship now, that would be ...