I hate that I love you

It's my first time to meet my deep forbidden love of my life after nine years. I am too nervous to face him. But I am so eager to see his handsome cold face before my  eyes.

In the middle of the starry night  I saw my mobile ringing with caller id "Xi Victor......" I see my hand trembling with mobile to accept the call...however I brought my courage and slided my screen. 

On the other end of the call I heard a bold ,domineering and clear voice calling my name ....."Caroline shaw"

After a pause I came to my senses and answered ...."Where are you Mr.Xi"

Xi victor told me "I am waiting for you outside . can you come down to take me inside..."

I relaxed myself and replied " I will be there in 2 min.."

After hanging up the call I calmed myself and turned to open the door of my bedroom and got outside of my house .

I saw the man  standing under the peach blossom tree in the front yard . he was wearing a black long coat  which showed his tall thin figure starting me straight into my eyes . I was dazled with that sprinkling eyes and standed blantly in front of him..

He smiled at me and asked me with his seducing voice.."Am I that good looking.."

After interrupted by his words I came to my senses and smiled back at him and said with a blushing face.."Come in..its snowing outside..."

He held my hand and kissed me in my forehead and said " I missed you carol..."

The words he said made my eyes red and my heart skipped a beat .....my hand trembled  and my eyelids were too heavy to hold back the tear in my eyes which caused light pain in my eyes.....

I dropped my eyelids down so that he can't see my teary eyes however he noticed it and hugged me tightly . 

I hesitated and tried to push him back but he held my wrist and came near my face by which I can clearly feel his breathing ...I was startled by his actions and stared him with  deep love  in my eyes ...

Seeing me like that he smiled  and whispered in my ear  " If we stand here like this in snow overnight sure we will catch cold the next day..." 

I blushed with reddness in my cheeks and pushed him back and told him to come inside . I fastened my way towards the door . 

After entering the door I asked him  to sit in the living room and ran into the kitchen to get a glass of water . I drank it in a sip to lower the temperature of my burning hot body. Even though it is snowing outside I feel too hot inside me because of his sudden actions....

I came to living room a while later and saw him near the family photo hung in the wall . He was staring at it with the sadness in his eyes. I came behind him and said in a low voice " He is my husband and my daughter...."