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♤LEXI♤
My cousin Joan had always been the wild one in the family; the one who partied hard, dated the hottest guys, and somehow charmed everyone without even trying. Me? I was the opposite: the dependable one, the girl who arrived early to family gatherings and stayed late to clean up. While she lived for chaos and attention, my heart was stuck on the one guy I couldn’t have, unwilling to settle for anyone else. Joan had called me out of the blue and asked me to come over to her house because she needed me. I was in the middle of binge-watching my favorite true-crime series but she begged me to get to her house as soon as possible because it was urgent. She offered no explanations why she needed me. I didn't want to go but I complied. Joan and I had always been close, more like sisters than cousins, especially since we grew up in the same small town before she moved to the city for her marketing job. She was the glamorous one: tall, petite, with that effortless beauty—long blonde hair that cascaded in perfect waves, piercing blue eyes, and a smile that could light up a room. I, on the other hand, was shorter, curvier, with the same blonde hair and blue eyes, but I always felt like the cheaper version. Decent looking, sure, but not the kind of pretty that turned heads like hers did. When I arrived at her place, she pulled me inside with a hug that smelled like her signature vanilla perfume. The apartment was impeccable as always with the modern furniture, soft lighting, and takeout containers from our favorite Thai place already spread out on the coffee table. "Eat first," she said, shoving a carton of pad Thai into my hands. "Then we'll talk." We ate in comfortable silence for a bit but I could see the wheels turning in her head. Finally, I set down my fork. "Okay, spill. Why am I here?" Joan leaned back on the couch, her legs tucked under her, looking every bit the picture of innocence in her little black dress that hugged her figure perfectly. She was getting ready to go out, that much was clear. "So, I'm going to this party tonight. Vivien's birthday bash. You remember Vivien, right? From college?" I nodded. Vivien was one of her old friends. She had been very popular in college and always threw extravagant parties with open bars and DJs. Everyone loved her or wanted to be associated with her. "Yeah, but why do you need me to stay over? You going to be out all night or something?" I asked. She bit her lip, a telltale sign she was about to drop a bomb. "Dylan doesn't want me to go. He's being all protective and stuff." My heart did a little flip at the mention of Dylan. God, Dylan. Joan's boyfriend of the past year, the guy who'd been the object of my secret crush for even longer. I'd met him through her, of course—at a family barbecue where he showed up looking like he stepped out of a men's fashion magazine. He was tall, broad-shouldered, with dark hair that always fell just right over his forehead, and those green eyes that crinkled when he smiled. He was funny, kind and always remembered little details about people. But he was Joan's, and I'd buried my feelings deep, pretending they didn't exist every time we all hung out. "Why doesn't he want you to go?" I asked, trying to keep my voice neutral. Joan sighed dramatically. "Because William is gonna be there." My stomach twisted. I knew that name all too well. Joan had dated him back in college and he was her first real boyfriend. She'd cheated on previous guys with him before, sneaking around like it was some thrilling game. It had broken her last relationship into pieces, and now here she was, heading to a party where he might show up. I turned to give her the what the fuck look. "William? As in, your William? The one you... you know..." Joan waved a hand dismissively, but her cheeks flushed a little. "Yeah, that William. But nothing's going to happen, Lexi. I swear. I love Dylan so much. He's everything to me. And William's moved on... he's got a girlfriend now. What happened between us is ancient history." I stared at her, trying to read if she was convincing herself as much as me. Joan had always had a wild streak, the kind that pulled her toward trouble even when she promised otherwise. "Then why go at all? If it's that risky, just skip it." I tried to reason with her. She stood up suddenly and planted her hands on her hips. "It's Vivien's birthday, Lexi. She invited me personally, and Vivien's like a sister to me. Am I supposed to not go just because William's her brother? That'd be rude as hell. Besides, it's just a party. I'll be in and out." She said. "Joan, come on. You cheated on your last boyfriend with him. What if old feelings bubble up? Dylan's great, he doesn't deserve that." Her eyes flashed with irritation. "That was ages ago, Lexi. I was young and stupid. Dylan knows I love him. And I'm not going to do anything. Vivien's party is important; she's been through a lot lately with her job stuff. I can't bail. Please, just trust me." We went back and forth for a few minutes. I argued that she should just tell Dylan the truth, that sneaking around would only make things worse. She countered that Dylan was overreacting, that he trusted her but was just being paranoid because of her past. "It's one night," she said. "I'll be home by morning." Finally, I threw up my hands. "Fine, go. But don't say I didn't warn you if things get messy." Joan exhaled in relief, crossing the room to hug me tight. "Thank you. You're the best cousin ever." She pulled back, her expression shifting to something more scheming. "Which brings me to why you're really here." I blinked. "Wait, what? I thought you just wanted company or something." She bit her lip and glanced toward her bedroom. "Not exactly. I need you to... impersonate me. Sort of." My jaw dropped. "What?" "Hear me out," she rushed on, grabbing my hands. "Dylan has my location sharing on. He knows I'm home; or supposed to be. I told him I wasn't feeling well, that I had a fever and was staying in. He's going to FaceTime to check on me tonight. If I go to the party, he'll know something's up. So, I need you to sleep in my bed, keep my phone with you, and pick up when he calls. Pretend to be me." I pulled away, laughing incredulously. "Joan, that's insane. No way." "Please, Lexi. You don't even have to talk. We look so alike. We have the same hair and same eyes. Just cover part of your face with your hair if you're worried. Lie there in the dim light, act all sick and weak. He'll buy it." I shook my head, standing up. "This is ridiculous. What if he notices? We might look similar, but we are very different. He'll see right through it." Joan stepped closer, her voice dropping to that persuasive tone she used when she really wanted something. "Come on, just this once. For me? I'll pay you. Five hundred bucks, cash. I know things have been tight for you since you moved here." Money. She knew my weak spot. Rent was due soon, and my freelance gigs weren't paying like they should. Five hundred bucks wasn't much, but it was something. And honestly, the thought of talking to Dylan —even silently—sent a forbidden thrill through me. It was just a video call, right? A few minutes tops. What harm could it do? "Fine," I muttered, trying to sound reluctant. "But only because I need the cash. And if he shows up, you're on your own." Her face lit up. "He won't! He's two hours away, dealing with some family emergency. And he hates driving at night, says it makes him anxious. You're safe."I stared at her for a moment before looking around the study again. Empty. My father wasn't here. The bastard wasn't even in the country. So why had I never considered the possibility that she was lying to me?I looked back at her. "Then why the hell did you tell me he wanted me here?"A slow, infuriating smile spread across her face. "Because that was the only way I could get you home."My jaw clenched.Of course.She'd known I wouldn't come if she'd simply asked. She'd known exactly which button to push, and she'd pressed it without hesitation. She'd used my father because she knew his name alone would be enough to get me through that door.And like a fucking fool, I'd walked straight into her trap."You manipulated me.""Yes."She didn't even bother denying it.Something tightened low in my chest. I stepped farther into the room, and the moment I did, the space between us seemed to shrink.Up close, she was impossible to ignore. My eyes caught on her face before I could stop them,
I pushed the door open and headed straight for my father's study.I expected the house to be quiet. It usually was during the day, especially on a weekday. My father worked too much to spend much time at home, and even when he wasn't working, he rarely stayed around. These days, he was usually somewhere with Astrid instead—on vacation, at some expensive resort, or wherever else newly married couples went when they had money and nothing better to do with it.I couldn't remember the last time he'd simply been home. I couldn't remember the last time he'd called me, either. Actually, that wasn't entirely true. I could remember calls about practical things. Documents. School. Something he needed signed. Things that required my attention, not because he wanted to talk to me.I couldn't remember the last time he'd called just to ask how I was.The same went for texts. We didn't have conversations. We exchanged information when necessary and left it at that. Sometimes days, even weeks, went b
I must have really lost my mind.Doing that with Ella? That was fucked up on so many levels because, as much as I didn’t want to admit it, Astrid was my father’s wife now. And that made Ella my stepsister. A sister. I had just done that… with my own sister.The thought made something twist painfully in my gut. I wanted to tell myself it was a mistake, that I hadn’t been thinking straight, that things had simply gotten out of hand. But even those excuses felt pathetic because I knew the truth. I had known exactly who she was. I had known exactly what she was to me. And yet, I had still done it.That was what fucked with my head the most. I felt sick thinking about it now, but I couldn't deny that, in the moment, I hadn't wanted to stop. Admitting that made the guilt settle even deeper, because it meant I couldn't blame everything on losing control.I had made a choice.And now I had to live with it.I pulled off my glasses and rubbed at my swollen eyes. They ached from staring at the s
Her fingers were warm and sure as they closed around me, wrapping my length with a confidence that sent a slow, dizzying rush through my head. She held me like she’d been waiting for this exact moment; firm enough to make my hips twitch, gentle enough that every nerve lit up under her touch."You’re—" She looked down at what she was holding, and her breath caught. "You’re really big. Bigger than I imagined." Her voice dropped lower, almost a whisper. "God, you don’t know how much I’ve thought about this. If you did I don't know if..."She didn’t finish the sentence. Instead she stroked upward slowly, from the thick base all the way to the sensitive tip. Her thumb circled the head in a slow, wet swirl, spreading the clear bead of precum that was already gathering there, smearing it over the flushed skin until it glistened."You’re kidding," I managed, staring at her. "All that time… you were thinking about me like this?"She nodded."But you hate me."She didn’t stop stroking. If anyth
"I said get off." My voice cracked on the last word."Mmm." She didn't move. "You keep saying that. But your hands keep doing something else."She was right. My fingers were still digging into her hip, holding her there. Holding her against me like I was afraid she'd disappear.She leaned down and her mouth stopped an inch from my ear."Do you want me to stop?" she whispered.The question landed somewhere deep in my chest. I could feel her breath on my neck. I could feel every inch of her pressed against me. I could feel my heart beating so hard I was sure she could feel it too."No." The word slipped out before I could stop it.She pulled back just enough to look at me.For a few seconds, she didn't say anything. She just stared, her eyes moving slowly over my face as if she'd suddenly noticed something she hadn't before. The little silver studs along her lower lip caught the light when her mouth parted, and I could see the tip of the tiny barbell on her tongue when she ran it though
She took another step toward me."I'm sorry," she said quietly. "I really am. What I did was completely out of line. I've had time to think about it, and I feel awful about what I did to your books. I had no right to touch them. And I shouldn't have acted like that when your dad came in.""Congratulations." My voice was flat. "You finally figured out you're an asshole. Want a medal?"Her face fell."Your apology means nothing to me, Ella." I pointed toward the door. "So do yourself a favor and get the fuck out of my room. I'm tired, and I want to sleep."She nodded slowly. A strand of dark hair slipped loose from behind her ear and fell across her cheek. My eyes lingered on it for a second, and my fingers twitched at my side before I could stop them. I wanted to reach out and brush it away. The urge came so naturally that it irritated the hell out of me."Can you at least eat the food?" She held up the container again. The burnt spaghetti looked even worse up close. "You can't go to b







