Chapter two

~Lexa’s POV~

I spent all night running. Fear eating me up as her words took a toll on me. “He killed your baby since you destroyed his trust” her words were already engraved in the deepest part of my heart.

I wanted to understand it all but every time I tried to, it only became more confusing. My mate was brutal, non forgiving and all but never to me.

Not once since we became mates

What changed?

There had to be no way he would say that.

But also no way Annika would lie to me about that. She liked us together and would only protect us. She wasn’t even capable of lying.

‘This wasn't true’ was what I tried to tell myself repeatedly, convincing my wolf that we would wake up the next morning and it’ll all be a nightmare.

A horrible nightmare where I lost everyone I held dear to myself in one night. I could feel my bones weaken as each step I took came with agony and pain.

I kept moving despite my burning chest, it felt so hot and tight. My feet bleeding but my heart bled more

‘Antrix help! It hurts so bad’ I clutched my chest, calling out to my wolf who was quiet like she was in deep shock.

We couldn’t shift and she felt so distant from me for the first time ever.

Her silence robbed me of the comfort I needed.

She was in shock and disbelief, her mind unable to handle or process everything that just happened.

What exactly were we supposed to focus on? The loss of our pup or the betrayal of a mate?

Just make it all disappear. I didn’t want to think, didn’t want to feel anything. Didn’t want to believe this was in any way real

I wanted to escape this.

I wanted the nightmare to be over

I can’t take it anymore, it’s painful.

He betrayed me, he didn’t value the bond we shared.

I’m tired, I don’t want to remember anything again…

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The last thing I remembered was my heart aching real bad before passing out.

But now...

I could hear crying.

My baby.

My baby was crying. My baby was calling for me!

I opened my eyes, ready to move and carry my child but instead, I was met by a middle-aged woman staring at me curiously, reaching out to touch my forehead.

"Stay away!" I slapped her hand away, growling at her with my last energy and scrambled backward, slipping into the small river behind me.

She stared at me in shock like I was some sort of alien.

I looked around quickly.

I was far from my pack.

I had definitely crossed into another territory which meant I was in danger.

"Are you okay?" the woman asked, her voice soft and calm.

She looked like she wanted to help me.

She took a step forward, but I backed away, deeper into the water. I passed out close to a tiny river.

"No... stay away," I rasped. My voice sounded broken while I could hear my wolf groaning in pain, soaking herself in grief.

It wasn’t a nightmare like we thought it would be.

There was no waking up from this. And I hate to say it but it was all real

“I just want to help, are you okay?” Her voice was calm and still. Her movements were gentle as I watched her watch me too closely.

Like she was checking for any sign of injury.

That’s when I realized. There was no baby.

The sound I heard earlier was nothing but a cruel trick of the mind.

Tears poured down my face.

I struggled to stand, the memories of everything that happened rushing back all at once and I broke down again.

Raemon killed our child.

He did it because he thought I was cheating.

It just proved he never loved me.

I had to protect myself now.

The woman showed too much softness in her eyes, telling me that she wasn’t going to harm me.

She wasn’t just any wolf, her aura wasn’t smelling weak.

This was my chance.

I had to forget Raemon.

I had to forget everything.

So I sobbed harder and whispered, "I... I don’t know who I am." But I broke into a million pieces as the words escaped my lips.

Her eyes widened. She rushed to me, gently grabbing my arm.

Then she pulled me into a hug and I cried even harder for the choice I just made.

Raemon was known to be brutal to other packs. But if anyone here found out who I truly was, I would either be executed or even dragged back to him.

The woman patted my back gently.

"It’s okay. It’s okay. You’re safe now," she whispered, and in that moment, I felt safer than I had in a long time.

She reminded me... of my mother.

We finally pulled apart. She gave me a soft smile, blinking her kind blue eyes at me.

"Let’s get you to a healer, shall we? You’ll be fine," she said.

I just stared at her, unable to speak.

My reaction must have made her think I was just a poor unfortunate harmless rogue.

"Come on," she said, pulling me along with her and as I followed her, I realized how lucky I was to be found by her and not someone else.

If it had been a guard or worse, the Alpha, I might already be dead.

Raemon …. I’m so hating that name and don’t want to recall it ever again.

But Alpha's are never really associated with one another and so they would likely kill a stranger or at worst enslave them forever once they cross borders.

It was just a tiny rope holding them together and this is what I want to believe is luck.

I never used to believe in luck.

My life was always easy.

But now... Now, I believed in it.

And I was going to use it well.