I always get on the bad side of love she said…Lexa Cross made a vow never to get involved with any man again after her mate chose to believe others over her. Even taking away the one thing that was supposed to make their bond stronger. She’s different now, pretending to have lost her memory. She wants to forget every hurt and pain her mate caused her, but life takes a new turn when she’s thrown back to face the pain she so long pretended to have forgotten. They both want her, she hates men but it’s not her decision to make Two rivals fight for her locked up heart.
View More~Lexa’s POV~
My body hurts. Normally I should have healed faster since I wasn’t just any wolf but the Luna of silver moon pack but this hurt real bad. I opened my eyes slowly, greeted by the ceiling of my bedroom. A smile curled on my lips as I pushed myself into a sitting position and looked to the side of the bed for my baby's cradle but it wasn’t there. What’s going on? Raemon and I had gotten all our baby things seven months ago, and they were always in our room. So why was the room completely empty of them now? Where was my baby? Where was Raemon? My baby and my husband were supposed to be by my side. I pushed myself off the bed hurriedly, but my whole body hurt so much that I had to sit back down. The only possibility I could think of was that Raemon had moved everything to the nursery and taken the baby there so I wouldn’t be disturbed. I rubbed my forehead and took a deep breath. I wished he were here, though. I needed a hug. Giving birth had been a lot harder than I imagined. The door suddenly opened, and my heart skipped a beat. I expected Raemon to walk in with our baby in his arms, but instead, a wave of disappointment washed over me as Annika stepped in with a bright smile on her face. “Oh, thank the Goddess! Luna You’re awake!” she hurried toward me. She sat beside me and hugged me, careful not to squeeze too hard. Goddess, I was still in so much pain. I smiled back at her as she pulled away with a big grin on her face. “I am.” “Yeah...” She pouted, but her expression shifted. Her eyes suddenly looked gloomy. “What’s wrong?” I asked. Annika had always been close to Raemon. They grew up together since their families were close. Her father had been the former Beta to the previous Alpha, Raemon’s dad. So, she was like a sister to Raemon. Very protective of him. And we were almost like sisters too. We did almost everything together. “You were in a really terrible state, Luna. I thought you were going to die. I was really worried.” I forced a smile, not knowing how to tell her how much pain I was still in or how desperately I wanted to see my child. “Yeah... I had to have a C-section. That’s mainly why I really need to see my baby right now.” I stood up and took a step forward, hating the anxiety building in my chest. I needed to see and hold my baby. “Luna, you…” Annika called softly, reaching out and grabbing my hand. She was stopping me. I couldn’t help it. I glared at her, a low growl slipping out. “What?!” She let go of my hand and blinked in shock. I instantly felt bad. I never shouted, never acted violent. I was the calm Luna their Alpha got married to. “I’m sorry. I’m just…” I ran my fingers through my hair and moved quickly to the door. “I just gave birth, Annika. And my baby isn’t with me. It’s frustrating. It’s painful. I just want to—” “Raemon is furious, Lexa,” Annika said, breaking character as she only ever addressed me as Luna before. I turned to her, raising a brow. “What? Why?” She rose from the bed tensely and walked toward me. “He thinks you and Marcus are having an affair. He found out during your delivery and lost it.” My whole body went cold. “What?” Tears filled Annika’s eyes. She stepped closer and rested her hands on my shoulders. “He … he killed your baby, Lexa. He said that since you destroyed his trust, this was the only logical thing he—” “No!” I screamed, shoving her away. My hands shook, my heart was pounding. “You… you’re lying!” I shouted. “You have to be lying!” Heat burned behind my eyes, and tears streamed down my cheeks. I clutched my tightening chest. My wolf felt as though she were dying. There was no way. There was no way Raemon would do that. There was no way he would kill our child because he thought I was cheating. It was impossible. Right ? Yet I felt it. The hollow ache of not having my baby. “He would never—” My knees buckled, and I collapsed onto the cold, hard floor. Annika knelt beside me, crying with me. “He’s gone crazy, Lexa,” she whispered. “He found Marcus and…he announced Marcus’s death. He said you’re next in line to face his wrath.” “No.” I shook my head. My voice cracked as my whole body trembled. “He.. can’t.” “You have to get out of here before he kills you,” Annika whispered, hauling me to my feet. Her eyes held fear and seriousness in them. She was damn serious and Raemon can sometimes be a monster. I know all about his past and promised never to put me in a situation where I’ll question my safety with him ever. But clearly he lied I couldn’t feel my legs. All I could feel was the pain in my chest and the hammering in my head. I didn’t want to believe it, but Annika would never lie to me. She was crying nonstop, looking as broken as I felt. “Please,” I begged, clutching her arm. “Help me. I swear I’ll never come back. Just help me, Annika.” She pulled a key from her pocket and pressed it into my palm. “Take this. It unlocks the back door that opens onto the forest. Run, Lexa. Don’t look back. He’ll kill you the way he killed your child.” I clenched the key. Suddenly fists pounded on the door. Three sharp blows that rattled the frame. “Luna, the Alpha summons you!” a guard barked, and my heart slammed against my ribs. Annika and I shared a panicked look. She dragged me to the window, shoved it up, and helped me climb through. I let my wolf take control. I landed on all fours, agony rippling through me, but I stayed upright. When I glanced back, the window was already shut. “Hey! Who’s there?” a voice suddenly called out, and when I turned, I was met by two approaching guards. I didn’t think. I tore into the forest, ignoring the fire of pain in every muscle and bone of my body.~Zane~ “We had to stick to the plan! No other thoughts” I muttered to myself boldly, my wolf disagreeing with what I just said. “Report to me Josh, don’t play with me.” I ordered through the mindlink. I know he purposely sent his beta and whoever the female wolf was. “Nothing happening. Just an alpha longing over his long lost mate. Nothing unexpected.” He said slightly bothered. I could feel my legs itching me. I want to find her. “We don’t want her with him.” My wolf growled out in my head. “But we need this to go through, we’ve come too far. We can’t throw away opportunities.” I told him, ignoring the disagreement in his growl. “But we care about her.” He said what I didn’t agree to say out loud. I ignored it, not denying it. “She wants to go in, obviously tired of his obsessive look. This alpha doesn’t hide it you know?” He said lightly through the mindlink. Hell I could see the ‘I know you are bothered about that’ look on his face. “What about her?” I asked, una
~Lexa~I forced out a smile at him, trying to remain chill. He’s no one to me, I tried to remind myself. Just what the hell is he up to? “It’s fine, and I don’t eat dinner with strangers.” I made it clear to him, but he was just there looking at me like I was some lollipop. His eyes fixated on me, just looking without remorse at me. He’s been looking all evening, making me a whole lot uncomfortable. I tried to grasp the fact that Annika that helped me was here. The monster didn't come alone but with Dexter and Annika. I didn’t think I would be able to keep a stern face, secretly watching them look at me like I wasn’t real. I wanted to hug her, let her know how I’ve been for years. Thank her for help and also ask how she’s been all this while. But I couldn’t do anything, just let them watch me, while I did everything in my power to remain still like I wasn’t affected and didn’t want to break character. “But..” “Can I go to my room now? There’s nothing much to see
~Raemon~ I was going to reach out to him if he didn’t reach out to me in time. I’ve been thinking about it carefully, her face stuck in my head every single minute. Five years.. it’s been a whole long five years of her running away from me. Annika was right, I need an explanation but more importantly I need my mate and I’m not going to make a mistake that’ll drive her away from me again. I can’t explain the joy I feel, knowing she’s going to be in my arms once again. The pain I had to go through with a mate on the run. I thought it was going to be an easy thing to find her before the week runs out. I couldn’t recognize myself, the hurt of a mate leaving and the thoughts of how much pain she’ll be in killing me continuously. For the first time I felt confused, I was supposed to be thinking of ways to comfort the child we both lost but everything swallowed me up at once. I was overwhelmed, asking the moon goddess to provide my mate for me or I’ll invade every pack. It was
~Lexa~ We sat still, my gaze outside the window. Alpha Zane just right beside me and Beta Josh driving the car. No escorts on the road, just us driving right before dinner time. I let the silence sit between us as I didn’t want to talk to him. He was pushing it, pushing me and I hate the fact that I can’t do anything about it. We were driving straight out of the pack, where all the buildings, pack house and local hubs were thoughtfully hidden behind the tall thick bushes that served as boundaries between other packs. It was just enough to remind me of the possibility that I might be walking straight into a meeting with Raemon. I put extra powder and whatever thing Christine gave me to cover up the mate mark on my neck. No one .. absolutely no one knows about whose mark was that, all she needed to know was that I had bad feelings about the mate mark and I hated seeing it. It covers up pretty well, and I’m glad. I don’t want anything pulling me to him. “Behave yourself
~Lexa~ “Are you okay? Troubles again?” Xavier asked quietly, as I gently placed my face on my hands in a very tired gesture. Just great… I can’t even turn left and not see him there. “You say it like I’m the one looking for it.” I sat upright, frowning at him. He smiled, handing me some of his fruits. “Oh yea sorry. It always finds you.” We both laughed, nodding our heads as that was more like it. I guess the one thing I want to do has set a whole lot of issues for me. “But what is it this time around?” He asked gazing straight at the person sitting a table away at my back. Yes. I did come out to eat with Xavier even though I didn’t get to rest a lot. I already sort of promised him, so I had to come along. But what did I get, a very annoying alpha sitting at my back. “That’s true, why can’t you just go along with them? He wants me to come along to a meeting.” I spilled out to him, putting the fruit straight into my mouth. Putting the upper part of my body on our table.
~Lexa~ I sat down without waiting for him to tell me to sit, his eyes staring at me and I stared back. Alpha’s and acting all almighty. Just because they have authority, he had to spoil my afternoon?! Tskk… I frowned deeply, the pain reducing this time around. I held the small ice bag tighter against my forehead. He turned to look at Josh, definitely saying something through the mindlink as it took some time before he finally spoke up. “You’ll be attending a 3days meeting with me, so prepare all you need. We will be leaving tonight.” He muttered boldly, dishing out orders. I was confused who he expected to follow those orders, definitely not me. I looked at him with utter confusion, pointing at myself. “Are you talking to me?” “Is there anyone else here?” He asked, his voice deepening with silent anger. “Yes, there is.” I glanced towards Josh to prove a point. “I’m not smiling or laughing Lexa.” “It’s not like it’s my fault , so?” I murmured, turning my face away. “Wha
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