LOGINROSE'S POV
The bouncer steps in front of me, but surprisingly he just nods, parts the rope, and lets me in. This is everything my mother warned me against. I wasn't supposed to walk up to a man like this, I wasn't supposed to wear such revealing outfit in public, nor have any kind of intimate encounter until I was married. But this is the only thing I've taught about for weeks. "Hi...uhm, I'm sorry about...this." my voice shakes slightly as I struggle to sound confident but fail. The man shifts on the couch, looking up as I step in. "Uhm...I didn't mean to walk in here and disturb you." I'm trying to be cute...maybe sexy right now. But, instead, I let out a nervous laugh. He aches a brow, his expression perfectly concealed. "It's okay. Not the first time something like this has happened." His voice is calm. "But to be honest, it's unlike the bouncer to let anyone in without checking with me first." I let out a relieved sigh, my hands still clasped together firmly. "I guess... I'm not like other people here?" I bite my lip, my eyes dropping to the floor, unable to meet his gaze. But, I peek just a little from the corner of my eyes. His green eyes are just so beautiful. "And you don't seem like other clubbers." His eyes takes me in, but there's no judgement in them. Instead there's curiosity. "Most people come here to escape something. But you...you seem like you're searching for something." "Yeah. I'm not sure." I feel a bit more confident as I step closer. "So, you've got a name for the mysterious guy sitting in the VIP section all night? What's your deal huh? You're a regular or just passing through?" He leans back, casual, yet completely in control. "Ryan," he says, sipping his drink. "I’m just passing through. Got a call from my brother. Came back into town about a month ago. Family stuff. Haven’t figured out if I’m staying yet." He stops talking, but his gaze stays fixed on me, almost as if waiting for me to say something probably to judge him for not helping his family. But I won't. Not tonight. This is his family, and I'm not that Rose—the one who judges. He nods with a slow smile. "I’m curious too," he says, voice dropping a little. "Why did you come over? You don’t really... fit in here." I smile, even though my heart’s pounding. "I guess... there’s something about you. Something that caught my attention." I manage to sound alright, but a thousand butterflies are fluttering in my stomach. "But standing here and staring at you, now makes me feel like a lost kid in the mall." "No." He taps the seat beside him, indicating there's room for me. "Don't say that." As I step further, I trip over a cable and loose balance. But before I can fully hit the floor, his arms wrap around my waist, steadying me. I laugh nervously. “I’m not used to this kind of... attention.” He gently guides me to sit, then gives me space. His hand leaves my waist. "I wouldn't describe you as lost." The corners of his eyes crinkles as he smiles. "Something caught your eyes you walked up to him. That's sexy. And I like it." I lower my voice, teasing. "You asked why I came over? Maybe it's because I’m tired of wanting what I’m supposed to want." Up close, he’s even more striking. I could get blind from just staring at him. "It's not just you," he says quietly, leaning into me. "You’ve got a script in mind, but you’re not following it, are you?" My eyes widen. How did he see through me? "I don't know why I came here. I'm not like..." I hesitate, the words catching in my throat. "Most people here. I'm supposed to be..." I glance away, embarrassed at my own thoughts. "But sometimes I wonder if I'm just following the rules to avoid... I don't know. Breaking something. Or myself." He brushes my hand. I flinch, but he doesn’t let go. "Rules keep you safe. But they also keep you from feeling anything real." He smiles, his warm touch stays on mine. "Sometimes the first step is just saying yes. Whatever that comes after we deal with it." He grins, but there's sincerity beneath his playful demeanor. "And tonight, why not take that step?" I hesitate, my mind compiling a hundred reasons why this is a bad idea. The music slowly fades, narrowing the club down to just me and him. His stare lingers on my lips as I part them to speak. The air feels different with something new—chemistry? Tension? Desire? I feel his thoughts before he speaks them, he's not talking about rules anymore. And this is where I should run. I open my mouth to refuse, but all I can say is. "Yes, tonight." I know this is the moment. I watch him, eyes softening, leaning closer. Nobody else in the club matters, it's just us. I can hear my heart beat loudly. I should pull back. A stranger is about to kiss me. I want to say stop, but my lips betrays me. His lips cover mine in a kiss that is so hot and barbaric, pulling me in. His hands are firm on me, pressing me into him. I feel his fingers slide against my ass, guiding me to sit over his thighs. I suck on his lips, his tongue thrusting deep into my throat. My mind blurs with heat. Maybe Monique was right. One night of letting loose wouldn't ruin the legacy my family has carefully crafted for me. I don't need to be perfect tonight. I could let myself be vulnerable, for one night. Afterall, I'll never see this stranger again. I feel his hands glide my thighs. Higher, almost stroking my wet folds. My pulse spikes. "Uh." I breathe, my body trembling at his touch. This is going too far, I never meant for this to happen. I shake uncontrollably, looking down at his fingers between my thighs. "I thought we are in friend zone." "It's just a touch." He murmurs, his eyes dark with desire, and I melt into him again. His fingers rob the edge of my panties, slowly... I bite in a moan. My body responding before my mind could catch up. As he leans in again, my body screams for me to pull away but my lips betrays me, closing the distance. His tongue finds my mouth again and thrust in. My lips move on their own accord, sucking on his button lips as he expertly kisses me and massages my ass. A moan escapes me, then another. It's suddenly too hard to breath. A flash of my mother's face appears in my mind. Would she approve of this? Ofcourse not. But...what if, just for tonight, I didn't care? I'm gasping for air, the kiss deepening. Urgent. My protests are swallowed by his lips as he slowly moves to my jawline. He pulls back a little, our foreheads still touching. We breathe in each other, our chests rising and falling in rhythm. I freeze and panic takes hold of me. What have I done? I've kissed a strange man who isn't my husband. I've broken every rule I lived by, betrayed my family. I feel so guilty. His warm hands remains on my back, like he understands how I'm feeling. But how could he? He's the lucky guy tonight. I pull away, shaking off his grip until my feet touch the ground. My head spins. Gosh I just made out in a club with a total stranger. What have I become? I look down at the erection between his thighs, surprised at how aroused I made him. "A case of blue balls. Yeah, it will be a pain by tomorrow." His voice reveals the intended humor and something darker. "But I can wait." I need to leave. My feet begin moving, pushing me away from him, toward the exit. "I didn't get a name," his deep voice calls after me. I stop, turning to face him. "Because it's not important." "Why?" He steps closer, a subtle challenge in his voice. "We will never see each other again." I reply. Not waiting for another question, I disappear into the crowd. My breath is shallow. Why am I walking away? What do I really want? I stop and glance back. Ryan is still watching me, his expression hard to make out. And it breaks my heart because this is the end of something that never even begun.I felt my pulse quicken as I sat in my apartment staring at the ceiling. The lawyer’s threats had escalated, legal action, media scrutiny. My family was closing in, and the pressure felt suffocating. My phone vibrated again, the screen flashing with a name I hadn’t seen in months; Claire.I hesitated, my finger hovering over the screen. I hadn’t spoken to her since our last conversation, the one where she’d accused me of betraying everyone. The one where I’d finally made it clear that I couldn’t live the life they had planned for me. I wasn’t sure what to expect this time, but the truth was, I didn’t know if I could keep running anymore.Xander’s presence was a comfort, but it wasn’t enough to keep the doubt from creeping in. I couldn’t escape what my family wanted, the legacy, the business, the future that they had already mapped out for me, even though I hadn’t wanted it in the first place. They weren’t going to let go easily."Are you going to answer that?" Xander’s voice broke thr
Xander’s presence was some kind of reassurance beside me, though he said little. He didn’t need to fill the silence. Sometimes, the quiet was the only thing that made sense to me. We had made it through the toughest part, the one where I chose myself over the expectations of a lifetime. But the aftermath was just as hard to navigate. The pressure wasn’t gone, it had simply shifted. Now, it was about finding the strength to walk away from everything, even when it felt like it was all still holding on to me.I wasn’t sure how long we stood there, but eventually, Xander broke the silence. "How are you feeling?" His voice was gentle, careful.I turned to look at him, really look at him. There was no pretense in his eyes, no judgment. Just a steady, unwavering calm that had always been there. It had been his anchor when I felt like I was drowning."I don’t know," I admitted. "It’s like I’m stuck between two worlds. There’s the one where I’m free, where I’m living for myself. And then there
The days that followed Claire’s visit passed in a blur. I spent most of my time locked up in the apartment, trying to process everything that had happened. It felt like I was standing at the edge of something, but I wasn’t sure if I was ready to jump or if I should just turn back. My mind kept drifting back to that conversation with Claire, to the weight of the decision I had made.Was it really the right choice? Could I truly walk away from everything I’d known, everything my family had built?Xander noticed the shift in me, the way I’d become quieter, more withdrawn. It wasn’t intentional, but it was hard to ignore the nagging doubts that were taking root in my mind. Still, he didn’t push me to talk. He just let me be, his presence steady and constant. Sometimes, that was all I needed.We hadn’t spoken much about what had happened with Claire. I didn’t want to rehash it. It was painful enough to relive it in my mind. But Xander had this way of knowing when I needed him, even if I di
I woke up to the gentle sound of the city outside, the first light of morning creeping through the blinds. The apartment was quiet, peaceful, the kind of calm I hadn’t allowed myself to experience in years.Xander was still asleep beside me, his breathing steady and deep, his arm draped over my waist. I could feel the warmth of his body against mine, and for the first time in a long while, I didn’t feel the gnawing weight of my past pulling at me.Everything was different now. And while I couldn’t say I had all the answers, I knew one thing: I wasn’t alone in this.I slowly eased myself out of bed, careful not to wake him, and walked into the kitchen. The familiar sounds of the coffee maker brewing a fresh pot echoed in the silence, the smell of the rich coffee filling the air. It was a small comfort, but it was enough to start my day on the right note.As I poured myself a cup, I couldn’t help but think about everything that had happened in the past few weeks. The decision to walk aw
The night air was cool as I walked alongside Xander, our footsteps in sync as we made our way back to the apartment. The city was getting quite, the busy streets now peaceful, the sound of distant traffic now barely audible in the background.I could feel a sense of calm settling over me, but underneath it, there was still a flicker of uncertainty. It had been a long time since I’d truly felt in control of my own life, and the weight of that realization was both freeing and terrifying."I don’t know if I’ve ever felt like this before," I said quietly, breaking the silence between us. "Like I’m actually… living for myself, you know?"Xander glanced at me, his smile soft and reassuring. "I know exactly what you mean. It’s a scary feeling, but it’s also kind of exhilarating, right?"I nodded, my gaze fixed ahead as we turned a corner. The streetlights flickered above us, casting long shadows on the pavement. "It is," I said. "But there’s still a part of me that’s holding back. Like I’m w
The city was filled with people going about their daily lives, and yet, for the first time in what felt like forever, I couldn’t shake the sense of calm that had settled over me.Maybe it was the coffee shop, maybe it was finally letting go of Claire, but I was beginning to feel something I hadn’t felt in a long time: hope.But it wasn’t just hope about the future; it was hope about who I was becoming. A year ago, I would have never imagined myself walking away from the company, walking away from my family’s expectations, and most certainly not walking toward a future where I got to choose what came next.I wasn’t fully there yet, but I could feel it. I could feel the weight of the past lifting, piece by piece.I pulled my jacket tighter around my shoulders as I walked down the street, the evening air cooler than it had been earlier in the day. The sun had set, and the city lights cast long shadows, making the world around me feel both familiar and foreign at the same time.I hadn’t t







