Chapter four : fifty shades

The day dawned crispy and clear. The morning sun poured through my window forcing me to squint my eye as I pulled the blanket over my head.

" A minute, just a minute" I whispered to the morning gods.

" Ivy" the shrilling voice of my sister brought me anguish. Won't she let me sleep?

" Ivy wakes up, your dumb ass," she said as she shook me awake.

" Lizzy just a minute" I groaned as I sank into the bed.

" A minute! Are you crazy, it’s after one!" she said as she pulled the blankets away.

" you went to the club and came back drunk," she said and she scoffed.

" And you left me, me your sister. Since when did you start doing things I don't know about, huh?" I groaned and opened my eyes slowly.

" Lizzy doesn't open the window," I said as the mid-afternoon sun blinded my eyes.

" why? It stings in here" she opened the windows.

" But since when did you and Mark go out at night, huh? ". She said as she walked closer to the bed. Even I was wondering the same thing. Had I done something that made him see something that wasn't there?

I had kept to myself since we came here.

" He found me at the club" I retorted. My mouth dropped open, shocking myself. My brain went into heat trying to formulate an answer for her next question.

" club, you? " She looked shocked.

" Yes me, club Lizzy it was just a one-time thing" but it was more than just a one-time thing. Seeing Mark's dick flashing in front of me had me traumatized. How was I going to let that slide, how was I going to act normal in front of him? He was my uncle for crying out loud and I had seen his dick. I had seen him having sex with a whore. If I knew where I could get a manual to erase those images.

" I am going to take a shower Lizzy" I smiled as I stretched my legs.

" Sure but you could not have gone to the club without telling me, are you hiding something from me Ivy" I groaned as I dashed towards the bathroom door.

“ Lizzy I am nineteen and I need a life!” I shouted. I heard her groaning then stomped out.

After a few minutes, I strode into the kitchen where I found the cook.

" Afternoon," I said.

" afternoon dear, what would you like to eat?" he said as he spared me no glance nor acknowledgement.

" Salads," I said. He only nodded. I ate in salience. After I was done, I asked where everyone was, and he told me they were at the pool.

I said thank you and headed outside.

" Ahh, Lizzy you didn't tell me you guys were out here," I said as I plopped onto the chair next to her. It was a great a day for swimming.

" Well I didn't know either until I saw those idiots coming here, and I had to follow." I nodded as I looked in the direction she was pointing at. I froze in my seat as I stared at the Mark, his long tanned legs, his broad shoulders and that abs.

" Ivy" Lizzy whispered

" Lizzy" I whispered back.

" Those abs, are they real?" she whispered.

" I don't know? " I whispered back.

" Why are we whispering again? " She said as she looked at me.

I shrugged my shoulders. How was I supposed to know? She was the one who had started whispering in the first place.

" Lizzy I want a drink" Terry walked over, a small smirk plastered on his face.

" get it yourself, that is why God gave you hands and legs," she said. I watched with lowered lashes as Mark approached, a small smile on his handsome face.

" I see you are awake " I felt my blood rush, my legs trembling as my eyes drifted to his midsection. he only had a boxer on. I swallowed hard. Was God punishing me for the wrong things I had done in my past life?

" ye_yeah I am". I averted my eyes and looked at his face but those eyes, those ocean blue eyes. I looked at the floor with immediate effect.

" Lizzy where are mother and grandma," I asked.

" they went shopping for Easter " I nodded my head. we had come two days before.

" Ohh OK," I said, disappointment lashed onto my voice.

" you have me?" he said, he shifted his weight onto his right leg.

" yeah right," I said, scarce evident in my voice.

" we can watch a movie, what do you say about fifty shades" his brows inclined. I watched as Lizzy's eyes twinkled. that movie didn't meet her age group. She had always been curious and once caught her watching porn. Her curiosity was going to get her into trouble one of these days.

" No!” I said.

" she is a pussy" Terry said.

" watch your tongue " I lashed out to him.

I watched as Mark bent to my left ear.

" scared that maybe you will get wet and then you won't have anyone to scratch that inch in between your legs?" I froze, I had not that far. His lips look golden, lips of a person who does not swear, lips of a god yet filth emit from his lips. he is older than me, more civil than l.

" you got it all wrong," I said as I pinched his hand that had reached my arm.

" I don't like being touched" I hissed.

" Sorry," he said but I knew he was not sorry, people like him did not say sorry and mean it. people like him made women the object of sex salivary. they did not see them as something more than that. they took pride in their wealth and sex, oh how they love sex. They go as far as worshiping sex.

" sure," I said as I shrugged him away from me.

" I am going inside, call me when mom gets back," I said. I stood up and headed towards the house.

I sighed as I set on the couch.

" Ivy, can we talk?" I looked at the door where Mark was standing. All I just wished for is for him to vanish. He could have gone with mother and grandmother. Why was he here anyways?

" About?" I said. he walked towards me, his muscles flexing. thank the Almighty he had decided to cover himself with a towel but still, it hang lower than expected his v shape defined and promoted if ever there a such a thing.

" last night, look I know I might have traumatized you _" I held my hand up

" traumatized is a mare noun to what I went through when I saw you fucking that girl, your dick," I closed my eyes as my hands flew to my face. I just wish for those images to disappear from my mind, maybe electrical shocks would help. I just need a way to get into a mental hospital first.

" It was not right to see you in that state you are my uncle. " I said slowly.

" I know and I am sorry OK, I thought you teenagers knew about all these things, that is why I took you yesterday " he looked at me, his eyes undressing me.

" your thoughts and action were noble, it went south and if I knew how to unseen it I would.” I said slowly letting out a breath I did not know I was holding.

" I know and I am sorry, but then... never mind" I looked at him.

" then tell Ivy, which sex positions do you like, maybe we can start there to lessen the trauma " I nodded my head. I felt out of place. Had not thought of that, I had not thought of sex or what comes with it.

Would it kill me to learn more from and learn something about myself?

" missionary I guess," he looked convinced

" what would you say to sucking a dick or a pussy?" he looked at me.

"disgusting " he laughed.

“I had the same thought when I way your age.” He smiled to himself

" we will see how disgusting it is then," he said as he stood up and disappeared through the hallway. I stared at him for a while. He had a weird way of starting and ending a conversation.