DJ
With Danny asleep in the next room, and the rest of our families enjoying the bonfire outside, I took the opportunity to get her to open up.
“Talk to me Dove,” my hands easily found her curves and I ran my fingers in slow soft circles on her hips. The movement always seemed to calm her. “You’ve been worried all night.”
“Not worried, just considering things,” she admitted stepping away and looking at the ocean. “Do you ever have those all or nothing moments in your life?” She looked at the water.
“Like a crossroad moment when you know everything is about to change. No matter what you do the knowledge is there. No matter how much you feel like you should hold back......... You can’t help, but want to take a risk.”
“I need a little more than that,” I moved to her leaning on the balcony. “Are we talking personal or business?”
“My business is personal, is all about and for my family.” She turned to
DJWith Danny asleep in the next room, and the rest of our families enjoying the bonfire outside, I took the opportunity to get her to open up.“Talk to me Dove,” my hands easily found her curves and I ran my fingers in slow soft circles on her hips. The movement always seemed to calm her. “You’ve been worried all night.”“Not worried, just considering things,” she admitted stepping away and looking at the ocean. “Do you ever have those all or nothing moments in your life?” She looked at the water.“Like a crossroad moment when you know everything is about to change. No matter what you do the knowledge is there. No matter how much you feel like you should hold back......... You can’t help, but want to take a risk.”“I need a little more than that,” I moved to her leaning on the balcony. “Are we talking personal or business?”“My business is personal, is all about and for my family.” She turned to
DJThe moment her hand left mine I knew our time was over. I knew that it was back to the real world and it crushed my chest. I still had two days left, before I had to go back and face the shambles of my life, and she was here just starting hers.The way she looked at him melted and hung on to him. She loved that boy more than life and more than breath. Penny had never looked at our daughter like that. I knew but dame really seeing the difference ripped my fucking heart out.I wanted to hold my own baby girl in that moment to remind her how loved she was. I could see the similar features between Danny and his brothers. They were no doubt country with the twang, but they were family.I saw her dreams on that tablet, and I was blown away. The fact that she looked at that mess and saw what she did was incredible. She was bluffing at 2 million. She could sell this place and be set for life. I didn’t really get it
EllieAfter our slip I was too ….. everything to go there in my head again.As ill-advised as it was, it got most of the nerves and jitters out of my system, leaving me too whooped to give to my usual anxious idiosyncrasies.I was able to take my time. Show them the area, proving as much to DJ as to myself I’d made a good decision.Danny’s school, the parks and shopping. There weren’t many chain stores or recognizable brands. It was authentic and local. They asked to see the main house first, and I agreed.Even if I hadn’t touched it yet, I did have several plans which I’d sketched out years back. The plan for this to be a bed and breakfast still made the most sense. A family oriented resort, rather than all the other competitors in the local area comparing with and catering to nudie land.As we worked our way back around to the entry, I noted the logo of the guy I’d b
DJRegardless of what we said and what I told myself, I had every intention of waking her up in one of the various positions that played out in my head through the night. As much as we’ve tried in the past week, I’d only really scratched the surface of what it could actually be.What I imagined we could have as I let our lives play out in the hours I held her.It’s the first time in a long time I let myself indulge in pure fantasy. Daydreams that pushed aside the fact that we live in different states. That I have a company that demands damn near constant attention getting it off the ground.Not to mention I’ll likely be in and out of court for the next few months.I fast tracked the whole process, getting her to move in with me. Our kids getting along swimmingly and how we’d spend our nights and weekends. It was purely selfish on my part. Just my way of finding closure for the life we’d never have.
DJMan I’m a dick.I made it all of two minutes up the road before turning around and following her to her new place.I needed time to calm down, to think. Even more so seeing the absolute hovel she’d bought lost in some bog. The area is amazing, one of the ones I advised Ellie to look at on the few outings we actually had for her work.A hidden gem with as many local resources as tourist type situations.I don’t know this area as well as others, and more than aware that I ignored her limits. Pushed right past the red lines she’d been drawing, and her snapping this morning was a direct result of it.My persuasion to keep the fantasy another couple of days may have worked in the moment, but as heavy metal blares with the echoes of Ellie’s vehement cursing, I know it’s not going to be as easy or simple as the lunch I’m planning.Biding my time while she works through her emotions and I get my
EllieI walk to my car rather than his, arms still crossed and emotions rampant considering the bag is plus a water I didn’t grab and missing the just in case purchase I did.It’s the first time I know for a fact I don’t like the order and or dictation I’ve been swooning over the past few days, and I instantly rail against it.“Let’s talk,” he’s being calm. Reasonable. Confident as usual, but I guess it’s all catching up with the blood flow back in my brain rather than between my legs.“That’s what friends do. Couples or people in relationships,” I snap again, fighting the urge to cry for whatever reason. “You’ve made it clear this is just sex, and there is no point of arguing or discussing anything if physical is all it is.”To me, it’s harsh but logical and everything I said the previous morning comes back in its full ugly tangent. In the heat of the moment last night I did say I was his. No one has ever made my bod