Chapter 6

Chapter 6

I don't think there could have been anything worse than what I saw after the door opened.

My eyes were torn.  Both hands and feet were numb.  Heart was sitting. My throat had dried completely.And I was just standing and watching this scene.because I can't believe my eyes.......how is this possible..........!

Bella! my sister, Reeyaan my future husband! Both of them are getting intimate. In front of me The two were in each other's arms as if they did not mean anything to the rest of the world.After seeing everything, I was feeling disgusted with myself .

My mind was numb.so  I couldn't understand what to say, how to react, what should I ask ...

And how do I answer? When they asked me something! And  at that moment I was just trying to convince myself that yes, both these people have cheated on me.Words are not spit out of my mouth.

Seeing me standing at the door, Reeyaan got away from  bella. And trying to explain to me.

Look Roose ..!Look .... I'm about to tell you...saying this Reeyaan tried to come near and  talk to me ..!...

What do you explain to me , Reeyaan...! What are you trying to say? I glared at him..to  shrink my eyes.

 you know how much I waited for you standing at the gate of that college.What did people say to me, you know?

"How would you know? because you are busy ! You are busy with my sister, You are  sleeping here with her? Right?" I asked him to shake his shoulder aggressively .

"I think now You tell me That you don't love me,  you love my younger sister? Something like this! hua?" I put eyes in his eyes and asked?

"No-No! I correct myself you are not love her, You just used her .......am I right? ...am I right you bloody racale! I'm questioning you give me an answer damn it!" I glared at him.

You know how young she is right now. You know Reeyaan!...She's just 16 years old. How can you do this with her?

This is crime ....Reeyaan ....you are a monster. who sexually abuse her!

"You don't love me You can simply say that to me,  I do not mind at all. I just don't mind. But you! You do this! You turned out to be a coward. How can you do this with my sister? She is a little girl and You know that her  responsibility  is on my shoulders. I can't see anything bad happening to her. Still you did that! She is just like your younger sister….You! monster!" I shouted and asked him to please answer me for God's sake. 

"Why.! ...why ..you do this? You liar! ..you busterd!" I shrugged his shoulders and asked, "You did not find anyone else in the whole world who fulfill your dirty desires but no you took advantage of our helplessness in this way. You too turned out like the others! Even wort! I thought you are our well wisher! Our protector! But I was wrong.

"Get out of my house! get away from my eyes! Get out!" I screamed loudly!

Right now I don't want to see your bloody face...I said to Reeyaan angrily

"Listen to me Roose! I can explained to you" Reeyaan said and  trying to hold my hand

"What you explained?" I snapped at him and glared.

"You explained now when you did all this ..Look I don't want to listen to anything right now you just leave ....Before that I do something.  You go away from here! and Do not even try to come to me...Just leave!" I shouted angrily.

In between Bella interrupts me and says  "Roose listens to me" ..And I glared at her and said stop bella! You also just shut up! And  just Go to your room  I will talk to you in the morning"

At that moment I only try to hold my tears and pretend I'm not broken .

"Both of you leave me alone! go!" I shouted angrily again.

Looking at me this way, both of them left

Now, I just sat on the floor  and cried....I was crying so loud, I was cursing myself. I was completely broken! I don't think there could have been any more deception for me then those two people hurt me. Whom I loved most, I trust most in this world .

First time I tried to convince myself that it is not real ..but this was only false hope! ... ..I was shattered inside completely that was too heartbroken for me

I didn't even care what happened in college eve.but how I forget this  ....how can I manage...all this mashup. 

"Mom I want you !..please come back !..I'm so lonely..mom why you leave me why" ..I just cried and questioned loudly.

I'm cursing myself that I did not fulfill my responsibility. Forgive me mom, I could not take care of your precious daughter....please forgive me …...

"I spent the whole night just crying,and cursing myself" .

Next morning. 

I Just wash my face in the morning, and went to my part time job. I didn't say anything to anyone. I want some time ...Before talking to anyone, I wanted to calm down myself. I didn't want anyone to hurt because of my harsh tone ....

"And in the same way a few days have passed".

I did not even talk to Ria and Jack. They are together now, I did not want to cause any trouble in their happiness just because of me ....so I just creat a difference between us.

And finally that day also comes.Which I was eagerly waiting for. Joining letter for my job!

I have to join next week.....

After time passed  I felt I was a little stable so I went to Bella to talk to her.

After mother's passing, there was very little talk between me and Bella because I did not get free time from my part time jobs. So that I can not sit with her for some time and talk to her about her problems. I had left her alone because of my work, and I was not paying any attention at all. I didn't even know this What is going on in her life, how sad she was.Whatever he and Reeyaan did was somewhere my fault .....I made my mind before entering Bella's Room!

Bella...Are you free? can we talk? After seeing me two three second she replied.

"Yeah if you want, then welcome! Bella said in her  rude tone.…

"Listen to her! I just calm myself, took a deep breath and said Look Bella! First of all, I want to ask you this. you want to say something to me. Anything! anything, if you want to tell me, then you can just tell me freely. I'm not mind at all .......I know it's my fault that I left you alone".

"You like Reeyaan, I used to think that somewhere, but the matter will go so far. I can't believe it

"You hooked up with him ..this is too far And I think you also know that ..."As your elder sister, I would like to tell you that Reeyaan is not as good as you think so please just be aware of whatever you do with him" I think you should give some time to your relationship. And you try to avoid your physical relationship....I think you understand  what I'm trying to say ...Look please safe!... you are too yung! and sex!"

"Ohh!....please Roose! ..Don't teach me like that I'm a small girl .....look I'm complete my 17 in next month....so please!...You don't give me a lecture Roose and dont try to become my mom! Because you're not! When you were, where I needed you most? Huh? After mother and father leave us you also leave you crate a boundary between you and me! and I was completely alone! Alone! Do you ever try to know that what is happening in my life? You were not worried about me! You were busy with your job and college that's why you have not enough time to recall our past memories but what about me? How can I forgot? Everytime when I was alone I feel I'm going to depression. Every little thing! Every little thing reminded me of my mother. I was feeling so lonely that I just felt like ending myself. I could not say anything to anyone. Then he came close to me. He heard my sorrow pain. He gave me the love that had disappeared from my life, so please stop your nonsense now. I Don't wanna listen to you, because it's too late now! So please Go away from here!" Beela asked and I clearly see anger in her eyes .

"I just love Reeyaan, I don't want you! I only want him .you just  listen what I'm saying ..I do not want anything from you. So Keep your knowledge with you and go from here!