2. NEW IDENTITY

I will remember and recover, not forgive and forget…

“ ...five months ago, you got in an accident. You jumped in front of my car out of nowhere and almost lost your life but I rushed you to the hospital just in time. The doctors fought for your life that night" he explained and let out a soft chuckle, unknowingly answering my unasked question and shoved his hand inside one of his coat's front pockets to pull out a card. At the mention of the accident, my hands unconsciously wrapped around my stomach to feel a bump ...my baby bump but they were met with nothing. My stomach was flatter than that of the girls you always see in sportswear going to the gym.

"My baby??" I croaked, my lips trembling as everything that happened that one ominous night came crashing down on my still buzzing head all at once. I heard the doctor let out a sad sigh and felt a hand on my shoulder a second later.

“We couldn't save your baby, I'm sorry" he said, gently squeezing it in an attempt to comfort me but instead a sob left my lips at his words. They felt like needles piercing into my heart one at a time to really inflict the pain, slowly too so it lasts. Closing my eyes, I let the tears fall down my cheeks as images of my family's worried faces clouded my mind, all their warnings that I kept ignoring ringing loudly in my ears. It was all my fault, I was the real culprit not HIM. I did this to me, to them, to us.

The room grew stuffy all of a sudden, I couldn't breathe properly anymore nor could I see what was in front of me "Angela..." a distant worried voice called out to me and a second later something cold touched my face, faintly tapping on my cheek but I couldn't tell which one.

“Angela breathe" the distant voice said, somehow still managing to make its way through the loud ringing in my ears. I tried to do as it said and get back control of my body but it was too late. I was already losing consciousness from lack of oxygen. I opened my eyes only for a second and saw blurry figures rushing around me before something was put on my face covering both my mouth and nose forcing air into my lungs and I was able to breathe again. I took in a couple of deep breaths to calm down before slowly opening my eyes and turned my head toward the doctor just as he got an injection from one of the nurses.

"This will help you sleep" he said, injecting the unknown medicine into my drip line before giving back the now empty syringe to the nurse and looked down at me "...go to sleep" he added, gently stroking my head. My eyes drooped close and I gladly welcomed the darkness ready to escape my gruesome reality.

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Waking up again, I groaned and massaged my eyelids with the pads of my fingertips trying to ease the drowsy feeling before carefully getting up and slowly made my way to the floor to ceiling window to get a view of this unfamiliar place but instead got caught up in what i saw looking back at me on the tinted window. My brows furrowed together in confusion as I looked more carefully at my reflection walking even closer to the reflective glass, my once beautiful face was now covered in ...bandages?? Slowly moving my hands up to my face, I gently ran my fingers over the white bandages in search of any pain with imaginary question marks circling my mind as I wondered what could've happened to it all the while hoping for the best.

"AHEM!!" Someone cleared their throat from behind me, I jumped startled by the sudden presence of another person in the room and quickly moved my hands away from my face. Slowly turning around, my lips stretched into a polite smile when I saw Dr Sanchez standing not far from me.

"Hello," I said, waving my hand awkwardly at him before turning back to the big window. I heard him let out a soft chuckle before walking over to stand next to me.

"The view is beautiful, isn't it??" I hummed in response, nodding my head in agreement and continuing my observation. The view was breathtaking, the dense trees went perfectly with the rainy weather making it look out of this world.

"I got this for you.." he suddenly said, forcing my attention away from the beautiful scenery and turning to him. I immediately frowned when I saw him holding out a food take-out bag. I looked up at his face for an explanation, why was he so nice to me?? Was he like this with all his other patients?? 

" ...the nurses informed me that you refused to eat" he said, nodding at the tray of food still on my bed ...untouched.

I shrugged and grumbled "the food is dull here" causing him to let out a soft chuckle but nodded agreeing with me.

"Well lucky for you, you won't have to eat them" he said and again held out the brown paper bag to me. Looking at the food, I wanted to say no but also didn't want to come off as ungrateful so I sighed and took it instead and walked back to the single bed. Jumping onto it I crisscrossed my legs and opened the bag, looked inside and took out the chicken mayonnaise sandwich along with the orange juice and started eating. The food was healthy compared to what I was used to eating but better than the hospital food nonetheless.

"My dear.." I looked up when the doctor started, he dragged the only chair in the room closer to the bed and sat down before looking me straight in the eyes and said 

"...there's something you need to know”