Chapter 8

\"What?\" replied Jess surprise, \"Are you serious? May!\" scolded me.

\"That’s not true!\" I defended myself.

\"Oh but please, you may be a mature woman and a mother, but I know when a smile says I want your tongue in my mouth.\" Lucas replied lying next to Jess.

I opened my mouth again, but I did not replicate it.

From the moment I saw Nate again, all I could think about was having his tongue back in my mouth, and in other parts of my body. God, what was wrong with me?

He was so cool, he was so tall, and he had that damn smile that really pushed me to rip my clothes off and beg him to take me in front of everyone.

And he came there, next to me. He started talking to me, with his damn blue eyes, that screaming body of his that I longed to touch without any clothes. Then he picked up Axel in his arms and at that moment I felt my legs crumble.

How stupid could I be?

The man broke my heart, took it, and threw off a 30-story building without worrying about what I might feel or think, and yet I was back there, drooling like an idiot on him.

Imagining him lying in a bed, completely naked, imagining him above me, inside me.

How long has it been since I had sex? Too long now. Abstinence began to be felt.

Those damn black hair that made me want to pass my fingers in the middle, those blue eyes that caressed your body and I wondered what it would be like if together with the eyes were also his hands.

\"Look at her! She doesn’t fight back!\" Jess said exasperated.

\"Oh stop it, I certainly don’t want Nate’s tongue in my mouth again.\" I said shaking off those unkind thoughts that crowded my head.

\"Again?!\" asked Lucas and Jess together.

Fuck. I punched myself in the face mentally. I’m an idiot.

\"Maya, when did you have my brother’s tongue in your mouth?\" Jess asked with a scary tone in her voice.

\"Lucky bitch!\" Lucas said at the same time.

\"Did you bang my brother? Is that why you disappeared overnight? Because you fucked Nate?!\" Jess almost screamed.

\"God Jess! Keep quiet! Axel fell asleep!\" I said pointing at my baby who was sleeping calmly on the blankets.

\"Don’t lie to me, Sheppar, I could really kill you this time.\" Jess said.

I was terrified to look at her grim face as she stood, which I also did by adding a step back, at least I needed to stay away from her.

\"Did you fuck him? Is he good?\" euphoric Lucas asked.

\"Tell me you didn’t abandon your best friend because of my asshole brother, tell me you didn’t.\" Jess said with a hurt tone.

\"God Jess no! It wasn’t for him! You were far away, I had to move, and I had no more time for anything!\" I defended myself, \"And no, I didn’t have sex with him!\" I looked back at Lucas.

\"So what?\" Jess crossed her arms to the chest and began to tap her foot wrapped in a beautiful heel sandal, on the ground. I almost forgot how terrifying that girl was.

\"Okay okay, calm down.\" I took a deep breath, \"Remember the party after graduation?\"

\"Jess and Andrew were about to fuck in the hot tub, it was a chilling spectacle.\" Lucas laughed.

\"Not something I intend to see or hear again, I still remember the sound of Jess when she was about to come,\" I said shivering.

Jess raised her eyebrows, not offended by it at all, her eyes just said Keep going.

\"Well, when you went to the room with Andrew I went up to the bathroom, on the way down I bumped into your brother. I was drunk, I was going to throw up, so he drove me to your father’s study to recover, and there, well I got a little pulled over.\" I said, shrugging myself in the shoulders.

\"And you threw yourself at him as if you were an animal in his heat.\" Lucas added, nodding and very serious.

Jess shuddered, \" And he rejected you.\" she closed her eyes.

\"Oh no.\" I said without checking myself.

Lucas opened his mouth and Jess squinted his eyes in surprise.

\"Let’s just say we’ve been rubbing for a while on the couch and no, I won’t tell you the details of what we did,\" I said as Lucas opened his mouth to ask.

\"You just said you didn’t sleep with him.\" stern Jess said.

\" And that’s it! When we were going to... well, you know, I asked him for a condom, and he went to his room to get it. Not seeing him come back I went to look for him and I found him on the stairs flirting with another. I turned around and went home. End of story.\" I said in one breath.

\"What did he do?!\" cried Jess, so loud that she woke Axel he immediately began to cry in despair.

\"You’re a witch.\" Lucas said, taking the baby before I even got close.

But Axel wasn’t interested in Lucas, he was screaming and wiggling around, and when he saw me, he reached out to me, demanding my attention on him. So, I approached him, and I picked him up. He immediately snuggled up on my chest and calmed down as that crazy-ass Jess started going up and down in the room.

\"He’s an idiot. That boy is an idiot. He has no brain; he thinks only with his dick. He had you, ready and definitely horny under him, and he started to fuck someone else. I don’t know. Maybe we’re not brothers, maybe he was adopted.\" she said, passing her hands through her blond hair.

\"Isn’t she the same one who just told you not to open your legs for him?\" Lucas whispered in my ear.

\"Have her personalities increased?\" I asked very seriously.

\"Oh shut up!\" Jess replied, stopping in the middle of the room, \"Don’t you dare to open your legs for him.\" she said to me, \" and you, don’t you dare suggest it to her or tempt her to do it.\" she said this time to Lucas who shrugged in his shoulders.

\"Why?! She’s a super sexy hottie and if a super hot guy like him wants to bang her I would say hey you have all my support baby!\" said Lucas almost exasperated.

I looked at him with an open mouth, shock could be read on my face.

\"No, no, no, and NO!\" insisted Jess, \"May May, you’re so sexy that even I would sleep with you but don’t you dare approach Nate. I’m telling you, he’s not the kind of guy you could use\".

\"You speak as if I had lowered my briefs and asked you to take me immediately! I have a son! He has only a few months, and the last thing I need right now is to walk around and bang the first one I get!\"

\"Bravo!\" Jess said, approaching me and taking me by the face, looking straight into the pupils with her emerald, green eyes, \"You don’t need men!\" cheerful.

\"But she needs sex,\" Lucas replied, \"How long has it been since you’ve been properly banged?\"

\"God, Lucas, you’re an animal.\" Jess said, getting away from me and sitting on the bed.

\"More or less since I conceived Axel,\" I thoughtfully said.

\"It’s almost a year ago!\" cried Jess.

\"It’s not easy to think of someone to have sex with when a person grows inside you.\" I said, rolling my eyes.

\"How did you do with the hormones? I know that pregnant women are perpetually horny.\" replied Lucas doubtful.

\"Alone.\" I answered, shrugging my shoulders.

\"Did you spend your entire pregnancy masturbating?!\" cried Jess.

\"God, Jess, can’t you shut up?\" I scolded her.

\"You need sex Sheppar, good old sex.\" said Lucas.

\"But not with my brother.\" Jess replied by clapping.

I sat on the bed and covered my face with my hands, close to despair more than ever.