Grace- I opened my eyes, the chains around my hands were gone as if they finally believed I gave up and escaping is not an option. Like I have adapted to this world, to the hungry monsters who come and assault me every night. I don’t know what sun feels like, what apricity is or what the outside world looks like now. After three years of captivity, I thought I could breathe but the walls were coming at me. This room,this very room, the room with torments…my lips quivered from fear and I felt my hands shaking. My mind is eating me up alive, my bones are shaking to break, and I can’t feel my lungs rising and falling. As if I'm standing motionless, paralyzed at my place. Even though I had a chance I wouldn’t grab it, although my heart is screaming to go out. Where will I go? What will I do? I can’t move, my body doesn’t wanna move, it’s stiff, it's broke. The scars on my body everywhere except my face. My face is what they loved. My body is what they used. I saw the window, th
Grace- “Is i---it okay if I do this?” He grabbed the hem of my t-shirt, his t-shirt that I was wearing. “What?” I drawled, having no idea what he’s saying. His grip tight on the cloth hanging around my neck, he panted before tearing it apart. I gasped at his audacity. “This…” That devilish smirk on his face, those evil thoughts going on in his mind. I don’t know where they came from but I was enjoying it, every bit of it. A giggle escaped from my mouth, because I thought he’d be forever gentle with me, I don’t want him to be gentle, I want him to give me what I haven't got since forever. It’s a given that having a shitty past, I might want gentle sex, no, I don’t want it, and I was glad he understood it, without me having to say it. But I want him to be rough because I know he’s not them. I want him to make me scream, with pleasure as I dig my nails inside his skin. I'm not a masochist but I don’t want ‘lilies and fairies’ type of sex. I don’t want petals on my bed, I want our
Grace- I panicked, my breathing went shallow and I could see nothing but red. “H---hey, Grace…” I heard his muffled voice; I ran around gasping for air, looking for something, it’s gone, my only driving force is gone. “I need you to calm down…” He grabbed my hand, forcing me to look at him. His eyes, they don’t seek answers, they seek peace, for me. “I have that diary with me.” I froze, should I be happy it’s here, or drown in water because it’s here with him. “What?”“The Stefan’s high one, right?” I nodded at his words. I followed his breath to even mine, he was calming me down without even knowing it,he calmed me down. “D---did you open it?” I managed to ask him. “I’ve read it before but this time I didn’t because you told me what’s in it already. Plus, it is person---” I didn’t let him complete his sentence and locked his lips with me. This is for giving me the only thing I have never got, privacy. Not touching something that’s mine, without my will. “Whoa… love birds…” I
Grace- Everything changed after Aiden entered, he brought all my clothes, but I have a feeling we won’t be staying here for long. I was putting my clothes together and then I realized that $50,000 I earned are resting at Levi’s manor. They could’ve helped me so much but, I had a lot of time to put my things together, but I… “Hey… can I come in?” I heard a knock on my door, I saw Phoenix walking inside. “I figured you might be needing it…” He extended his arm to give me my diary, I gasped as I haven’t seen it for so long. He looked around and sat on the bed. “So, who was your first love?” He questioned, trust me you don’t want to know. If I could erase that memory, him from my life I would. I remained silent and sat next to him, “So, you won’t tell?” His head dropped between his shoulders and I felt him sigh. “There was… this guy, I was in love with.” I took a long pause and his body flinched. “Uh… but then things happened and we broke up.” It was barely a lie, because it did ha
Grace- “What are you writing?” I flinched on the voice, like someone was talking to me, someone I have never seen before. Someone, who is a boy, I looked up to see the blonde man walking in my direction. Man, because he seemed older than me. But I could see he was from my school, he has this ‘Stefan’s high,’ written the pocket of his white shirt. He sat down beside me, without asking for my permission, without thinking that he’s invading my privacy. “I'm Archie…” I know this, I’ve heard this name before. But I was least interested to know more. Because Archie Crimson is the son of Marcus Crimson, and my dad works under his dad. “Oh! I---I’m sorry, I thought you could speak…” He held his ear as if was saying sorry, I don’t know what he was doing with his hands but it seemed like a sign language. “I have selective speaking…” I closed my diary, and got up. His brown eyes went wide probably because he thought I can’t speak but surprise, I do. “What’s that?” He got up as well, I fel
Grace- “Why would you make a fake phone call, that too in his name?” Phoenix yelled at Aiden and grabbed my hand, all of us planning to leave. “Don’t you know him? Don’t you know who he is?” It felt like Phoenix’s world is drifting apart, it’s crushing into pieces because of me. “Take Grey with you, hide somewhere safe and don’t come out…” He exclaimed looking at Aiden. I couldn’t process how unreasonable he was being. “I won’t leave my brother, Phoenix!!” I argue, I would never do this. “You don’t get it, Levi is looking for you, he won’t come after Grey, we have to ensure his safety first…” Phoenix completed. “M---my diary!!” I shriek as he locks the door, all four of us looking at nowhere because we have no destination. “Don’t worry, I have it with me…” He gripped my hand firmly. I look at Grey, my eyes wanting to tear up. I thought I was giving him a safe world but I find myself running again. His life is getting so much affected by me, I'm ruining it. “Grey… baby! Come h
Grace- “Leave me… leave me alone!” I shriek, the pain of watching Phoenix, fall around his own blood, it is not going away. “I said leave me…” I'm so glad we sent Grey away, because Archie is a true monster, he would’ve… No, no, no, I was better off running from Levi, I didn’t think Archie was looking for me. I wish he wasn’t and it is tearing me apart. How is Phoenix, I j---just want to see him once. Please let me see him, please I beg of you. Take me to him, I’ll die, I'm dying. I couldn’t stop my tears, “Don’t cry for another man…” He wiped them off, and every time I was crying, he was there to wipe them away. But I don’t need it, I don’t need a hand who just shot my sun, my life, my happiness. “Let. Me. Go…” I cry because apparently this is only thing I can do. “I saw you missing from that room, Grace… you weren’t there…” His eyes were burning with fury, if he kills me right now, I won’t be shocked. I look around, another huge mansion which will ruin my life. The white wall
Grace- “Oh my god! I'm so so---sorry, my love!” I heard him gasp; his gasp was all I could hear. Everything went blur and for a while I felt really good. Because this way, Phoenix wasn’t the only one who shed blood, and the moment Phoenix’s thought stroke my head, I panicked. How is he, where is he, because of me, all because of me. Because I gave myself away with this pain, other emotions came back rushing in. Emotions like sadness, like severe damage and the only ultimatum left was to kill Archie and rush outside. I am cursed, I am a curse that turns everything into ashes with only one gaze, I wish this curse worked on Archie and Levi, I wish I could turn them into ashes as well. But it doesn’t work on monsters, it works on people with a heart, people with kindness because I ruin kindness, I ruin lives, just like I ruined my own. I forever hide behind this mask ‘life never gave me an option’, yes it didn’t but I didn’t do anything to find it as well. I considered that hell as