NOEL
"So then what?"
Reign asks, quirking his brow.
"So ‘then what’ what? The ‘Reign Alister’ is listening to my complaints?”
I retort as I keep my eyes on our surroundings. We are in the quad, walking to the fashion department, and because my now-viral post has mixed reviews, I need to watch where I walk.
Why the hell does homophobia come in popular packages?
The first sign that I screwed up was the girl who threw smelly cheese on my coat as soon as I left the dorm area—I had to change to my cheap outfit. All my outfits are thrifted and cheap, so I guess the correct term is ‘cheaper’ outfit.
“Talk to me, Noel; what happened after?”
Huh, it's unlike Reign to listen to what I have to say if I have no intention of taking my clothes off in the next few seconds.
“We lived happily ever after. What do you think happened? I told him the queer community has my back, basically bluffed through it, but I mean, if I post enough thirst traps, I’m sure I can hook some loyal followers, or minions, depending on how they like my poses.”
“Stay on the story, Noel.”
“Right. Anyway, I hopped into bed aaaand woke up outside our room. That bastard literally carried me out of our shared room when I was sleeping, with my mattress, by the way, and left me in our living room."
"Whoa... you didn’t feel it?”
Reign asks.
“I drank too much, I guess.”
“Noel, it doesn’t matter who in the community you have to take your case; his family isn't one to trifle with. So, you might want to back out on this.”
"Back out? He called me a f-”
The word refuses to come out of my mouth fully.
“Just back out of this, Noel; it's not worth it. Look, I still have space in my condo-”
"I'll put glitter in his pillow."
"What?"
"Imagine that? That macho bastard sporting pink glitter in his hair. Hah! Fuck, I have to go to the supply store; save me a seat in class."
I say hastily as the idea forms fully in my mind.
“Noel, are you insane?"
"Maybe, I don't know, but you know me, Reign, I'm a petty bitch."
"There is a time and place for this!"
His hand grips mine tightly when I move further away from him.
"I'll be fine. The next lesson is in shit, thirty minutes! I have to go."
"Noel!"
Reign yells when I finally detach my hand from him and bolt in the opposite direction with the campus supply store in my mind.
**
"That's...expensive."
I frown as I hand the student cashier the pink glitter tube I picked out.
"Then head into town."
She answers with a deadpan look as she scans the item.
"I can't; I have class."
"I'm sure."
She answers with a smile as she stretches her hand for me to pay her.
"I follow you on Tweety, by the way."
"Then give me a discount. "
"Mmm, maybe if you work on campus like the rest of us scholarship students."
"Is that your way of asking me to cover your shift?"
I ask with a frown.
"You know it."
"Social media is a job. Don’t look down on it."
I defend, and she rolls her eyes.
"No, it has to be a debilitating job, something soul-crushing."
I slide the full amount in cash and grumble under my breath.
"I hate you."
"Mmmm...too bad. I wish you well with your ‘Beau’ drama; keep me updated, and hopefully, your missing poster doesn’t surface in about a month."
She says in a sing-song manner, then looks beyond me.
"Next!"
“Wait, what?”
Did she just say, ‘missing poster’?
“I said ‘next’.”
She says again, very rudely, might I add. When I don’t move, the person behind me pushes me aside.
One day, I will definitely go through my life’s drama privately just to punish my petty fans.
I have less than ten minutes to the class…
I can make a quick trip to the dorm and glitter bomb his pillow or head straight to class and wait for the next best chance.
It doesn't take me long to make a decision.
**
Beaumont’s side of the room is spotless, neat… annoyingly perfect, while mine looks like a disaster, not just because my mattress is upside down with the sheets everywhere due to some asshole tossing me out in the morning, but also because when cheese hit my outfit, I sort of panicked.
If I were a more responsible person, I would take this time to spread my bed again; instead, my eyes move to Beaumont’s bed.
“You crazy high-functioning psychopath."
I mutter before popping the lid of the glitter tube, opening his pillowcase and pouring the glitter. It falls beautifully like dark pink rain. I only stop when the tube is empty and fluff the pillow before returning it in its place.
The door creaks, causing me to freeze in my spot.
What the hell? No… oh shit! Oh fuck! No way; everyone is supposed to be in class now.
Maybe it's Reign; maybe he followed me.
Twisting my neck towards the door confirms my fears.
Beaumont’s face, dead calm, watching where my hands are—right above his pillow.
“What the fuck are you doing?”
He asks in a voice so low and slow that I feel my blood chill in my veins.
"D-dusting, obviously. You’re welcome."
Fuck, even my voice is trembling.
His gaze rakes the tube in my hand, then my side of the bed.
Dusting when my space is a mess sounds dumb even to me.
He strides forward slowly, like a prison warden who determined the perfect inmate for solitary confinement.
“My pillow?”
“It needed it.”
I answer, swallowing.
“You think this is funny?”
“I think carrying someone out of their own room while they're unconscious is barbaric. I also think Louis Vuitton is overrated, but that’s just me; I’m a deep thinker.”
A cold, heartless smile stretches against his face.
"I warned you, didn’t I?"
“Warned? No, what you did was threaten me. There is a difference."
Suddenly, Beaumont grabs my hand, squeezing my wrist so tightly that the empty tube of glitter falls from my grasp and falls to the floor.
The moment he lets go of his hold on me, I stumble backwards, almost losing my footing.
His boot-like shoes stomp on the tube, crushing it beneath him and causing the sound of plastic breaking to echo in the tense atmosphere.
"I am this close to losing it with you."
Beaumont says in a voice barely above a whisper.
"Oh no, and you are taking it out on glitter; how mature.”
His chest moves slightly when he fakes his laugh, but I don’t miss how his muscles tense as if he were holding himself back.
It's such a huge room; we could have shared this, couldn’t we?
He moves closer to me, close enough that his stupid cologne fills my lungs, causing me to almost roll my eyes.
My first sexual experience was with Reign. Reign’s body is okay; he can pick me up, and that’s cool, but the body—sorry, the homophobic body whose warmth is eating me up, can destroy me.
"You think this is a game?"
The low question whispered to me makes me shudder, and as if sensing my ill thoughts, his hand shoots out, slamming hard against the wall right next to my head.
My eyes fly open. The force of that could have given me a concussion.
“This is a threat.”
No response comes from my lips; I only blink stupidly as I watch him retreat.
“Don’t make me hurt you.”
He adds as he reaches the door.
“Even if I beg?”
At my answer, silence follows.
His green eyes darken for a fraction of a second as if he imagined something filthy, but it could be the lighting.
Having regained my wit, I take in a deep breath to still my fast-beating heart and walk back to his pillow.
The last time my heart beat like this, there was a maniac twice my size holding a weapon, screaming that he would beat the ‘gay’ out of me. I was too young- no, that’s just an excuse. Anyway, I’ll die before I cower before such a beast again.
My hand reaches for the pillow I doused in glitter and throw it to the bear-like man standing at the door, and like a volatile smoke bomb, glitter explodes at the moment of impact, covering his entire face and outfit in its shimmer.
For a moment, Beaumont is still, eyes locked in on the floating glitter.
‘Hopefully, your missing poster doesn’t surface in about a month.’
The words of the spiteful cashier float in my mind like a bad joke.
Huh… why the hell did I just think of that now?
The hand grabbing my arm is by no means gentle.“I can stand on my own.”I snap, trying to twist free, but of course, Beaumont’s hold doesn’t budge; he doesn’t even look at me, just drags me from the soft sand until finally the ground transitions to the pavement, and that, eventually, turns to the tarmac.A black Bentley waits, engine humming low, and a man in a suit and pristine white gloves stands holding the door open like this is some goddamn mob movie.Hah! Must be nice.“Get in.”Beaumont says as he half tosses my body in the direction of the open car.“Are you bragging?”Is he trying to show me how easily he can replace his car?“Get in before I really lose my patience, Noel.”His words are spoken through gritted teeth, reminding me of which end of this stick I am standing on.After a sigh that’s louder than necessary, I slide into the back seat.I wonder if he will be lenient with me if I cooperate.*For a while, the car drives in heavy silence. No music. No small talk. Just t
The new hairstyle looks good; it should, considering its cost.But money has never mattered to Reign.Money has never mattered to any of these people.Just to me.How many expulsions occur at St. Alderic? Perhaps seven or eight per year, none of them leave crying because they know they have a way into yet another Ivy League school, maybe this time their ‘second choice’.This was my first.The scholarship…it was a dream.This is my last year, the last one and yet…Is it even fair that a slap on their wrist is soul-crushing to me? But who the hell can I even blame at this point, my ego?"Hey, don’t make that face. It’s not that bad. I mean, yeah, he had to cut off a chunk of your hair just to even things out, but-"Reign begins as he spins my chair and waves the barber off as if to say, ‘aren't you done with your job?’.“Yeah, it's not bad.”He mutters to himself as he rearranges a few strands that have fallen on my forehead."It’s not the hair. I- yes, it’s shorter now, but thank you, w
I can feel my stomach eat itself, but even the familiar wave of low energy doesn’t alert me that my blood sugar is low.“Noel…?”“Hm?”I snap to Reign’s face, I don’t even know how I got here, in class.“Why do you have your suitcase here? Do we have a presentation?”“What? No.”My head turns to take in my surroundings. I could have sworn the room was empty, but everyone's gaze is on me, staring warily at my suitcase.“You are freaking out the class with the suitcase, hide it.”Reign says as he takes his jacket off and places it on my luggage, hiding it from plain sight.How… how did I even get here?“No, uh...”I pause to swallow the panic at the unanswered questions.It’s happened before, being spooked out of my mind, that I find my body working on autopilot, that is. The last time it happened; I found myself halfway across town at midnight in the town’s library that doubled as a queer hangout.“I need a new place to stay.”The partial lie comes off easily as I swallow the rising bi
One, two, three…I count my heartbeat like a chant, hoping that it would distract me from the heat coiling up my body, but despite my attempt at reason, my head moves towards Beaumont first, causing the static surrounding us to burst to life as electricity, the first flavour to fill my mouth, engulfs me the moment our lips touch.Yet, despite the delicious sensations flooding my nerves, his lips remain hard and unyielding, unwilling to react to me as if to tell me I imagined the tension.The only thing that gives him away is his breath; it’s definitely rougher… faster.Taking that as encouragement, I move my lips harsher against his as if to pry them open forcefully, but he still refuses to part them.Cold seeps into my veins at the blatant rejection.Oh God! Oh no, did I really hallucinate everything?How horrible would a straight person, correction, a homophobic straight person feel if some gay guy kissed them while they were beating the crap out of them?Ooohh....He’s going to hit
Bang!I slam the dorm door open so hard it rebounds off the stopper.My clothes—drenched and sticky. It did not rain today; it was a perfectly sunny day.My shirt—torn. Some girl yanked it off my frame while I was weaving through a crowd to make it down the hall for my next class; her apology, a rusted pin and ‘advice’: ‘Maybe a different store will have better stitching.’My body—bruised. The hallway suddenly became an obstacle course. I was tripped sixteen times in the span of three minutes; the last three ‘trips’ got me. My elbow hurts, my knee is scraped, and my forehead has a bump.But the worst! The straw that broke my freaking back!! I fell asleep in class, and some bitch, yes bitch, cut my hair with what appears to be safety scissors. The chunks are so uneven that it's impossible to pass it off as ‘on purpose’. Do they know how long I had to wait for my curls to form a decent hair style?“Jesus Christ. You look like you just crawled out of a sewer.”I glare at Beaumont, the cau
Run.That’s the only word to register in my mind when the raining glitter finally ceased and his green eyes locked with mine. Instantly, I turned to the window behind me, understanding there was no way he would let me pass him by the door.Scrambling down the fire escape was easy; everything was up to its prime state since it was a new building. Without looking back, from the moment my feet hit the gravel, I ran with all my might to my next class.**“No, the hell not.”Professor Armand says without even taking her eyes off her notes.“But-”“You do not enter my class after I have arrived.”Her dark brown eyes finally look up at me through the gap between her glasses.“Out. Mr Vale. Try again tomorrow.”She finalises before her eyes turn back to her notes, and she continues to teach as if I were not standing by the door sweating and panting my lungs out.She is also, unfortunately, the head of the fashion department, meaning I should be grateful she didn’t say ‘try again next week’.W