The ride up to Wicked Falls was nice and peaceful. It gave me much needed time to think. My parents did not bring up my mate at all. My brother must have asked them not to mention it which I'm grateful for. I didn't want to talk to them about it until later. I tried to put all my sadness behind me; I want to have fun today especially when we don't do this often only for special events like our birthday for example. My brother's mate Sky is very nice. She called her parents on the way to let them know she was coming with us. They were very excited for her finding her mate, I could hear the excitement in their voices from her phone.
I just stare out the window wondering what is in store for me with my mate, sad that he doesn't want me. I am sort of jealous of my brother, he will be able to have a life with his mate. All my mate wants to do is use me, I will have his heir, but I will not give my child to him. If he does not agree with that I will not agree to have his heir I will run and never look back. I know my family will follow, we could never be apart, we would follow each other to the ends of the world. We would fight to our deaths to protect one another, that's how strong our love is, no doubt in my mind.
As we pull up and park the car I fill up with excitement I can not wait to turn into my wolf and just be free even if it's only for a couple of hours. As everyone is getting out of the car getting ready for the run. My mom looks at me with sadness in her eyes. I know that she knows what happened and she wants to fix it, but she knows she can't. I can tell she wants to talk to me, so I wait back, so she can talk to me.
“Sweetheart, I'm sorry that things didn't turn out the way you wanted it to with your mate.”
“Thanks mom, but it's not your fault, and it can't be fixed, I just want to enjoy our run.”
“Ok Sweetheart, if you need to talk to me, you know I am always here to listen.”
“I know mom lets not worry about it, lets deal with it tomorrow, not ruin today.”
“Okay honey I love so much let's go and have a blast.”
“Yes let's have a blast. I have been waiting for this all day. I know it will make me feel better Mom you don't have to worry about me, I will be ok I don't need my mate.”
As we walk up to where everyone is at I smell my mate, I get so pissed that he must be around hoping he doesn't ruin my day. I just try my hardest not to react to his scent, I don't want my family to know he is here. I find a place to shift behind some bushes, I lay my clothes there so when we are finished, I have something to change back into. My wolf is so much different from most wolves for what reason I'm really not sure my wolf is all silver with white paws. I'm bigger than most wolves but smaller than an Alpha wolf but not too much smaller. My wolf is quite beautiful actually when we first saw my wolf my parents were surprised by its appearance but never seemed concerned. She hasn't spoken to me yet today with all happening she probably never will now. I will still hold hope just not too much today, I really can't take much more disappointment.
We began our run it is so beautiful here it is breathtaking as I'm running through the tall grass jumping over stumps and boulders I can't get enough we all run for hours through the forest loving every minute we took some breaks Sky was never here, so it was pretty intense for her, but I believe that she still enjoyed herself especially getting to know my brother. My parents left them running alone together, so she wouldn't hold us back because she was so slow.
I needed to relieve as much stress as possible. I needed to let loose. I wanted to run as fast as my wolf could go, and she just couldn't keep up with me, so I really wanted to leave her behind. I know that it sounds mean, but I just can't help it. It's not like I said it out loud, I was just thinking about it. When I finally made it to the top of the Wicked Falls, I let a howl of desperation out; it was so exhilarating. I saw another wolf in the shadows, I knew it was my mate, I could sense him. My parents came up to me, and he just faded away which I was happy I did not want them to meet him. I didn't want them to be able to put a face on the man who rejected me, even though eventually, they would just not today. We wait up there for a while which really seems like forever as it seems like it's growing darker and darker we decide to start heading back as it begins to rain.
I could tell that my parents were concerned about me, but they kept it to themselves. They didn't mind l**k me during the run, they just left me to deal with it myself which I appreciated so much. As it begins to rain harder and harder, we start running back, the rain is stinging our bodies due to it running so hard. It's starting to get hard to see, and we are soaked. We stop for a while hoping that the rain will die down a little, but it doesn't slow, it continues to rain. So, we decided to make a run for it, trying to get back to the car. It has never rained like this before when we have come up here not being here all that often it hard to run through here when you're blinded. My silver fur is brown covered in mud. Damn it I should have known that today just wasn't going to go the way it was supposed to go.
We finally get back to where we started, not sure where my clothes are since it's dark out now. As I'm searching for my clothes I can't find them. Damn it, I can't get in the car naked.
“Mom can you please help me find my clothes I don't want to have to ride home naked.”
“Of course I can help you sweetheart. I know that you put your clothes by a bush. I just don't know which one, and it's too dark to see. Let me see if dad has a flashlight.”
“Thanks so much mom I really appreciate your help.”
I stand there naked freezing my ass. I am looking for my clothes. I hear a voice “are you looking for these by any chance?” I look to see it's my mate. I'm surprised he is here. I then ask “why are you here?”
“I don't live far from here. I smelled you, so I began wondering why you were here, so I followed you.”
“Well thank you for helping me find my clothes, but you can go now.”
“I'm sorry that I don't want to be your mate.”
“You don't need to explain it to me, I really don't care just please leave me alone.”
As I am putting my clothes on he is watching my every move until my mother walks up to me, before he takes off.
“Oh good you found your clothes are you ready to go this rain is just getting worse.”
We all get into the car. The run was amazing feeling the wind blow through my fur is the most amazing feeling even though I'm covered in mud, but I don't mind. My brother and Sky never made it to the top they were spending their time making out once they were alone, so they never made it to the top of wicked falls. Well, that's just too bad for them, but there will always be next time now that Sky is a part of the family. I never really had a girlfriend hoping that Sky and I can become great friends. I don't want my brother and I to drift apart because he has a loving mate that wants to be with him. I know that my mom will help me to deal with all this mate stuff, I'm just so glad I have her. This rain is so bad it's becoming hard to see outside. I don't know how my dad can see to drive. My mom is starting to get worried about the rain I can tell she says. “Honey, don't you think we should pull over and let the rain calm down a little, it's becoming hard to see i
As I walk into my house, it's quiet. There is nobody else there but me. I feel so numb knowing that there will never be anyone else here but me. I go and pick out the clothes for my family to be buried in not knowing what would be perfect for them but just trying to remember what was their favorite clothes to wear. As I got into my mother's closet I saw the dress that she always wore when her and my father went out on date always the same dress it was my father's favorite dress he would always tell her that she was always the prettiest one in the room when she wore that dress. My mother was so simple I'm not really sure what to pick out for her. I just look for favorite slacks and shirt as tears flood my eyes smelling her shirt having her scent in my presence It's overwhelming. My father and my brother, it wasn't really hard to pick out what their favorite clothes were. As I smelled their clothes For the last time having their scent knowing that I won't be back t
Today is the day it's time to put my family 6 feet under the ground. As I get my black dress out of the bag, I hang it up. I look at it as tears start to feel my eyes. This is my funeral dress never thinking I would be wearing it to bury my family. I decide to get a shower I turn the water on letting it warm as I take my clothes off. I look into the mirror and the bruises from the accident where all fading like it never happened. I'm so angry I let out a scream of fury. I just drop to the floor and bring my knees to my chest trying to comfort myself as I cry.I watch as the bathroom fills up with steam from the hot water in the shower. Forcing myself to get up and get in the shower, telling myself I stink I need to shower. As the hot water is burning my skin, I don't budge, wanting to feel anything but what I'm feeling right now. It almost feels like a relief to me, I can feel the burning is all over me. I just relax as I clean myself, getting angry that the water is turn
As I begin to wake up, not sure where I am at as I'm looking around, I then realize I'm in the cabin. I look down at myself, and I'm clean. Someone must have showered me and changed my clothes. What the fuck. Who the hell would do that, damn it, they would have touched me fuck. I'm embarrassed, not sure how to even act. I get out of bed and walk to the kitchen to get a drink.“How did you sleep, you have been out for a while? I jump and scream not knowing anyone else was here “what the fuck are you doing here?”“Oh, so you are able to speak by the way I'm Sam not sure if you remember, but I volunteered to be your friend.”“Well, Sam please leave. I don't want any friends and did you change me.”“I did not bathe and change you, that was the Alpha. He would not dear let anyone touch while you asleep.”“Why can't you guys just let me alone.”“Why don't you sit and relax, I will make you breakfast, I'm actually a pretty good cook.”“O
I am struggling to figure out what I need to do with my life now that the Alpha punished me by making me stay in the pack house. I have no privacy at all. I am not really sure why he would want me in the pack house especially with him being there he doesn't want anyone to know he found his mate. I try to stay away from everybody. I don't talk to anybody. I just don't feel comfortable. This is not my family. I don't belong. All I crave is to be alone. As I go up to my room I feel a sharp pain in my chest and am not really sure what is happening. Star says it's our mate he is with another woman. Not understanding why, but rage overcomes me. I follow his scent to his bedroom knowing that another woman is in his Room. I kicked the door open and they both jumped out of their skin. I grab the bitch by the hair and put her up against the wall. I then growled out “mine.”“What the fuck are you doing, get the fuck out of my room.”The rage that is overcoming my body fee
The Beta and I have been spending a lot of time together. I love flirting with him; he is so sexy. I really don't think the Alpha likes us spending so much time together, but I don't care. Everybody else just stares know one really talks to me, but they sure can talk about me behind my back. I think that they are just curious why the hell I'm here to be honest, so am I. It's been about a month since I lost my family. Being with Sam helps ease some of the pain. I still miss them so much I'm not acting myself, just trying to find a way of where I'm not so miserable. Sam helps me from feeling so lonely all the time. He is giving me confidence in so many ways, making me feel like I am the sexiest woman alive. I don't want him to fall in love with me; I don't want to be with anyone, I want to be alone.All of a sudden, I'm falling to my knees in pain. It's almost unbearable not realizing it's the pain of my mate being with another she Wolf. I am use to this pain it's starting becom
As I walk out of the bathroom, I have my towel around me, as I motion for Sam to stay in there. “Ivan what are you doing in my Room?”“I really wish you would just do what you are told Lilly I don't like how you make everything So damn complicated.”I am confused with his words, I really don't know what the hell he's talking about I look at him with confusion. “What are you talking about?”With no time for me to react he grabs a hold of me and bites down what the fuck he just marked me why. As tears run down my face from the pain and frustration overcomes me I tried to react to him, but I can't then suddenly everything just goes black.As I am waking up, I see him lying next to me, I noticed that I'm in his room I am so pissed that he marked me, why would he do that if you didn't want me? He marked me as his now I'm going to be attached to a mate that doesn’t want me. Wondering is this my punishment from letting my family die, not saving them. That I never ge
As I wake up, I am still in the same spot on his bed with his scent surrounding me. Tears fill my eyes that he just left me naked on the bed with blood on the sheets, blood in my inner thighs. I go to get up, I'm sore my body trembles as I go to stand. I'm not sure what to do or how to react, I just shift and take off out of the house. As I run I see others looking at me but I don't react I run the feeling that I once loved the most the wind blowing thru my fur is gone I feel nothing. I tell my wolf "I'm so sorry to disappoint you Star, but I can't do this any longer, I am not going back to him; I don't want to fight anymore it's time that I join my family." I block her out so she don't talk me out of it.His mark will always be a reminder of him I just can't, I'm done I don't have any more reason to fight. I never thought that he would have done that to me, I know that I provoked him and