"Um," I said as I nodded.The box contained only a few items, all of which were given by Kevin. Books, brooches, a music box, pillows, and the Princess doll he bought for me after I gave the original to the little girl.I didn't bring my instrument on purpose, giving myself a glimmer of hope, and the privilege of coming back.“Jill.” He called out my name. "I understand your decision because you're still young, but you should know that I'm not so young anymore."He approached me and stroked my hair one last time. "I'm willing to wait for you, but not for long."The doorbell then rang.Seeing Alvin after all this time felt like it had been a century.I used to look forward to him picking me up after class or college and driving me home countless times, but when the time came, I was filled with sadness.We seemed to have always lagged one step behind each other.Kevin handed Alvin my suitcase and said, "The medicines he usually takes are here, and each bottle is labelled. If you're too
"I despise you."Alvin's entire body shook for a split second. "What did you say?" he asked, staring at me blankly as if he'd found that unbelievable."I said, I despise you. I will always truly hate you."I pushed him away and ran away after saying that. I noticed his absent-minded expression as if he were in a daze.I collided with a maid at the top of the stairs, knocking cups and dishes over and breaking them all over the floor. I didn't care what she said at that point, and I continued to run.The courtyard was far too large. I hunkered down on the ground for a long time before discovering the pendant by the pool.The small glass cover had been shattered, and the ash inside had been scattered on the ground, blown away by the wind and unable to be recovered.Perhaps I'd cried too much. Surprisingly, there was only emptiness in my heart at this time.In the end, I couldn't keep him...Regardless of what I did.I knelt and carefully gathered the fragments, burying them beneath the
Considering having an affair sounded similarly bad.Before I left, I removed the necklace he had given me and placed it on the desk. He noticed it but said nothing.Currently, as well. I didn't put it back on, but he wasn't upset about it.Something seemed to have changed about him, but I had no desire to investigate further.Each dress set was tried on one by one. It wasn't even my choice in the end. Alvin had decided for me, claiming that the first set was the best.The fever's lingering effects made me tired easily. I sat on the couch, watching as the store manager advised him to slim down his thighs a little more. I didn't bother interrupting.As I sat there dazed, the store's glass door squeaked open, and a tall and slender man waltzed in.My eyes widened unconsciously as I saw him approaching, and I stretched my sitting posture."Senior Nora..."Nora was dressed in a white woollen shit, with half of his hair casually falling on the front and the other half tucked behind his ear
Alvin and Nora soon returned. I couldn't figure out what they were talking about and didn't bother trying.Nora was one of the few people in the world who dared to scold Alvin in front of his face. They had been friends since they were children, and Alvin had an unequalled tolerance for him.I saw Alvin waiting for Nora outside the cafe's shop to take Nora home. He hasn't done anything like that for anyone else. There is no room for a third party in their relaxed and comfortable environment.Even now, these two clearly had an awkward relationship and were displeased with one another, giving me the impression that my presence is unnecessary.I had been thinking about it when Alvin unexpectedly picked me up.As my body drooped, I let out a soft cry and instinctively hugged his neck, my body clinging to him like a monkey."What exactly are you..."There were a lot of shop employees. He isn't embarrassed, but I am!"I'm going home," he stated flatly.Nora opened his mouth, paused, looked
I wish I was as content as they are.I noticed a different person when I opened my eyes.Sometimes I recognize him, and sometimes I don't.Whenever I saw him, I begged him to let me go and went insane trying to escape.When I didn't know who he was, I asked him if he knew of a place called Deep Meadow where a gentleman was waiting for me, and if he could take me there.He inquired as to who the gentleman was.I shook my head and said, "I don't remember."He pummelled a lot of things in anger, then pointed to me and said, "You can't even remember the name, but you still want to go back.""What good do you think he is? He only liked you because you were sleeping in my bed!" He unleashed a torrent of insults.I felt strangely sad and cried out that it was not true.Panicked, he came up to hug me and wipe my tears.But the moment he touched me, the skin on my body began to flare up.The pain was also enjoyable. For a brief moment, the pain would clear my mind.I said everything that came
I couldn't feel hatred any longer.Freedom...I now closely resemble a bird with crumbling wings perched on the ledge of a mountain. What is the idea of freedom if I can't even walk out of here on my two legs?"Are you afraid I'll die here and tarnish your house?" I asked softly."You're not going to die."I couldn't figure out why he was so infatuated with deceiving himself. Even the doctor who came to the house scratched his head at me, but he's still here because he believes I won't die."I appear to have never said that I like or love you."He squeezed the ring on my hand tightly with his thumb and index finger, gradually removing it."Perhaps Nora is correct, I have no clue how to love someone."The ring fits so perfectly that it didn't budge on my finger at all.Finally, the ring went through my finger joints, leaving only a patch of pale skin behind.His eyes were red as he squeezed the ring and looked up at me."I don't... love you in the least.""You're too skinny, dry, and un
Alvin's eyes were devoid of any rage.Only anguish and disbelief that he was the cause of his child were no longer in this world."Be straightforward about all this..." he continued slowly as he spat blood from his mouth and cleaned the edge of his mouth with the back of his palm.When I looked up, Kevin had a wound on his face as well, although it didn't appear to be very deep.I poked him. "I'll speak."Kevin's gaze was fixed on me as if he wanted to make sure I was okay. He let go of me and stood back after a time of observing.I turned to face Alvin. "I'll tell you everything you want to know."When Alvin opened his mouth, no sound came out."The child. I considered having it." That must have been his primary worry. "But you never gave me a chance.""Do you remember what happened at your Grandfather's place that day?"His pupil contracted abruptly as if he had been hit hard."That day..."“Yes.”That day's sadness was still fresh in my mind. The torture I will always remember in m
I was worried that Kevin would see through my cunning ruse, but I was equally worried that he wouldn't.I hope that in his mind, I will always be a good person, deserving of understanding and affection. I also hope that he recognizes my nasty character and continues to treat me as such.For a long time, I was conflicted, but I decided to keep the lie hidden for the time being.I didn't feel sorry for Alvin. Sometimes too much love can lead to severe hatred, but mine didn't.I simply lost interest in him. I don't care what happens to Alvin. I simply want to be happy.I wasn't sure Kevin would accept me for who I was.It's only that I went too far this time, and I exact my vengeance.Stopping my medicine abruptly resulted in the destruction of Kevin's months of hard work, and I became far more shattered than before. I might have died if Alvin had kept me in his custody for a few more days.The weather was pleasant. Kevin hung a chair in the courtyard that was large enough for two indivi