But I couldn’t stop it.
I realized that as soon as everything was out of my control. Over the next few days, I took the time to make Ivor’s mistress angry at his heartlessness.
In fact, every week, I always had to give gifts to his mistresses in the name of Ivor. But I decided to stop it because I was jealous that they were his mistresses, that Ivor canoodled them, which I had never achieved.
Ivor didn’t notice this, because he was too busy with his work and he trusted me.
I had used to do everything for the sake of his trust, and now I’m afraid of losing it.
But I was satisfied.
Fear and joy tormented me at the same time.
I tried to hide my jealousy and become professional so that Ivor would not doubt me and our relationship was improved.
And it worked.
Ivor let me go with him to the villa where Elie was living instead of Romeo.
Once, when I went to the villa with Ivor, I overheard Elie’s phone conversation.
“You know, things will get better, my love. I’m looking forward to coming back to you.”
I hid behind the curtain, trying not to make a sound. I could confirm that this was Ellie’s voice, feeling more excited than embarrassed about eavesdropping. Because maybe I found Ellie’s secret. A secret was big enough to keep Ivor away from Ellie.
So many years later, when I remember what I once felt, I laugh shamefully.
I took out my phone and recorded the conversation.
“I really miss you, I don’t want to live in this empty villa anymore, everyone at this villa treats me like a lowly girl, and he treats me like a toy, like a stupid stunt,” Ellie said chokingly. “I’ll definitely come back to you soon. Love you too.”
Ellie hung up, wiped her tears, walked toward the living room where Ivor was, and startled when she saw me.
“Ms. Assistant, why are you here?”
“Miss Jenner, what a surprise, why are you here?”
The two voices echoed at the same time, and I watched Ellie’s expression and realized she was in shock. I smiled at her for finding her weakness.
“I just watered the flowers, and I’m going to the living room to see Ivor,” Elie replied.
I smiled, saying, “I’m going to the kitchen to prepare tea for my boss. Surprised that the butler told me you were on your room.”
I used a knife to make a slit in her defense, letting her quickly reveal her lies. I watched Elie carefully and realized that she was evaluating my attitude.
I was glad what she was doing was proving to me she was lying.
She said, “Oh, I’ve been up to the bedroom since noon and down to the garden since three o’clock in the afternoon, maybe the butler was too busy to be mistaken.”
I burst into laughter at Elie’s gaping lie. Because the butler told me that Elie was just in the room thirty minutes ago. Before she went into the bedroom, she spent all noon reading books in the garden, allowing no one to bother her.
Perhaps she did not know that the butler was always monitoring her actions skillfully.
Haste was the most short-sighted reason for failure. My jealousy and the joy of taking down my opponent prevented me from rethinking it soberly.
I decided to expose Elie.
I smirked, saying, “Say it again.”
“What?” Elie was surprised, answering angrily.
I repeat, “Repeat what you just said.”
My method was a trick to find out if someone was lying. When people lied, what they said were all fleeting thoughts they came up with so quickly so they could hardly remember everything they said.
I looked at Elie with a winner’s eye. Maybe Elie realized it was all just a trap, so she looked at me with a wary eye.
“I don’t need to do that,” Elie said.
“Why?” I frowned, asking again.
“I have no reason to explain that to you, and you have no right to ask me to do anything,” Elie insisted.
“So does that mean you who excuses yourself, accuses yourself?” I said. “You don’t want Ivor to doubt you, do you? Remember, I’m his assistant and you’re just his mistress.”
Elie laughed and said, “Oh, yes, but if he knew that you had a crush on him, how would he react?”
Elie’s question beat me.
Elie seemed pleased with my reaction, she left shortly after.
I could not accept the fact that I had given up on her. Immediately, I clenched Elie’s hand.
“What are you doing?” Elie was startled, angry, shouting.
“What was the content of your telephone conversation, Miss Jenner?” I asked.
“Please give me a reason to answer you. Why should I listen to an assistant like you, remember you’ve only gained Ivor’s trust in a few days,” Elie said.
“How do you know that?” I was stunned, feeling like someone had just exposed one of my embarrassing mistakes.
I believed Elie could not get that information because I had only been in contact with her for a short time.
Why?
“Because Ivor told me, you fool,” Elie said sarcastically.
I felt like things were getting dangerous.
My love of Ivor as a bomb could explode at any moment. If Ivor found out I was loving him, he would fire me.
I was bewildered, but a hope flashed through my mind. If he knew that, why didn’t he fire me?
“Of course not,” Elie denied all my hopes.
It was only then that I realized that I had unintentionally revealed my entire state of mind.
“I guessed it while listening to him tell the story. Lia, take your hand off my hand, you’re hurting me.”
“What?” I wondered, unconsciously letting go of Elie’s poor hand. Her arm was red because I held it tight for too long.
“Shit,” Elie whispered.
I felt insecure, so I took an action immediately because I was worried Elie would tell Ivor that I loved him.
“You don’t even have to tell me the contents of the conversation, because I recorded it,” I said, taking out the phone. “You know what? I just need to give it to Ivor, everything will be over, he’ll hate you because you cheated on him.”
“What the hell are you talking about,” Elie shouted. I believed the phone panicked her.
“You know what you should do then, don’t you?” I said arrogantly. I believed Elie was scared because she cheated on Ivor, she was having an affair. She was certainly afraid that things would get worse when Ivor found out everything that had happened.
“What happened?”
Ivor’s familiar voice pulled me away from thoughts.
His appearance amazed me.
“I,” I wanted to explain to Ivor instinctively, but I couldn’t think of a logical story for the situation between me and Elie.
Ivor looked at Elie, I looked at him.
Ivor was petty when he saw the red mark on Elie’s arm.
“Did something happen?” Ivor asked Elie.
“Nothing,” Elie said, and looked at me visibly.
“Ivor, I know,” I said, and wanted to explain, but Ivor’s cynical and impatient gaze made me lose my confidence.Elie said, “It’s okay, Ivor, we’re just talking.”“I hear your screams. And your arm, too, what happened to it?” Ivor asked, staring at the red mark and frowning.My heart twitches. I did not trust Elie to be a naive girl. What I had seen proved it to me, or at least I believed it was.So I couldn’t let Elie continue her conversation with Ivor, most likely she would turn the story to a different direction.“Boss, I…,” I said hesitantly.Only then did he glance at me. He said, “What’s wrong?”My heart beat fast.I was nervous.I took out my phone, gave it to him. Ivor looked up at the screen and saw a recording displayed.He looked at me; I signaled him to hold it the way he signaled me when we worked together.Ivor opened the recording file.“Hey, don’t,” Elie tried to stop him, but it was all for nothing.The content of the recording file sounded. Ivor frowned, listening to
I could not believe what Ivor had said. “No way. I mean…”, I panicked, trying to resolve this terrible situation. So far, I really regretted what I had done. That was an expensive price. But Ivor didn’t give in to me, he looked at me with stern eyes. Ivor said, “You can write your resignation this morning, I’ll sign it for you right away.” Then he focused on his work. I couldn’t believe Ivor would be so heartless, and I realized I was so reckless and confident in thinking that he would forgive me after all, just because I was his assistant who worked with him for five years. I had to admit bitterly, Ivor might have an assistant who was more professional than me, but I could not find another person I could love as passionately as I loved him. He certainly knew that, too, and he did so. He was going to fire me and found a new assistant. I felt pain. Ivor, you were so heartless. But my reason reminded me I had no right to suffer or regret. Because from the beginning, I knew the
I was dedicated to my job, making myself busier than anyone in the company, so I did not have to worry about Ivor or anything about him. My devotion surprised and pleased Ivor. So I became his only assistant not to accompany him on his business trip to California. Instead, I would assist the vice president in the company's management. On the third day of his business trip, he called me and asked me to escort Elie to the hotel where he was staying. As I had assisted the vice president with most of the important tasks in the company. On a private plane, Elie asked me, “It’s amazing that Ivor left you so busy to see me.” “It’s my job, Miss Jenner,” I coldly replied. I was lazy to think about what it really meant, and I leaned back in my chair and took a nap. I did not believe Elie was a deer, but I did not hate her either. Simply, I wanted brief contact with her. After a nap, I continued to bury my head at work. Recently, Ivor was only interested in Elie, so things related to Iv
I didn’t want to face being fired again.For me, there was nothing as important as staying with him, even if I could only be with him as his assistant.I struggled to get out, but he held my waist tight.“Ivor, stop,” I said, almost begging, trying to turn away from his kiss.He did not seem to be satisfied when I did that. Of course, he was a possessive man. He did not allow anything that belonged to him to go out of his control.But I did not belong to him. He should know that better than anyone because he rejected my love. By this time tomorrow morning, when he was awake and found out I had sex with him, he won’t give me a friendly gaze.Ivor hold my head so I could not interrupt the kiss again.I slowly fell into a kiss with the man I loved.But, of course, I did not want to be fired.My reason and my feelings started a battle to find the winner.I was so focused on that battle that I didn’t mind the kiss with Ivor. He wasn’t happy about it, he didn’t want anyone to ignore him and
I was scared and didn’t believe what happened last night. Ivor raped me, but in the end I felt happy. I was crazy, I could feel good when I was raped. A crazy thought came to my mind again, I had sex with Ivor, which was something I never thought I’d get a chance to do. But I panicked, my heart beating fast when I thought about the consequences I would face. No, I couldn’t just sit here and wait for Ivor to wake up, see me and then get mad at me and fire me. I have to get out of here and erase all the evidence. Holy shit! I should have left last night. But, after he finished the last round in the bathroom, he fell asleep right away. I was horrified to think he was in a coma. I had to help him to the bed, and as soon as he laid his back on the bed, he took my hand and pulled me into his lap. I was too tired to stay awake until he fell asleep and ran away. I sat on the bed, rubbing my temples. I had a headache and wanted to go home immediately. But I had a lot of work to do, fi
I brought my fatigue and anxiety back to New York. I couldn’t sense how Ivor’s threats, which he had for the girl who slept with him last night, affected me until I had a bad dream when I took a nap on the plane. I could not remember what I dreamed except Ivor. I tried to fall asleep again, but I couldn’t even take sleeping pills. I did not come to the company immediately after Ivor’s will, but returned to my home, sleeping soundly by the slow effects of sleeping pills. I woke up in the middle of the night. The first thing I did was fumbled for my phone. The battery line was yellow, on the screen was a series of incoming calls. I was tired and hungry so I did not care who called me. I ordered food at a night diner. When I opened the door to pick up the goods, I saw a large box carefully and beautifully packed on my porch. I checked the sender’s address on the box after I had finished having dinner, and was surprised to see the address of the corporation where I was working. I br
“Lia, Lia,” John’s call startled me. I feel my eyes widened.Maybe I looked stupid then. At first, he tries not to laugh, but ended up smiling amusedly. He asked, “I see you motionless for a moment. What’s wrong?”“It’s, no, it’s nothing. I was just thinking about work this afternoon,” I said, then focused on eating noodles without raising my face because of shame.Shit, I had had been thinking a lot, but I still could not figure out what was going on with Ivor that day.Maybe he didn’t get weird, I just thought too much. I tried to hypnotize myself for such superficial reasons. And I felt that my actions were ridiculous and stupid.In the afternoon, I brought the report to him as promised.When I walked into the room, Ivor was still busy with his work. He was so focused that he didn’t notice my appearance.I left the report on your desk and then left his room. But immediately, Ivor raised his head and said, “Stop, I’ll comment on your report right away.”Well, he commented on my repor
Of course, I was telling the truth, but I only slept two hours last night after I took my sleeping pills. The feeling of insecurity has followed me since yesterday, when I learned that the hotel still had backup surveillance tape files.“We have the tape, so you’ll find her soon,” Ivor said.“Yes, of course,” I answered sloppily, although I still wanted to chat with Ivor, as fatigue and the effect of sleeping pills had not dissipated.I fell asleep immediately and when I woke up, Ivor and the staff on the plane were transporting the luggage to the car.I got into the car with my drowsy face and tangled hair. Before the car left, a female employee promptly handed me a comb, a mirror, my handy makeup box, and a cold orange juice bottle. I raised my eyebrows when I saw the orange juice bottle.Although quite shy, I still I still put on makeup when I’m sitting next to the car while the car is moving.When we arrived at the hotel, the hotel manager was waiting.“We’re here to get backup fil