Mag-log in*JAMIRA*
Once I got into the car, my mind and body felt at ease again. Even a few hours away meant I could finally escape the prison that had become my life. I glanced at Ayana and suddenly remembered how much I loved being around her. She was the carefree, life-of-the-party type who always knew what I needed and how to lift my spirits. Just then, I felt a nudge and snapped back to reality. “Hey, let’s pregame,” she said, handing me a bottle of Hennessy. I reached for the bottle and turned it upside down. I didn’t intend to drink so much. But man did I need it. Within a matter of seconds I began to feel the heat of the liquor coursing through my veins. Next thing I know we’re dancing and screaming One Wish by Ray J, which was my favorite song. Yes I’m a lover girl at heart so it’s only right we blast a little bit of r&b. After riding for what seemed like forty days and forty nights we finally reached our destination. We pulled up to Club Rouse. The hottest club in the city. The building was illuminated with blue and green lights pulsing at the beat of the music, sleek windows , and a line that seemed never ending. As Ayana parked the car she looked at me with something in her eyes that told me she had something to say but didn’t quite know how. “Yana I know you ain’t trying to kiss me.” “Mira! What! No, eww”, she said with utter shock in her voice. What was I supposed to think she parked and started staring. I had to make sure. “Ok good. I don’t think I can go there with you. You suck dick”, I laughed. “Girl go to hell!”, she said just as jovial. “But seriously I wanted to let you know real quick that I invited Keema and Simone.” “What! Why would you invite them?! You know that bitch Keema act weird every time she around and Simone such a buzzkill it’s like going out with my mom or something!” Don’t get me wrong I don’t have an issue with Simone. She means well but it’s like she’s too busy being “mature” she rarely lets loose and enjoys the moment. I can’t even tell you the last time I seen that girl smile. She’s always policing everyone about how much they’ve been drinking, who they’re dancing with, and even creates a buddy system everywhere we go. Well, now that I think about it maybe she’s just looking out. Still she should be having fun too. Keema on the other hand makes my skin crawl. At one point we were cool, but now all she does is cut her eyes at me and says slick shit under her breath. I’ve never understood what her issue was or why she even bothers if she’s just going to be miserable looking like she just smelled somebody’s stale ass twerk wind. “Relax Mira I promise they’re not going to be on that tonight. Besides it’s your day and we’re here to have fun.” Like I said she always knew how to lift my spirits. Just like that I let it go. I don’t know if it was the liquor or the lights but in that moment I felt like maybe it wasn’t so bad. As we got out of the car the other two girls approached surprisingly in a decent mood. “Happy Birthday!”, they both said in unison as they pinned some bills to my dress. Wow I hadn’t expected that. I just knew I was going to have to prepare myself for some kind of foolishness from them, but this was actually quite nice. We took a few pictures together for social media and then headed for the line of the club. Good thing we left when we did because ladies got in free before 11 and we got there around 10. Right on time.*ERIC* “I don’t like him.” Mira didn’t look up. That pissed me off more than if she had argued. She sat on the other end of the couch with her legs underneath her, scrolling through something on her phone like our daughter hadn’t just left this house with some strange man. Some strange man who apparently thought he could pull into my driveway. Walk to my front door. Ring my doorbell. And leave with my daughter. Like that shit was normal. “Mira.” “I heard you.” “I said I don’t like him.” “And I said nothing.” “Exactly.” She looked up. “What do you want me to say?” “That you agree.” “I don’t.” I stared at her. She went back to her phone. I reached over and grabbed it. “Jamira.” That got her attention. Her eyes lifted slowly. “What?” “You saw him.” “Yes.” “You saw his shoes?” She blinked. “His shoes?” “Yes.” “What was wrong with his shoes?” I sat forward. “Exactly.” “What?” “You didn’t notice.” She stared at me. Then started laughing. “This isn’t fun
*CHRIS*The plan was to come back, spend time with my folks, maybe do a little shopping, and go back home.However, things didn’t quite go as planned.My son had been talking about this damn tree for three weeks.Not Christmas.Not presents.Not Santa.The tree.Specifically, the big one downtown that apparently required an entire ceremony just to turn the lights on.I didn’t understand the excitement.It was a tree.With lights.We had one of those at home.Smaller.Inside.Warm.And I didn’t have to stand around a hundred strangers to look at it.But apparently that wasn’t the same.Honestly, I was hoping he’d forget all about it.Safe to say he didn’t.“Daddy.”“What?”“When are they gonna turn it on?”I looked at my phone.“Seven.”He looked at the tree.Then back at me.“When is seven?”“In fifteen minutes.”He frowned.“That’s long.”“It’s fifteen minutes.”“I know.”Clearly he didn’t.He grabbed my hand again.Four years old.Impatient as hell.And somehow capable of asking the
*JAMIRA*It had been a while since all of the kids were home all day, every day.I was used to Eli and Erica being home with me, but the other three?I was ready to ship them off to their grandparents’ house for the remainder of Christmas break.Christmas with five children was completely overstimulating.Beautiful.Warm.Magical.Whatever.But mostly chaotic.I stood in my kitchen staring at flour on the counter, flour on the floor, flour on Esme’s shirt, and somehow—flour in her hair.I didn’t even remember giving her flour.“Esme.”She looked up at me.“Yes, Mommy?”“Why is there flour in your hair?”Her little hand immediately went to her head.“I don’t know.”Ayana snorted beside me.I looked at her.“Don’t.”“I didn’t say anything.”“You laughed.”“Because she doesn’t know.”“I don’t!” Esme insisted.“Baby, you put it there.”“No.”I stared at her.She stared back.Four years old.Four.And already committed to lying directly to my face.I sighed.“Okay.”Esme smiled.Apparentl
*ERIC*Ten years.Ten years full of tears, drama, parental guidance, and plenty of goddamn patience.And the time had finally come.My little Sour Patch was finally walking across the stage and going out into the world as a grown-ass woman I was somehow still going to end up financially responsible for.Graduations were stupid.Not because they didn’t matter.They did.Obviously.But whoever decided hundreds of families needed to sit in folding chairs for three hours to watch their kid walk across a stage for twelve seconds needed their ass beat.I shifted in my seat.Again.Mira looked over.“Stop moving.”“My back hurts.”“You’re forty.”“Exactly.”“That is not old.”“Tell my back.”She rolled her eyes.Eli moved against her chest.He’d been asleep for almost twenty minutes.One year old.Knocked completely out despite the heat, the people, the announcements, and his siblings doing everything possible to make sure nobody around us enjoyed themselves.I was just glad we remembered th
*KAYLA*“I’m doing curls.”“No, you’re not.”I looked up from my phone.Nia stared at Brielle like she’d personally offended her.Brielle touched her hair.“Why not?”“Because you said that last time, then straightened it thirty minutes before we left.”“That was different.”“How?”“It was humid.”“It’s always humid.”“That’s not true.”“We live in Georgia.”I laughed and looked back down at my phone.We’d been talking about the father-daughter dance for almost an hour.Technically, we were supposed to be studying.Nobody had opened a book.Nia had already picked her dress.Dark green.Her dad was wearing a matching tie because apparently she’d ordered it herself after he said he was wearing whatever he already had in his closet.Brielle hadn’t bought anything yet, but she had seventeen dresses saved on her phone and hated all of them.She’d shown us every single one.Twice.“I think I want my hair up,” Nia said.“You just said curls.”“Curled and up.”“That’s different.”“No, it’s no
*KACIE*I had planned on having a normal day.A day like any other, with not much of anything going on.I looked out the window and saw my car.I couldn’t remember the last time I washed it.It was covered in dirt and debris of some sort.It didn’t help that it was once white.Now it had turned all shades of brown, with black streaks of dirt running down the sides.At least I thought it was still white underneath all that shit.I figured since I’d spent so much time cleaning up my life, I might as well clean the car too.So I grabbed my keys and headed to the car wash up the street by the gas station on the corner.Life had become calm and quiet.Which felt almost disrespectfully normal.No phone calls in the middle of the night.No police officer standing at my door.No dramatic messages waiting for me when I woke up.Nothing that warned me my past was about to walk up beside me while I was scrubbing bird shit off the hood of my car.It was Saturday.Warm.Too warm, honestly.Kayla w







