Love and Lament

I didn’t understand why but I felt a hollowness within the confines of my heart. The feeling had been persistent for the past one month ever since I heard the news but I had assumed that it would go away with time. But contrary to my belief, it only intensified. I realised only later that it was a feeling of longing that first started within my chest, to the point where I thought I might puke my stomach’s contents before it averted it’s focus to my eyes. I was again at a loss of words to explain why I was at the verge of tears. I surely had to be stupid. I wasn’t lost, Mom wasn’t mad at me nor did I fail my math exam again. Surely everything was fine. Then where were the tears coming from? Could it be Dad? But I haven’t thought of him for at least a month, ever since I got to know about that news. Right. There it was. The news. That was why I was crying. I was so caught up in it that I didn’t even realise how much it was bothering me! Of course, the news wasn’t that bad! In fact,

"When you want something, the whole universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."~ Paulo Coelho~♡~“Do you really want to do this, Chloe?” My mom removed her glasses and looked at me with concern.“It’s okay,” I said, sliding the bag over my shoulder. “I’ve already skipped classes yesterday. Can’t afford to do it today too.”“I can talk to your teachers about it if you insist.”“It’s alright. I can manage.” I assured her.“If you say so.” She said. “But if you need to talk to me, I’m just a call away.”“I know. Thanks, mom.” I smiled as she kissed the top of my head. I waved at her and got out of the car.My foot was still not healed so I had to make my way to the school stumbling. I received a few weird gazes from people but they haven’t bothered to help me. I just shrugged it off and went inside. I had history in the first period so I went there.The class was empty except for me. I occupied my seat in the front and rested my back against the backrest of the chair.But I reall

“Never give up without a fight”~♡~I walked to my house with heavy legs. Each footstep felt as though I had a rock tied to me and I had to put my entire energy to do the job. When I reached my house, I walked past it to my neighbour’s.I walked up to the door and knocked on it. After a few seconds, the door opened and Anna stood in front of me. She smiled up at me and I found it hard to respond with the same gesture.Anna and I had become pretty close in these few months. I’ve always loved Anna when she was a baby. And she liked playing with me back then and now too. And I’m glad she isn’t like her brother.“Anna, can you.. please call your brother?” I asked, holding onto the door frame.“Yes!” She grinned and ran back inside to fetch his brother. After waiting for a few minutes, Brett appeared in front of me.“What?” Brett’s voice rang in my ear. He was looking irritated when I faced him and his eyes were narrowed, almost questioning my presence.“You told me you’d meet me after sch

"It grieves me to think there are people misunderstanding my heart on an issue.”~♡~I didn’t know what was wrong with him. He seemed completely fine when I talked to him last night. I was happy that things were going fine between us but he threw me out of his house in the morning.I didn’t know if he even felt the need to help me when I fell. I thought he’d try to be a little more gentle and caring. I don’t know why he’s being like so mean again.I decided to not go to school because I was going tired of all that was going on in my life. Moreover, I may have to face Parker, which I don’t want to do.“You’re not going to school, sweetie?” My mom asked me when she saw me sitting in our backyard.“No. I’m tired mom,” I said her.She came to me and sat beside me. “You want to talk about it, Chloe?”I looked up at her and smiled. “How did you know I need to share it?”“I’m your mother, sweetie.” She said and smiled back.I chuckled and took her hand. “I’ve been having a bad time these day

“Here’s to new beginnings.”ChloeI didn’t know if I was supposed to stay mad at mom or not. I never thought that she would tell everything to Brett and explain to him about my daily battles. I had convinced myself that my life is no less than a battlefield and I need to fight it myself. It’s not just for now, but I believe that you shouldn’t be hoping for someone else’s support all the time. You need to be well equipped, physically and mentally. We need to realise that nothing is constant in this transforming life. And we’re the only ones that can go through what life offers to us.And I’m not completely satisfied with the idea to blame my mother. If anything, she’s been an amazing mother. I couldn’t be happier to receive such an amazing human being like my mother. She has no one to share her grievances with. My dad is dead and she hasn’t been looking for any other man to marry. I asked her to focus on her marriage but she always swayed the advice by saying that she can never give me