"Wha...t ... the hell... a...are you talking about,' I stuttered.
Why am I stuttering? Why did he say it out loud, out of nowhere? I'm not sure what he's up to; is this a joke or a game? Kissing? He remembered that part. Damn. "I know what I'm saying, what I saw, you kissed me last night. You quickly shoved me away when your girlfriend approached?' he said. I was taken aback by the way he spoke. Is he concerned about it all, shit, he is definitely going to say that I'm a freak. "That's ridiculous. Isn't it revolting to you? I mean, who the hell comes up to his fellow guy one morning and says, "I kissed you while I was drunk? How come it makes no sense to me?' I said this while putting my hands in the pockets of my black trouser. Charlotte indeed came to us, glad I wasn't caught or else I would have been in hell of trouble. I had to run away from Haru, stay in a corner till the party was over before we all went home but that night I couldn't sleep, his lips kept me from sleeping and all I could think about were, his damn body. I'm genuinely acting as if I have no idea what he's talking about. Yes, I understand what he's talking about, but admitting it to him is embarrassing. I have to remain vigilant to keep track of what he's up to; I can't trust him. I'm not sure if he's recording stuff or not, so I have to be cautious and he's into girls and not guys. How do I get out of this mess that I've gotten myself into? "You are correct. But don't you remember how passionately I kissed you?' He said that with a smile on his face. How passionately he kissed me, was he drunk? He's very attractive. *Johan, snap out of it. Always remember that he's a guy* I thought. "I think you're insane, please excuse me.' I walked past him on my way to the door. He nudged me towards the door and kissed me on the lips. Oh, my goodness. I couldn't help myself. The kiss was fantastic. He continued to kiss me, and before I knew it, he was carrying me up and placing me at the head of the table. We kissed and moaned incessantly. When he unbuttoned my sleeve and began kissing my chest, I had no idea. Then he came to a halt and peered at me, his lips flushed. "I had no idea you could kiss that way?' He murmured this while licking his lips. "I was...carried away for a moment,' I confessed, blushing. What happened to me, what's the matter with me? I'm not sure how I could have let him kiss me like that. Why?As I stepped down from the table and began walking towards the door, I pushed him away from me and began buttoning my sleeve. "This isn't the first time you've kissed a guy, is it and you have a girlfriend?" He gave me a friendly smile, it was more like a statement than a question. How in the world did he know that, I am fucking perplexed. I inquired, "How did you know that?" I was supposed to deny it, not confirming his statement. I've kissed a guy before, but I've never told anyone about it. Jack is completely unaware of it too. This is unbelievable. "You kissed me all the way through. It was almost as though you were starving for it,' he gushed. 'Or, to put it another way, you've been waiting for it to happen, and it appears that you're gay but want it disguised.' He expressed his thoughts. Through a kiss, he discovered that. He is insane. "Please don't say anything like that, I don't know what you are talking about.' "Do you want to keep denying it or are you still not sure that you're gay?' He questioned. I wasn't sure of myself; I'd never considered myself to be gay, to begin with. 'I'm aware that you require my services. I see it, and you have a hard boner?' He had lust in his eyes and stared at my boner. "Haru, stop this, just leave me alone, I'm not interested,' I asserted, using my hands to demonstrate my point. I covered my groin with my other hand. I didn't realize how obvious it was going to be. 'And Johan, to answer your questions, indeed, I've always been gay all my life, you can deny it all you want, I don't give a damn about you being into dicks."' He said confidently, his arms crossed across his chest. "You can't be serious,' I murmured, turning my back on him. It was a distraction to be staring at him right now. Why will a lady's man, like him be gay? "I am,' he said as if he could read my thoughts. "And I know you are gay or maybe bisexual,' He shook his head sideways and continued to smile. And he just concluded, why is he telling me all this? I was embarrassed, I've been trying so hard to hide it from anyone, even take it to my grave and a stranger finds that out without getting close to me. Even the people close to me didn't even take a hint. "Just shut up, shut up, shut the fuck up, and don't pretend like you know who I am,' I yelled angrily. I hurried out of the chemistry lab after opening the door. I don't want to see him again, how did he know that? What a blunder! Because he attends the same high school as me, I must do everything possible to avoid him. *This isn't the first time you've kissed a guy, is it?' As I continued to run, I shook my head. Those words, he said to me, triggered memories I don't want to revisit. Not now, and not ever. I regretted what I had done, I don't want to ever remember those memories. I dashed to the canteen, knowing that everyone would have returned to class by now. As a result, it will be empty. I needed to be alone to think. Why was he doing this to me? Tears streamed down my face. I bury my head in the table, hoping no one will notice.I'm not gay, don't get me wrong. I can't possibly be that kind of person. But the way he kissed me was still playing over and over in my mind, and it was turning me on. Fuck this groin, it's always getting up. He's a man, not a woman.But it wouldn't listen, so I kept laying my head down, and before I knew it, I drifted off to sleep. "Wake up,' Someone called out to me, "Johan.' When I finally opened my eyes, I saw Ava. She continued to yell my name. "Wake up, and tell me where you've been.' I glanced at her as I slowly opened my eyes. I asked, raising my head from the table. 'Has class ended yet?' "Yes, class has ended, and we are now closed. I've looked all around the school for you.' She whined. "I'm sorry, where are the others?' I asked, my eyes still closed. I'm still feeling drowsy.They're all waiting too except for Charlotte at the school gate, and she is looking for you as well?' She murmured this while resting her hands on her hips. I stood up and started. 'All right, Ev
"Going out with someone,' I said again, repeating what she had just said. She nodded. "Yes, I'm in a relationship. We've been going out for months, and he loves me so much that he even said, he would like to see you too?' She grinned as she stated this.This is ludicrous; I don't know what to say. She's been dating someone, but she's never admitted it to me. It seems creepy to me. I don't blame her, but this is the first time I've seen her act like this. She appears to be in a pleasant mood. I'm still uneasy, but that's not a terrible thing right? She might as well get married to him in my absence, why now? "Um...I don't want to meet him right now. Perhaps next time, Mom?' I quickly replied. "But he wants to see you, and why don't you want to meet him?' She enquired. "I'm busy, and I want to meet up with the others tonight,' I responded hastily. This is still shocking for me. I don't want to meet whoever is dating her and say. Good evening, my name is Johan. It's nice to meet
When I walked downstairs, I noticed Charlotte staring at me. She appeared to be taken aback. "I'm truly sorry, darling. I fell asleep and didn't hear your calls. Please accept my apologies.' I lamented to her, but what she said afterwards baffled me. "I had no idea you were this attractive,' she exclaimed. "Wait a minute, why are you dressed so differently today?' She was still staring at me up and down when she examined me. Okay, this was not what I expected. I was anticipating her to yell at me, gripe at me, and then drag me along with her to the party. That's exactly what I expected. But what she's saying right now is unexpected. "How?' I raised an eyebrow and double-checked my attire. "You...you simply look so different,' she remarked. "Really?' I inquired. "Yes, it was your mother who told you how to dress today.' She remarked. "No, it wasn't Mom,' I said. " did it myself,' I corrected, confused at her reaction towards my dress. "You did it yoursel
"Why don't we make it $1,000,' another girl implied out of nowhere. This one is even worse; is this some sort of rainbow party? "All right, let's stop at that price, and it's $1,000.' Charlotte yelled, and everyone erupted in joy and cheering. "All right, I will quit now. Let's pick a singer. Who's going to sing for us?' Charlotte inquired, and everyone began shouting "Keith." Keith, I wondered. Does he know how to sing? Then, seemingly out of nowhere, someone yelled. "Haru. Allow him to sing, and I will vote for him.' "Me too, let Haru sing,' another youngster said. Haru? That guy knows how to sing, I didn't know that, where was he? Did he come for this party without informing anyone or… "I had no idea I was also quite popular here,' That voice Is familiar to me. When I turned to face the door, it was Haru. He was giddy with joy, holding a microphone on his phone. He was so hot. "Why don't you let Haru sing?' The same shouted, and everyone began shouting his name, but not
Everyone sat down, and all eyes were once again drawn to Haru and Keith. But they both sat down instead of standing, which is what they prefer, I think. I couldn't wait for Haru to start singing, so I dropped the bottle of beer on the table and stared at him. Everyone was waiting for them to start singing, but they remained silent and stared at each other.Is this part of what they want to do, or is there something wrong with it? Why was he so dashing tonight, oh, fuck, he was gorgeous and how was someone like this into dudes, man his lips, his muscles, his fragrance was out of this world. Damn, I sound like a pervert. Keith rose to his feet, took the microphone, and inhaled and exhaled. Is he nervous or what? Now that I think about it, Jack didn't use a microphone; instead, he used his voice to sing.Then Keith started singing with the tone playing in the room.When he was done singing, the entire room fell silent.He has such a lovely voice; I had no idea he could sing.
"It's really nothing." I stood up from the bed with a reply. I don't care if my head is still hurting because I can bear the pain. I went to the kitchen to see if Jack had made anything to eat because I had smelled something good while sleeping and I can still perceive it. "You can't just tell me it's nothing, Johan?" He said this as he stood by the kitchen door. "Why can't I tell you that? It's entirely up to me whether I tell you or not. I just don't want to say anything, Jack.' I stated solemnly. At the very least, that should indicate to him that I'm not in the mood to talk and even if I want to tell him, he wouldn't understand and where do I even to start from. He stood there for a few minutes while I was taking my plate to dish up some food that Jack had cooked. Oh, sorry my bad. His mother prepares the meals. I noticed him walk away as I was serving myself some food. I'm guessing he understood the language, but I know he will bring it up again, and I thi
"That's right, man. Come on, we have classes tomorrow, and the teacher is going to scold us until the earth falls down,' Jack grumbled. Ava and Charlotte burst out laughing. When I looked at Haru, he was staring at me as well, but I turned my head and left them to talk about boys, girls and such."Where are you going?" Charlotte inquired as she sat down at the table."I'm going to lie down for a while because my head is still hurting a bit," I said."OK, please take care," she said as she blew me a kiss, but I just laughed and started walking away."You didn't blow me a kiss, and you didn't tell me you loved me," she grumbled.I felt embarrassed, but it's not the first time I've done this, or is it because Haru is staring at me while sitting at the table."Hey, do the same thing to her or our eardrums will burst." Jack rolled his eyes as he ate his food at the table, and Ava joined him. I was curious as to when Jack brought his food to the table."Can I do that later?' What is wrong
As soon as Haru walked away. I sat down on my bed, staring at nothing. He proposed sex. I'm not sure what to think or do about it. How can I say no to him when he is so enticing? Charlotte is still my girlfriend, and if I agree to this, I'm cheating on her and, worse, betraying her. He stated that he doesn't care if I'm dating her or not. He only wants me, there are no romantic feelings involved, and he simply wants to have fun. And I want it as well. My body screams for his touch. I scratched my head in frustration, telling myself to stop thinking about it all. He said he gives me two days to accept his offer. I'm the worst person ever; am I truly gay or bisexual, as he claims? No, I don't want to be any of those things. I got out of bed and went to the door, which I opened. I got out and walked over to the dining table to fix my clothes. Charlotte dashed over to me. "Babe, we're having a party today, would you like to come over?" I raised an eyebrow at Charlot