“So he finally surrendered?” asked Cathy after stuffing a whole crab cake to her mouth.
“I guess so. He didn’t bother me anymore since last night. Thank heavens he agreed. I am running out of words to keep him away from me.”
I looked over the newly-trimmed grasses in lawn where my boy is busy playing with his nanny.
“What did you feel? Are you happy that he finally stopped pestering you? That’s your term. I just used it.”
I sighed and smiled when I saw Zeus tumble over a block of toys.
“Yes, I am happy. Peace of mind again finally.”
Cathy chewed loudly. “I don’t think so. You have been distracted these past few days. You might not notice it but you are not focused this week. You missed important meetings, cancelled five dinner meetings for unknown reasons, and signed a different contract by mistake. It could have been a disaster had I not noticed it. So no, Jill. I think you are not doing well.”
Sighing, I turned to Cathy who is
I saw him on one corner drinking a whiskey when I entered the club and settled myself in a stool. I ordered for a martini while keeping an eye on him. After learning of Cathy’s marriage, the thought of finally confessing the truth to Trevor has been appealing.“One more,” I asked the bartender.I glanced again at Trevor who is on his fifth drink now since I arrived. He looked so down and wretched. His eyes were blank and his shoulders were stooping down. A familiar run of guilt of emotion washed through me. I might be too assuming for thinking about it. sighing, I put the glass on my mouth while still keeping my sight at him. He moved a bit and his eyes soon followed. His eyes met mine. He was a little bit shock but he just raised his glass to me and went back to his own thinking.I sighed and focused my gaze on my drink. I can’t understand myself. Now that Trevor has dropped his ball on me and stopped chasing me, I am feeling extra squis
“Uhm, you see what I see, Jill?”I followed Cathy’s gaze behind me and saw Trevor with Sandy entering the restaurant. My face hardened for a second before I reminded myself not to feel this way because I have no right.“Seems like the favorite couple is back, hmm?” I commented and went back eating. I saw them occupy a nearby table in the side of my vision.“Chill, relax. Trevor already assured you that there is no romance that is going on between the two. You can breathe now, okay?” Cathy teased me.“Cut it out, C. You know that I don’t care about them anymore. You must have taken it into a different context when I told you about the new friendship that we have forged. It’s like nothing that you’re thinking.”I twirled the spaghetti in my plate and waited for Cathy to say anything.“Yea, yeah. Whatever, but you know what I think? You need to convince yourself first
I stood up and excused myself for a while. I need to collect myself after hearing those things from Cathy.“Just for a sec, Cathy. I need to go to the bathroom.”With trembling body, I hurriedly went to the washroom to fix myself. My senses were in chaos. I could not think straight. Cathy’s words were swirling in my head like a broken record on repeat. If I am searching for any evidence to prove that Von really did love me then this is it. This is what I am looking for.“But can I trust him this time? What will be his reaction if he learned about Zeus?”The door opened but I kept my head down, just staring into the running water. I smell a feminine perfume so I looked up only to see Sandy on my side retouching her make-up. She looks different than the last time I saw her with Brad abroad. She is more stressed now and judging from her shaking hands, I know that she is nervous. But why?“Are you okay?” I brok
“Momma, when will I meet daddy?”“Baby, your father is a very, very busy man. Now be a good boy and go back to playing with your toys again, okay? Rose, get Zeus out here.”My son’s face grimaced into a cry. “Momma, dada.” He stomped on the floor and tugged at my arm so I took off my glasses and carried him into my lap.“Baby, as I said, daddy is a very busy man like momma and he is in a very, very far land away from us, understand?”His eyes were still sad because he has not gotten what he wanted so I just kissed him on his cheeks and tickled his neck to up his mood but he remained steadfast.“But momma, you told me that last night but you didn’t call daddy. I want to see daddy, momma. Please?”It is his turn to kiss me all over my face just for me to give in to his request. But maybe it will be the first time that I cannot hand over what he wishes.For one, Trevor has been out of my reach these past few days. He did not contact me si
The day of dread happened too soon. Funny how fate played on me again. Looking back, I realized that I should have not let my fear and doubt got on my way. I have always proven that letting them seethe in you will only jeopardize things just like what is happening now. It was just a fraction of a minute but it’s enough to make me shattered inside.It’s also my mistake. I have not been cautious enough. I should have thought this would happen. I let my guard down that’s why the fucking way of things had seen a weakness and it did not waste any time to use it against me.So now I am looking at the two men in my life inside my office who is busy talking to each other like Zeus was never a toddler. Trevor was on the floor together with Zeus who was grinning from ear to ear while looking at his father in his usual glow of joy every time he sees me coming out of the car after work.I blinked my eyes to prevent my tears from falling o
“Is that the reason why did you disappear?”I nodded and stood up to get a drink. “Partly. The other one is for my mother. She told me that day that she has a terminal illness. On that unlucky but lucky day, I realized that everything is really just a cycle. I have a life in my stomach while talking to a dying mother while on a distance is the man I love looking so happy with his bride.”I drank the liquor form the bottle and wiped the excess liquid off my mouth using my hand. “So tell me, Trevor, if you were in my position, will you have really done what you wanted me to do now? It’s easy to say those things when you are not in one’s position.”I heard his footsteps behind me. I saw him raise his hand as if to touch me but he lowered it down as if he just realized something.“You have years to tell me about Zeus. It’s not that I am do not want to understand you. I do. I know how hard it is and how I wish I was there by your side during those times protecting
"Zeus is really happy. Look at that smile. Jill, I think it's the happiest smile I have ever seen from that little boy.""I know and I don't how I would feel about it. I'm partly jealous and happy seeing my child like this. I never saw him beam like that to me."I retracted my gaze at Trevor and Zeus who are playing in the yard and flipped the meat in the griller. Zeus requested for a grill party as what he coined because he said he wanted to welcome his father in the house."Now you know that it's not that hard to tell the truth. I think you got the best deal here. Zeus is happy because he has finally seen his father. Trevor is obviously too happy for knowing his son so you should also be happy now that everything is falling in its right place."Cathy forked a meat on the griller, blew on it, and put in her mouth."You mean I should be more cautious. I'm happy for my son but it's a different story
His words felt like an ice bucket on my head. I broke free from his arms and wiped my mouth. My heart is beating erratically and even if I can't see my face in the mirror, I know that I am red in embarrassment. I gave in to him. I gave in to my desire to him. He's right. Until now, my body is still a slave to him.Shaking, I combed my hair using my hands and tried to bring back my lost will because of that mind-shattering kiss."Shit," I muttered and walked out of the kitchen into the powder room to calm my raging hormones. I'm turned on by him. There's no denying that. It's been so long since I had a sexual relationship since Trevor because I was never turned on by the other guys I have went out with. For that, I hated myself because my body seemed to have a bias towards Trevor.When I thought that everything is under control, I went out of the powder room only to be surprised again because Trevor is waiting for m