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Prologue
Loving you is not a sin, but why must I bear so much pain?
If I could choose and turn back time, then I wouldn't try not to fall in love with you. I would go back to the point in time when I didn't fall in love with you.
But I know none of this is in my control because all this is the path of my destiny.
So, may I ask instead?
If you can't love me, then stop hurting me.
Because really, I don't want this love to turn into hate.
If you can't love me, then stop torturing my feelings.
Because really, I want to remember all the sweet things between us, even if it's just a matter of fingers.
If you can't love me, then let me forget you.
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Loving You Too Long Part 1
The little girl wearing a ballerina dress bowed her body as a sign that the dance was over. The sound of applause that rang out in the fifteen by-twenty-meter room relieved her fatigue. Finally, Haisley could show off her ballet skills to someone she liked.She straightened up. Seeing where her family should be sitting. Seeing their adoring faces. Her eyes looked around, but the person she was looking for was not there. And when the curtain closed, there was nothing the girl could do but let out a long sigh of disappointment."Oh my God, Mommy's girl can dance that well. I never expected it. Isn't that right, Daddy?" The voice of Mrs. Thea Smith, the girl's mother, sounded cheerful as she welcomed her daughter out into the waiting room for the performance."A gift for my beloved daughter." Mr. Smith then handed her a box. The little girl dressed in pink ballet clothes smiled cheerfully. "You'll open it when you get home, OK?" Her father ordered. The girls nodded immediately.They then
Loving You Too Long Part 2
Six years later,"You take care there. Look after yourself, don't make Nathan and Gilbert worry," Mrs. Smith's advice echoed in Haisley's ears once again. She, now sitting in the airport waiting area, could only nod in response to her mother's words from across the overseas call."Don't just nod along. You have to get rid of your spoiled attitude. Remember, there you need to focus on your studies. Don't shift your focus to other things," Mr. Smith chimed in this time. Haisley could only chuckle but then nodded again."Alright then, I have to pick up my luggage," she said, bidding farewell. Her parents waved once more through the small screen in her hands. The middle-aged couple's faces looked melancholic, clearly still not fully accepting their youngest daughter's departure.Yes. Following her best friend Gilbert's advice, Haisley had resolved to fight for a scholarship so she could join her soulmate. She gave up her dreams of being a ballerina and chose to focus on academics to secur
Loving You Too Long Part 3
"Princess, are we heading home?" Gilbert asked when he saw Haisley seemed to have swallowed all the food in her throat. Haisley nodded enthusiastically and accepted her friend's hand."How's life on campus?" he asked as they walked towards the car. "Comfortable?""Fun," she replied shortly. "Don't worry, living abroad isn't as scary as it sounds. There are many Indonesian students here. They have their own gatherings; I'll introduce you to them later." She said, opening the passenger door for Haisley before walking around to the driver's seat. "You'll be comfortable here. You'll feel at home. There's me, and you'll have plenty of friends from our country." She continued, glancing at Haisley. "And this is also a chance for you to change your mind, H. Who knows, maybe you'll find a guy on campus who's better than Nathan. There are plenty of handsome guys out there, you know?"Haisley frowned disapprovingly and then sighed. "Don't even try to change my mind, G."Gilbert chuckled at Haisl
Loving You Too Long Part 4
"Daydreaming?" His voice brought her back to reality. She looked at Gilbert, who was now standing with his arms folded across his chest. Haisley glanced at her friend with a shy smile."No," she deflected politely. But Gilbert sneered."Rest, get rid of your jet lag. I'll call you when dinner is ready," he said, a statement met by Haisley's nod.Gilbert left the room, closing the door behind him. Haisley didn't know where he went. She simply followed his suggestion to rest and get over her jet lag. Lying on the queen-sized bed, her mind drifted back to the past, to a time when her heart had shattered unexpectedly because of a scene she never anticipated witnessing.**Flashback:**Once again, Haisley wiped sweat off her forehead with the back of her hand. The weather was scorching today, but that wasn't the issue. The problem was that she was also on the first day of her period, and her stomach was incredibly uncomfortable. She desperately wanted to get home quickly. But the faster she
Loving You Too Long Part 5
Haisley blinked and saw Gilbert towering over her. His knees bumped into Haisley's, which were dangling from the edge of the bed to the thick carpeted floor."Sleeping beauty, wake up! Hurry up and change; it's mealtime," he said, sitting down on the room's sofa. "Looks like Nathan won't be back until late, so your longing will have to wait." He said casually, flicking on the TV and scrolling through channels.Haisley searched for her suitcase, which she had only opened earlier to find some underwear and a change of clothes. But it seemed to have disappeared into thin air. "I asked Aunt Jody to sort out your clothes," Gilbert pointed to the wardrobe on the other side of her bed. Not exactly a wardrobe, but a protruding section of the wall fitted with wooden doors. Haisley opened it and found her limited collection of clothes neatly arranged, along with shoes and other items."Thanks," she said, then picked something from the wardrobe and headed to the bathroom. She emerged wearing kne
Loving You Too Long Part 6
"In that case," the girl extended her fingers adorned with beautiful pink nail polish and glittering accessories. "I'd be more than happy to be your first friend in this city. Don't hesitate to ask for help. As long as I can, I'll always assist you." Haisley's smaller hand met Loretta's. Loretta wasn't her enemy, she wrote in her heart. She was just a pretty and sweet girl who held a special place in the heart of the man she loved.And the man she referred to finally appeared. He was wearing a well-fitted black tuxedo with a neatly tied bow tie around his neck. The attire accentuated his broad shoulders and chest. His slim waist and long legs were clad in matching trousers. Haisley looked up, examining the man once more. His thick black hair was neatly combed, emphasizing his strong jawline. The stubble on his chin and thin mustache further accentuated his face. Thick, gracefully arched eyebrows framed his sharp eyes with dark blue irises.He, Nathaniel, the man she had admired for te
Loving You Too Long Part 7
Yes. His first love who rejected him because she valued her sister's feelings more.If it weren't for Haisley's love, he would have fought for his love for Crystal before Juan took her away.Nathan sighed deeply. No, it wasn't Haisley's fault. It wasn't Crystal and Juan's fault either. It was all his fault. He was too cowardly to express his feelings. He kept delaying because he thought Crystal, who was four years younger than him at the time, wasn't ready to accept his love and wasn't prepared for a more serious relationship.He thought she was still too young. So, he assumed that to prove his love to Crystal, he had to become a man first.That's why he left his home to continue his education. To make himself more worthy in the eyes of the Smith family. Before marrying their eldest daughter. Note, their eldest daughter. Crystal Smith.But fate was not on his side. He received a series of surprises. Three years after his departure, just when he was starting his career, Nathan heard th
Loving You Too Long Part 8
Lectures have already started. It's hard to believe Haisley has been living with Gilbert and Nathan for a month now. During this time, she only met Nathan a few times. Those meetings never lasted more than five minutes and were just casual greetings from the hosts to their guest.Haisley was busy with her new life, making friends and socializing with people her age. Gilbert helped her with that. The third-year student introduced her to a group of American students and his other friends, whom Haisley started to like.As for Nathaniel? She knew he was trying to avoid her. When she was at home, he preferred to lock himself in his office or leave the house and come back late at night. Haisley didn't want to speculate about what he was doing out there. Even though Gilbert often teased her about women who might be spending time with Nathan.And of course, she and Gilbert knew that Nathan was a normal guy. That meant it was unlikely for Nathan to go out with a woman and just hold hands. Hais
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