CHAPTER 13

ESTHER POV

As I open my eyes, all that I did suddenly comes back to me!

Shit! You are full of shit Esther! Why do you need to do it!

I even remember when I kiss Amber, I cannot be like this or else I will deffinitely lose a control!

I check the time and is its just 4:30 am, I pack my stuff and get out of her house, I book a cab and get home...

While on the road she calls me and I can feel her disappointment towards me leaving the house like that,

What can I say, I dont even know now how I feel! Hmmmmmm sob*sob*...my tears fall down while I drop myself on the bed,

Hmmmm sob*sob*hmmmmm....I dont know what is going on myself anymore! I work hard to control myself,

She dont love you anymore!!!! Why dont you listen!!!!!! Hmmmmmm!!!!

I shout to myself crying hard on my bed....

She is already gone from you...she isnt the same Amber who loves you the way you want.....so stop...hmmmmm sob*sob*

For almost one and half hour of crying I finally get up and prepare to work...

With puff eyes, I loo