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My mom still loves Andrel Black. I know because I stole the page where she confessed it.
The first time Andrel Black walked into our house, I thought he was just handsome. That was it. Just a handsome man who happened to be my father's best friend. I didn't think much of it. But then he started coming over more often. Business deals with Dad. Dinners. Meetings in Dad's study. And every time, I found myself peeping from the hallway. He was too handsome. Too muscular. He looked nothing like my father — he looked younger, more dangerous, more... alive. And then I noticed it. The way he and my mom looked at each other. It wasn't normal. It wasn't how a wife should look at her husband's best friend. It was heavy. Painful. Like they were both remembering something they shouldn't. Until one afternoon Dad wasn't home, and I saw them arguing in the living room. I couldn't hear what they were saying. Her eyes were red. His jaw was clenched. Before I could listen, I ran. I ran straight to Mom's room. My heart was beating so fast.i don't just know why but I ran to her room That's when I saw her small safe in the closet. I don't know why I tried to open it. My hands were shaking. I tried my birthday. It didn't open. I tried Dad's birthday. It didn't open. Then, I typed Andrel's birthday. click, It opened, I was dumbfounded. Inside, there was an old, worn diary. I flipped through it, curious, angry, confused until my eyes stopped on one page. "I love Andrel Black and I still love him. No one can replace him. Not even my husband." My chest shattered. Sadness and anger mixed together. How could she? How could my own mother do something so despicable? If she loved him so much, why didn't she marry him? Why marry my dad? Out of anger, out of hurt, I tore that page out. I folded it and hid it. Then I heard my name. "Mila! Mila! What is the matter? What are you thinking of?" I snapped back to reality. "Nothing," I replied quickly. Then my dad raised his glass, his voice loud and proud. "Happy birthday to my beautiful daughter! I still want to thank some loved ones. First, my brother Andrel, he has been good since day one. And my beautiful wife, who gave birth to such a lovely daughter. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me." I turned and looked at Mom. She couldn't even look at Dad. Maybe guilty. But her eyes... her eyes were fixed on Andrel. Out of frustration, I grabbed a drink and started walking alone down to the alley. I needed air. I needed to be alone. Then I heard a voice behind me.Little Mila." I recognized that voice instantly. So deep and calm. My whole body got stiff. I turned slowly to look at him. It was dark in the alley, but I could see his smile. his eyes looked hungry, like I was some type of food he had been starving for. He walked slowly and steadily, like a man who already knew how this would end. Like someone reading every single reaction on my face. My heart was pounding so loud I was sure he could hear it. With every step he took closer, the air got thicker. Then he was so close to me I could smell his cologne. And my God, he smelled so delicious. Warm, expensive, masculine — the kind of scent that stays on your clothes long after. He bent his face close to mine, not touching, just close enough that I had to tilt my head up to look at him. "Mila, you don't look happy today as usual," he said. His voice was so deep and calm, but his eyes... his eyes were not calm at all. In my mind I was screaming. Does he know? Does he know when I'm sad or angry? I snapped back. "I'm fine," I whispered. "Just needed fresh air." He chuckled. That low chuckle made my knees weak. Then he leaned in even closer. I thought he was going to kiss me right there. "Mila," he whispered close to my ear, his breath warm against my skin. "You are the fresh air. You smell so good. You've always smelled so good." My whole body froze.The banging got louder.BANG. BANG.The thin wooden door shuddered under his weight. Dust fell from the top frame onto my hair. The lock rattled. It was an old lock, cheap metal. I knew it wouldn't hold for long."Mila! Open this door! Don't make me break it!"His voice had changed. The fake sweet tone was gone. Now it was just raw anger. I pressed my back harder against the door, my feet slipping a little on the wet tiles. My legs had no strength. That drink whatever he put in it was making everything blur at the edges.My purse. I had dropped my purse when I ran in. I think I left it on the floor, near my feet. My phone.I crouched down without taking my back off the door, my hands fumbling. I zipped it open. The phone screen lit up. 1%. No service inside here. The bathroom was at the back of the building, thick walls. One bar, flickering.I tried to think. Sophia. She would think I left. He told her that. Who else? Trex? No.Andrel.My fingers were shaking so hard I almost couldn'
Then I kept on sprinkling water on my face.Again and again. I cupped my hands under the tap and let the cold water fill my palms, then I splashed it on my face. I did it once, twice, three times. The water was cold. It ran down my cheeks, down my chin, down my neck, and soaked the front of my dress, but I didn't care. I kept sprinkling.Still, it didn't really give any difference.My face was still hot. My head was still heavy and spinning. My body still felt light and strange, like it was not my own body. Like I was floating. I had thought the water would help me. I thought the cold would wake me up and make me normal again, but it did nothing. I kept looking at my own hands and they were shaking.I bent over the sink, trying to breathe properly, trying to clear my head.Then I heard it.A creak sound.A long, slow creak. The sound of the door being opened.The door at the entrance of this back side was being opened. At first I didn't think much of it. I thought it was normal. This
Migel kept on talking like we were familiar. That was what was bothering me the most. He was talking like we had known each other for a long time, like we had inside jokes, like he could stand that close to me and I would be comfortable. We were not familiar. I knew his name. He knew mine. That was it. Maybe we had met at one other party. Maybe we had said hi once in a hallway. But that does not mean familiar. I just had to listen to him. I didn't know how to stop him without being rude. He was right there in front of me, talking fast, talking loud, talking like he was doing me a favor by talking to me. He talked about his friends, he talked about a game, he talked about someone who did something funny last week. I kept nodding. My neck started to hurt from nodding. Then finally he left. He said, "Let me go get a drink, I'll come meet you." And he walked away into the crowd. I didn't say okay. I didn't say anything. I just watched him go and I let out a breath I didn't know I was h
We got to the club. Noir club. The most famous club in this city.Everyone knows Noir. If you haven't been to Noir you haven't been out. That's what Sophia always says. I have heard the name so many times in class, on Instagram, people posting their videos with that neon sign. Noir.When we entered, the whole club reeked of alcohol and perfumes. It hit me immediately. I had to hold my breath for one second. Strong perfumes, cheap perfumes, sweet perfumes, alcohol spilled on the floor, sweat. All mixed together. The music was too loud, my chest was shaking with the bass. The lights were flashing, red then blue then white, so fast my eyes hurt. People dancing everywhere, shouting over the music, holding drinks, spilling drinks. Girls in small dresses, boys in shirts that were already wet from sweat.I held my green velvet gown so it wouldn't touch the floor. My heels were already hurting. My big Atenqueens bag was still on Sophia's shoulder, heavy with my t-shirt, my shorts, my fluffy s
My phone was ringing and ringing. I knew who it was before I picked.Sophia."Mila! You forgot! You swear you forgot! Tonight is the party and you promised! You promised you would come dress up with me!"I sat on my bed, my thick socks half off. "I didn't forget, I lied.I did forget. Or maybe I wanted to forget. These past days have been quiet. Too quiet but in a good way. Andrel cooks in the morning, leaves the soup on the table with a note. Takes me to campus. Brings me back. The house smells like food and clean laundry, not perfume and hairspray. I like it. I don't want to leave it.But Sophia... I can't tell her no. If I say no she will come to this house and drag me out by my two buns."Okay, okay I will come," I said. "Where are you? Let's meet at the cafe and do our hair together."She cut the call. No bye. That's Sophia my bestie for you .I jumped up. My heart was suddenly beating fast. Party. Night party. I haven't gone out in days.I ran to the bathroom. I took a quick bat
I woke up because the rain had stopped.That was the first thing I noticed. Not light, not a sound. The absence of a sound.For two days the rain had been the loudest thing in the house. Hitting the roof, hitting my window, Even with my door closed and my headphones on, I could feel it.Now it was quiet.I lay there for a minute under the duvet, not moving. My bedside lamp was still on from last night. Low, warm yellow. My phone was face-down on the pillow next to me. My headphones were still over my ears, but nothing was playing anymore. My playlist had ended at some point in the night.My hair was dry now. My messy bun had fallen out and my hair was all over the pillow. My towel was still in a damp ball at the foot of my bed where I had thrown it last night.My phone said 6:44 a.m. when I turned it over. Battery at 4%. Three messages from Lina in our group chat. One missed call from Dad at 6:02 a.m.And one message from Andrel at 6:15 a.m.Andrel: You're still sleeping. I didn't wak







