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“Naya, please eat this. You haven’t eaten anything for the past three days,”

Narinig ko, narinig ko pero wala akong pakielam. Walang lakas ang kamay ko, ang puso ko parang pinipiga at parang hindi ako makahinga.

“Baby, please. I know it’s very hard for you, but—”

Tinignan ko siya, “You don’t know Kalix. You don’t even have the slightest idea how fucking hard and heartbreaking it is for me, so don’t fucking talk to me as if you know how I really feel,” wala akong pakielam kung ano ang lumalabas sa bibig ko.

Hindi siya nagsalita at tumingin lang sa akin, bahagyang tumigas ang ekspresyon nang mukha niya, maya maya ay lumamlam ang mga mata niya, agad na nag iwas ako nang tingin.

“Okay, I’m sorry. I forgot that you’re their mother. I’m sorry,” sagot niya sa mababang boses, ibinaba niya ang tray na hawak at tumayo sa harapan ko, “I’ll leave it here, if you’re hungry you can eat this, if you want me to heat this up, just call me. I’ll be outside,” iyon lang at diretso na siyang lumabas sa