LOGINRAINA
A week had passed since I met Sylvester at the bar.
I thought about his card every single day. It sat in my purse like a bomb waiting to explode. But every time I reached for my phone, I stopped myself.
Too dangerous. Too risky.
If Castor found out, he would destroy my family. Better to endure this nightmare for five years than risk everything.
At least, that's what I told myself.
Until Wednesday afternoon.
I came home from a charity luncheon to find Teddy's suitcases in the hallway. Four large bags, expensive designer brands that I knew my husband had bought for him.
My stomach dropped.
"What's going on?" I asked Maria, who was dusting the staircase.
She wouldn't meet my eyes. "Mr. Rowland is moving Teddy into the master bedroom, ma'am."
My blood ran cold. "What?"
"He asked me to help you move your things to the guest room downstairs."
No. Absolutely not.
I stormed up the stairs and found Castor in our bedroom, hanging Teddy's clothes in my closet. My closet.
"What do you think you're doing?" I demanded.
He turned to me with that cold smile. "Making better use of space. Teddy needs to be closer for his duties."
"His duties?" My voice was rising. "This is our matrimonial bedroom, Castor. Our marriage bed."
"A marriage you wanted to end, remember?" He folded one of Teddy's shirts with careful precision. "But since you agreed to stay for five years, I'm making arrangements that work better for me."
"You refused to give me a divorce," I said, my hands shaking. "You forced me to stay married to you. The least you can do is respect our marriage bed for the next five years."
"Respect?" He laughed. "You want me to respect a bed I've never even used with you?"
The words stung, but I pushed forward. "I'm not leaving this room. You want to bring your boy toy into this house? Fine. But you're not defiling our bed with him. Take your immoral behavior somewhere else."
His face changed in an instant.
The smile disappeared. His eyes went dark and dangerous.
"What did you just say to me?"
"You heard me. I'm not giving up my room so you can..."
The slap came so fast I didn't see it coming.
My head snapped to the side. Pain exploded across my cheek and mouth. I tasted blood immediately.
I stumbled backward, my hand flying to my face. When I pulled it away, my fingers were red. The ring on his hand had cut my lip.
"How dare you," he said, his voice deadly quiet. "How dare you insult me in my own house."
Tears streamed down my face. Not just from pain, but from shock. He had actually hit me.
"Everything in this house belongs to me," he continued, stepping closer. "The furniture. The cars. The clothes on your back. You own nothing, Raina. Nothing."
I tried to back away, but he grabbed my arm.
"You were a poor kindergarten teacher drowning in debt when I found you. You should be grateful I even noticed you. Do you know how many women would kill for the life I've given you?"
"Let go of me," I whispered.
"I saved your pathetic family from ruin. Your mother gets to keep her restaurant. Your brother gets to stay in school. All because of my generosity." His grip tightened. "And this is how you repay me? By calling me immoral?"
He shoved me away. I hit the dresser hard, knocking over perfume bottles.
"Guards!" he yelled.
Two security men appeared in the doorway. I recognized them. Robert and James. They had always been polite to me before.
Now they looked uncomfortable but obedient.
"My wife is moving to the guest room in the south wing," Castor said calmly, like he hadn't just struck me. "Help her gather her things."
"No," I said, trying to sound strong even though I was terrified. "I'm not going anywhere."
"Take her," Castor ordered.
The guards moved toward me. I backed against the wall.
"Don't touch me! This is my room!"
But they grabbed my arms anyway. One on each side.
"Let me go!" I screamed, struggling against them. "You can't do this!"
They started dragging me toward the door. I dug my heels into the carpet, but it didn't matter. They were too strong.
"Castor, please!" I begged. "Please, don't do this!"
He had already turned away, going back to organizing Teddy's clothes.
Like I didn't exist.
Like I was nothing.
They hauled me down the stairs, my feet barely touching the ground. Maria stood in the hallway, tears in her eyes, but she didn't move to help me.
Nobody helped me.
They dragged me all the way to a small bedroom at the far end of the south wing. A room I had never even been in before. It was cold and bare, with just a bed and a dresser.
They threw me inside and I heard the lock click.
I pounded on it with my fists. "Let me out! You can't keep me in here!"
No response.
I kept screaming until my throat was raw. Kept banging until my hands hurt.
Nothing.
Finally, I collapsed on the floor, sobbing. My face throbbed where he had hit me. My lip was still bleeding.
This couldn't be happening. This couldn't be real.
But it was.
Hours passed. The sun set. The room grew dark.
Then I heard voices. Music. Laughter.
I got up and pressed my ear to the door. More voices. Men's voices. And something else. Younger voices. Scared voices.
My heart started racing.
What was going on?
I got down on my knees and looked through the keyhole. The angle was bad, but I could see part of the main hallway.
Men in expensive suits were arriving. Castor greeted them, shaking hands, laughing. Acting like the perfect host.
Then I saw them.
Boys. Young boys. Teenagers, maybe eighteen or nineteen, but some looked even younger. They wore tight clothes, prepped up with makeup and some sharp perfume. They looked scared.
Terrified.
One of the men grabbed a blonde boy and kissed him hard. The boy didn't resist, but his eyes were empty. Dead.
Another man led a dark haired boy up the stairs by the hand. The boy was crying quietly.
I squeezed my eyes shut, my stomach turning.
This wasn't just an affair. This wasn't just Castor being unfaithful.
This was something monstrous.
The music got louder. I could hear moaning. Pleading. Sometimes crying.
I pressed my hands over my ears, but I could still hear it.
Young voices begging. Men laughing.
I crawled to the corner of the room and pulled my knees to my chest.
This was the man I had married.
This was the nightmare I had walked into.
And I was trapped in the same house with all of it.
The sounds went on for hours. All through the night. Voices calling out. Footsteps in the hallway. Doors opening and closing.
I couldn't sleep. Every time I closed my eyes, I saw those boys' faces.
So young. So scared.
Just like me.
RAINAThree days later and Sylvester's words still sat in my head like a stubborn headache.I hadn't deleted those texts, couldn't bring myself to stop staring at them.Like a dam being let loose, he'd said all the things he wanted to do to me.And what was worse? I couldn't tell him to stop.He'd thrown the decision into my lap and walked away.~Tell me you don't want me.~I hadn't answered.Because I couldn't.The realization sat heavy in my chest all day, every day.By Friday night, it was unbearable.We were supposed to meet at the diner at eight.Eight o'clock came and went.I checked the diner door for the fifth time.Nothing.The waitress topped off my coffee and gave me a sympathetic smile."Still waiting on someone?""Apparently."I looked down at my phone. No messages. No missed calls.Sylvester was late.Not five-minutes late. Not traffic late.An hour late.That wasn't like him.I called again.Straight to voicemail.A knot formed in my stomach.This case was dangerous. Th
RAINAA week rolled by after touching myself to the thought of Syvelster Brian.We met twice for case work. Once at the bookstore cafe. Once at a diner on the north side that he'd picked because nobody from Castor's circle would be caught dead eating there.Both times he behaved.Both times he was professional. Focused. He went through the intel. Asked the right questions. Took notes. Didn't flirt. Didn't touch me. Didn't mention the texts or any other of the incidents that had happened between us in the previous weeks.Both times the air between us was so charged I could barely sit still.It was in the pauses. The half second where his pen would stop moving and his eyes would lift from the notes and find me and something would pass between us that neither of us acknowledged. Then he'd look back down and keep writing and I'd take a breath and pretend my heart wasn't doing something reckless.By Friday, I'd almost convinced myself that we'd found a rhythm. A steady ground where two adu
RAINAI woke up slowly.For the first time in weeks, my body didn't jolt awake with that familiar knot of dread in my chest. I came to the surface gently. Like rising from deep water. The sheets were cool against my skin. The morning light was soft through the curtains. My limbs felt loose and heavy in a good way.I lay there for a moment, not moving, not thinking.Then the memory of last night came back.The bath. The hot water. My hand between my legs. His name in my head while my body came apart.Heat flooded my face.I pressed my hands over my cheeks and lay there like a teenager who'd just done something she couldn't take back. My skin was warm under my palms. My stomach was doing something fluttery and stupid that I was too old to be feeling.But I felt it anyway.I lay there for another minute. Letting it stew. The embarrassment, the warmth and the strange, reckless excitement that came with both.Then I reached for the burner phone.I pulled it from behind the panel in my clo
RAINAAfter my meeting with Sylvester at the bookstore, I went over to visit my mother at the restaurant.We spent the rest of the afternoon talking about the business, the ongoing campaign and every other small topic. Whenever she tried to ask questions about my marital life, I side-stepped and changed the subject. The sun had set in the sky when I finally made my way home.The house was quiet when I got back.Castor was upstairs. I could hear the faint sound of his study door closing as I came through the kitchen. Maria had retired to the servants quarters in the east wing. The hallway lights were dimmed to their evening setting.I went to my room in the south wing. Closed the door. Locked it.I stood there for a moment in the dark. Just going over my day.~I'll try not to think about you tonight.~The words floated in my mind.His voice was still in my ear. His scent was still on my skin. Despite the time I'd spent with my Mom, the heat in my belly hadn't faded. It had followed me
RAINAThe Next Day.After Syvelster's daring texts last night, I worked up the courage to tell him I wasn't coming to his apartment anymore.He'd suggested the cafe without missing a beat. A small place at the back of an old bookstore on the east side. The kind of place where people came to read, not to be seen. He said he'd been there before. Back table. No foot traffic. No cameras.I told myself this was better. Public. Safe. Professional.I walked in at two o'clock in the afternoon carrying a folder of notes Maria had helped me put together. Names. Dates. Staff rotation schedules not at the mansion alone, even up to the Rowland holdings. Everything organized. Everything in order.Speaking of which, Maria seemed to know a lot about the Rowland family and their enterprise. I guess fourteen years was enough time to really know a family in and out.But what suprised me more was her willingness to help without asking questions as to why I needed this information and what I wanted to use
SYLVESTERThe campaign speech was due tomorrow.I'd been sitting at my desk for four hours. The laptop was open. The cursor was blinking on a half-finished paragraph about infrastructure reform that I'd written and deleted three times.Infrastructure reform.I couldn't even say the words in my head without her face replacing them.She'd stood in the middle of my living room this evening with her arms crossed and her jaw set and told me it couldn't happen again. She'd called it a mistake. Said she wasn't thinking clearly. She'd used the word professional like it was a wall she was building between us, brick by brick, while I watched.I'd let her build it.Then I'd asked her one question and the whole thing came down.Did you like it?The silence that followed was the loudest thing I'd ever heard. She hadn't said no. She hadn't said yes. She'd just stood there with her arms crossed and her eyes full of something she was fighting so hard to keep inside that I could see the effort in her
RAINAThe drive took twenty minutes.I took the back roads the way Sylvester had told me to. Past the last row of houses on the south side, past the old rail crossing where the lights hadn't worked in years, past the stretch of empty lots where the streetlights thinned out and the city started to f
RAINAZoe's visit stayed with me for days.The look on her face when Castor walked in. The way her smile had dropped the second he left the room. The way she'd held my face in her hands and said I'm back now like she already knew there was something to come back for.I wanted to call her. Every nig
ZOEI tried sending Castor a message, then decided against it.Not yet. The profile wasn't ready.I sat in that coffee shop for almost an hour building her from scratch. I called her Lila Marsh. Twenty-four years old. Junior associate at a firm in the city I knew didn't exist.I pulled photos from
ZOEI crossed the foyer. Maria was standing near the hall with her hands folded in front of her. She watched me go without saying a word.I got in my car.I driven straight from the airport. I'd come off the plane, picked up my car from long term parking, and pointed it at the address Roseline had







