Ruby's POV
It's been three days since I came to Russia and it has been almost two days since I last made a deal with her. My plan is ready to set in motion and I have to tell her now. Funny how life works.
So, I decided to go to her office today again. As soon as I entered the building, all the staff were silent and shot me curious glances while some continued their work without a bother. And when I glared at all the people that looked at me, they immediately turned away shuffling on their feet. I let an evil smirk on my face as I slowly walked to her office.
The moment I opened the door with a bang, 'death sentence' shot me a bored look before again going back to her work.
Bitch.
There is a reason why I liked her. I didn't give her any attention either as I made myself sit on the comfortable sofa available on the corner and opened my phone and scrolled for ne
I took a deep breath to begin my own story. It is not because she has told me what happened in her life. Neither is it because I feel forced to open myself. It is mostly because I want to have a hope to continue this life.What she said is true. We feel a certain type of connection and I want to grasp it before it can be taken also. There is a reason I wanted to work with her. It is not because Dimitri had said to me that she has the information I need. I could have got the information in many other ways that I know. But when I looked it into her that looked blank to the world I could see the same pain that I have. It is invisible but it is still there.After all, not all things can be seen. Some are invisible and sometimes not all the seen things are true.Those will bring many differences and misunderstandings.I want to tell her because I want to open up. I said to myself to be
Pain That is just the beginning. I don't even know how she would take the information I'm going to spew right now. Well, you wouldn't know unless you see it…….. right? "The torture continued like for years. It started when I was ten years old. Whenever my mom was sober she would cry and hug saying sorry repeatedly. I couldn't even comprehend what is going on. She used to try." I said to her. I know my eyes must be blank. Showing my emotions is difficult for me. Whenever I feel vulnerable with others I immediately close up in fear of rejection. I fear that they don't accept me because of my past. "She used to really try to not come addicted. But every fucking time she tries and I begin to hope that bastard used to drug her again and she is back to that phase again. It was fucking torture to see her like that. The thing that pained me the most is seeing her like that more than the abuse I had gone throu
Memories and reality And that is where he came. Just thinking about him is enough to bring a smile to my face. "He came like a guardian angel. One moment I was on the edge point. Just a second away from dying and the next moment I was in his arms sobbing like a baby as he cradled like one whispering sweet things to me. I sobbed to the point of the unconsciousness. I just let it all out. The years of abuse, rape and live with drug dealers. I just let it all out. I didn't even care that he is a stranger to me. In that one moment when I was in his I felt comforted, I felt safe, I felt protected and that is enough for me to let it all out. His shirt is wet from my tears. He didn't ask me why. He didn't scold me. He didn't shout at me. He, instead, did the opposite." I said to her. For a moment, remembering everything made me believe like that. I want that. I want to be in his arms again. For a momen
Meeting him again "So, we have to meet the Russian mafia leader?" She asked softly but still shocked. Her tears are dried totally and her sobs subsided even though she looked like shit. My lips almost curved up at her. No one saw her like this. She is either scowling and shouting at others and now she looked like a soft teddy bear to me. Sometimes pain makes you close up. And she did the same. I could understand. "Adrian Russo?" She prodded when I didn't answer. This time I really smiled and it was not one of malice, amused or smirking, it is a genuine smile that came from my heart. Under all those blank expressions, she is a little girl who is lost in the world. Innocent, torn. Destroyed. But she has a future unlike me. And she deserves that. She deserves happiness and a better future. And I know she would get that one day. Just a little bit of more patience is needed. Our pain may bond us. But we decided
GriefI scowled at her."You already know him? You should have said to me when I asked you first when I even told you the plan or at least when I told you that we had to meet him. At least when called you pea sized brain." I scowled at her, lifting my hands in exasperation. And then I kept my hands on my hips as I glared at her which didn't even scare her one bit. Instead, she looked smug like a fox with a smirk on her face that I really want to rub right now.And she actually has the audacity of waving me off without any concerns. That bitch. My scowl only deepened more."Listen, I tried to say to you, okay? And if I say it at first, where is the fun there?" She asked, to which I glared more. If a glare could kill, I know she would at least be four feet down on the earth. Knowing her, I know she would glare at the earth to get up or she would kill the earth too and when she finally did, she would sm
Plans and plansI cried for hours. Or maybe more than that. But mostly I was somewhat comforted because of Iris. I know I was playful, smiling, angry, and laughing at one moment and the next second I was crying like a newborn baby. If anyone was in her place they would have left me or laughed at me. But she was there and she actually comforted me. I am thankful to her. Even if I was in her position I would have panicked. I know her words are playful. Just the impact seems wrong on me. It just brought back my past once again.Though those memories are buried in my brain where I don't want to remember again, they just came up again. Maybe opening up all of those brought me back to it. It was just a reminder of how bad I was. I was bad as a mother, I was bad as a girlfriend. I was bad as a sister and I was bad as a daughter. Maybe that's why everyone seems to leave me. I failed as a lover and I fear to fail as a human too. My emotions went into haywire all o
The only optionLife is a very big game. And mine is much more than that. It is not just any game. No, of course not. My life is a very big drama game. A drama I really wish wouldn't come near would always stay in two metre radius from me. So, my life is a very big drama game. And it was endless misery to me. I just couldn't put a full stop to it. Like how difficult will it get. It's always a drama. It seems to have been around me since I was born.Like a sugar molecule and ants. The ants just wouldn't leave the sugar and the outcome is they would get plenty of happiness from sugar but what about that poor, poor, very poor, sympathy deserving sugar molecule. The outcome doesn't seem to be favorable for it. And here I am the sugar who is not sweet enough and the ants were drama who is not small enough. And I couldn't get a break. Ugh. Sometimes life is very much. And that sometimes is becoming forever to me. And believe me, I'm not over
A video Adrian Russo POV "Sir?" A timid knock along with a scared voice brought me out of my thoughts and plans. I just nodded before realizing that the door is locked and he couldn't see me. "Come in" I ordered him. My face is blank and emotionless as a young boy shakingly opened the door and tumbled in, almost face planting himself on the floor. Before he straightened himself as he finally, very hesitatingly, timidly looked at me before again turning away. And this time I couldn't stop myself from rolling my eyes at him. "What do you want?" I asked him not to scare him any more than he already was to extract the information I needed. He was pale as the words tumbled out stutteringly that I couldn't even understand one word he was talking about. I once again rolled my eyes at him. "Say clearly," I uttered to him. He cleared his throat as something akin to a blush raise