Chapter 38

It was the summer’s second heatwave and it did very little to improve my state of mind. 

I didn’t want to be here. I did not want to have to hear the baby’s heartbeat again. My bed at home was calling to me, if it was just another night I might have already fallen asleep by now. 

“Tired?” Doctor Ward noted. 

“All the time.” I answered truthfully. He wrote it down on the clipboard in the typical unreadable doctor’s handwriting. 

“You’ll start getting some more energy at around week fourteen.” He reassured me. “Only a few more weeks left of the first trimester.”

And what a first trimester it had been. I had already lost hope that I would relax throughout this pregnancy, instead I was just focussed on surviving it. When my mind wasn’t a mess it seemed like my life stepped in to make sure that it would be. 

I brushed my fingers over the b