Anastasia

The door to my hostel room opened slowly as it made a creaking noise. I watched Adam tiptoeing inside my room while straining his neck outside wondering if the coast was clear. I couldn't help but giggle softly seeing him all nervous and scared. I mean who wouldn't in his shoes. If anyone caught him entering the girls' hostel at this hour, that would mean total expelling from the boarding school and not when he was close to graduating.

Adam gently closed the door behind me and leaned his back against it letting out a huge sigh of relief. I was sitted comfortably on my small bed with my legs crossed. My cheeks were flushed in knowing he did come afterall. He kept his promise of coming to meet me in my dorm room despite the fact that he could get into lots of trouble if caught.

The thought of it made my heart skip a beat. I was only fifteen now but I felt I knew the entire meaning of love. And the feeling was only meant for that tall boy standing by the door still breathing a bit hard. He was really tensed when coming here. Adam was two years older than me and he was also a class higher than me. We met here in our boarding school. It all started with Adam bugging me from the start and me hating his guts. I was ten when my mom enrolled me in a boarding school. She felt I needed the proper and right discipline that she didn't have any time to do as she was always busy with her work that required her to travel all the time.

But at the same time Adam was my only friend back then. I wasn't the type who was quick to make friends so I only beared Adam's bullying. We became close and it's because of him that I have three other friends as well.

“You're enjoying this aren't you?” Adam asked after he evened his breathing. I smiled and got up from my bed to approach him. He scooped me into his arms and I giggled unexpectedly. His scent made my head feels so hazy. It was always like this. With him around, I felt bewitched.

“I thought you wouldn't come.” I said circling my fingers around his hoodie. I really thought he wouldn't. But he did take the risk and I was feeling like the happiest girl. This fact proved that I made the right choice to fall for Adam. He was a gem of a person and a wonderful boyfriend. He was always there for me all through my loneliness and fights with my mom over the phone. He knew my problems and still stayed with me. Time and time again he proved he deserved my heart. I wasn't wrong here. I wasn't making a mistake. I believed I wasn't.

His arms wrapped around my waist and he looked at me smiling widely. His amber eyes stared into mine with so much focus and love. My heart fluttered everytime our eyes locked with each other. “I made a promise to you Ana. And I intend to keep it. I had to.” He said and pulled me close to kiss me. I also wanted to savor his lips against mine. I wanted to feel the rush build up within my body. Thank God my roommates decided to stay at another dorm room tonight. Tonight was my special night. With none other than Adam Miller.

I moaned as his lips pressed against mine. He tightened his hold around my body perfectly securing me within his reach. He shielded me like a brave knight and now I was overwhelmed with my emotions. Tears filled my eyes knowing this won't last. Adam paused and his eyes scanned my face to see my tears and fallen look. He cupped my cheeks and I pouted a little looking into his eyes. I wanted to look more into his eyes. I wanted to savor this moment because I don't know if I would ever get the chance to look at those golden eyes of his.

“What's the matter Ana? Why are you crying. Are...you sure you wanna do this?” Adam asked with concern. I quickly shooked my head. “No! I want this. I want you tonight Adam. I do.”

“Then why are you crying?” He implored.

“Because you'll be leaving soon for university in England. I won't see you again.” I replied and as I said it, my emotions were now dispelled. I found myself sobbing with my tears flowing down my face. Adam smiled and pulled me into a tight hug.

“Yes I will be going to college soon. But why are you crying? We'll still keep in touch over the phone.” He said. “But I want to hold you all the time. I want to kiss you. I want to feel you always Adam.” I said and wrapped my arms around his back tightly. Adam chuckled a little and I had to punch him on his chest.

“This isn't funny Adam. Am...scared. What if you fall in love with someone else and forget all about me when you leave?” I asked. I couldn't get over the thought ever since Hannah placed it in my mind. Hannah told me how all boys forget their first love when they go away to university. They easily find another girl more attractive and forget that they ever loved someone before. I didn't want to believe Adam would do that to me but the fear didn't go away. The thought of loosing Adam was more than terrifying. He was my everything. My world.

Adam cupped my face and looked at me with all seriousness radiating off his face. His eyes bored against mine. “I will never ever forget you Ana. Don't you ever think that. You're my first love and the only girl I will ever love. No one else can take you away from me.” He said sternly and I blinked. He grabbed my left hand and placed it on his left sided chest- where his heart was. I gulped and blinked. He wanted me to feel his heartbeat. It was beating so fast.

“Can you feel it Ana. Only you are capable of making this heart beat faster. My heart only beats for you Ana.” He said and my cheeks turned red as a tomato. My lips curled up to form an endearing smile and I couldn't help but look away. I felt shy all of a sudden. His confessions everytime seemed to always awaken some new strong feelings to bloom from within me. Was this my love growing stronger for him. It had to be.

“I want you to trust me Ana. I want you to trust in my love for you. In our love. We'll always keep in touch and I promise not to be unfaithful. I always keep my promise to you Ana. And tonight is no exception.” He said with a wide smile. Somehow I felt very much convinced. He had never once broken his promise to me.

I took deep breaths and smiled. “I trust you Adam. I trust in our love.” I said and he seemed very elated with my answer and pulled me in again for a deep kiss. This time I returned his kiss with more fervor. I pulled at his thick black hair while crushing my body against his. We pulled away after a few minutes to gain our breaths.

“So are you ready for tonight. For our first night together Anastasia Robinson?” His speech was deep and sounded Italian. It worked my body up to develop full heat within my body. I couldn't help but recall his mother was Italian. I smiled and looked at him. I wouldn't lie when I say I am nervous. Am hella nervous right now as it's my first time. It's our first time. Adam had told me he had never had sex before. At first I didn't believe him with all the girls in our hostel pinning after him. He was so handsome and good looking. Not to mention also popular and the head of the school's football team. He was a star. Until he told me how he was looking for the right girl to have his first time with. And I happened to be the one. The boring looking girl with my dark brown hair that barely passed my shoulders.

I didn't want to give my nervousness away so I smiled brightly and nodded. Deep down I also wanted to feel part of him inside of me. I wanted to have a taste of him before he would leave for university soon. Something I could hold on to while I would wait for him.

“I know you're nervous Ana. I am too.” He confessed and I felt a lot calmer. It was nice to see that not only me was feeling nervous. “We'll both be each other's strengths.” I said and he liked my words and the next thing I found him holding my hand and leading me to follow him towards my bed in the center of the room.

I climbed my bed first and he followed. My back was pressed against the bed and Adam was on top of me. His eyes now becoming dark and a shade of lust present in those golden orbs of his. I gulped and soon found him lowering his head to rest on the crook of my neck. His wet mouth touched my skin and I gasped with my eyes widened. A new and raw feeling submerged from within me and it felt so good. I imagined my mom and what she would be thinking if she knew what I was about to do right now. She would be staring at me with her mouth hanging down to the floor and her eyes gleaming with horror. I smiled inwardly. I would feel good to see her reaction when she knows one day.

Adam's lips kept trailing down from my neck to my collarbone. His kiss was soft. Inviting and damn good. My body was feeling like a dough rising up. I didn't want to come down anymore. His hands gently squeezed my small boobs and I moaned out loud before covering my mouth immediately. I was so caught up in the moment of being pleasured that I didn't realize that I was still in my hostel room. Adam chuckled softly at my act and it made me blush even more and I hid my face with my palms.

“Your green eyes look so beautiful and... sensual in the dark. It gives a forbidden green flame. Something I want to dare touch and feel.” He declared boring his eyes into mine intently. I knew he was serious and not joking. His seriousness was written all over his handsome face.

I was lost for words. He could make a great poet. I licked my lips and he soon took off his hoodie off of him showing me his perfect body. He had done a fine work on himself and I was feeling more hot now than ever. I pulled him close and kissed him. His body crushed against mine and I felt his erection. It felt huge and big underneath his sweatpants and I grinned inwardly. This night was going to be something special. Something to remember. My first time with my boyfriend Adam Miller.

His kisses and gentleness with my body proved more and more that he was worth me. And I will wait for him come what may. I will wait for him to return and make me his officially by then. I smiled and couldn't wait for that day.